You want to know about me?
When I was little I wanted to grow up to be a superhero, or a galactic admiral. So far I have not discovered how to shoot energy beams out of my eyes and have also been unable to find a fleet of spaceships in need of a leader with zero experience. My application was refused. Fortunately, I have found other ways to amuse myself.
I grew up in a little town called Lakeport on the shores of Clear Lake, in Northern California. It was very pleasant and peaceful, with many opportunities to do whatever it was I wanted. I was a Boy Scout, swam with the Lake County Channel Cats, played Baritone Sax in the Clear Lake High School Jazz Band, carried starring roles in school productions with the Drama program, played baseball with the little league, rode horses, drove cars, rowed boats, and just about everything one could do in Lakeport. I was always larger than the other kids, and we could, as many more cruelly inclined children did, call me fat. But, I was also hilarious, smart, and charismatic, so friends were never a problem. As I grew older, I found that I wasn't satisfied with my life, so I sought new experiences and new perspectives. I looked, and found them in drugs, in spirituality, in history and philosophy, in music, and in nature. I found them in art, in sexuality, in psychology, in travel, in friendships and in love.
I've lived in San Francisco, where I truly met my sister, met my first spiritual teacher, joined dark churches, rekindled friendships and nearly died of an immune disease that would have bled me to death, if I had not been so "fat."
I've also lived in Whispering Pines, near Cobb Mountain where I regained my strength, cuddled with cats, and met my father with new eyes. I worked for a florist and a pizza parlor, sang in a four man acapella group, acted in comedies and Shakespeare shows in Lake and Mendocino Counties, where I met my first love.
We moved together to Santa Cruz, where she left me. (it's alright, she's still in my heart) I worked in Santa Cruz as an aide for a school for teens with various disabilities. I trained with Master Sang un Jin, and learned the Korean martial art of Ho Kuk Mu Sul. I learned to see and read the Auric field at a school in Walnut Creek, and worked as a psychic reader. I lived in van, went to many music festivals, raves and experimented with psychedelics. I fell in love with Chinese and Japanese tea culture and eastern religion and philosophy. I learned forms of meditation, began college, wrote music, poetry and grew to love many men and women. I read books, hiked, swam, cooked, touched and danced. I made friends with drunks, monks, students, race car drivers, businessmen, dancers, artists, kids, drug dealers, models, handymen, poets, musicians, receptionists, teachers, athletes, doctors and travelers.
I've accepted Jesus Christ as my savior, taken refuge in the three jewels of Buddhism, twirled in the reverent ecstasy of the Sufi, choked on the smoke of Black Magi, and shivered with the revelations of a psychedelic shaman.
I now live in a little cabin in the mountains above Santa Cruz, working for a Tibetan Buddhist Retreat center called the Vajrapani Institute. I like the trees, the smiles, and the silence. I work on my music, my art, and write. I do my best to love everyone I meet, in thought or in form.
Maybe I will never be a superhero, or a galactic admiral, but if I can just relax, and tune in to what's actually going on, I find something much better.
Perhaps now that you know "all" about me, you can let it all go, and get to know the real me which can only be experienced this very moment. What timing!
