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About Me

HEY! I'M REALLY POOR AND NYC RENT
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IT IF YOU COULD HELP ME OUT A LITTLE
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"PEOPLE SOMETIMES ASK ME, ' If things are so bad, why don't you just kill yourself? ' The answer is that life is really, really good. I am a complex enough being that I can hold in my heart the understanding that we are really, really fucked, and at the same time that life is really, really good. I am full of rage, sorrow, joy, love, hate, despair, happiness, satisfaction, dissatisfaction, and a thousand other feelings. We are really fucked. Life is still really good." - Derrick JensenYou can IM me at HASSYSMACKER
Only after the last tree has been cut down
Only after the last river has been poisoned
Only after the last fish has been caught
Only then will you find you cannot eat money

I like falafels a lot. Autonomy is good, and so is passion. Intentionally harming other individuals usually isn't. I strive to cause the least suffering possible while still keeping myself happy. A lot of my beliefs are grounded in the idea civilization is essentially a war on the earth and it's inherently wild, free beings. Buuuut, at the same time, I don't like pigeonholing my metaphysical or philosophical beliefs into ballot boxes. This section used to be longer but let's save something for conversation, because I love to talk.
derrick jensen / ran prieur / crimethInc. / infoshop.org / anthropik / ishmael / within our lifetimes / situationist international online / in the wake: a collective manual-in-progress for outliving civilization
They say that kids my age think that they're invincible. Well that seems foolish but I still know I'll never die and it seems to be invincible all you've gotta do is stay alive and I can do that on my own. Can we stay out of the conversation?

My Interests

distributing subversive ideas/literature, falafel, coffee, autonomy, cooking, thought crime, primitive skills, taking in my sensual perceptions as much as I can, indigenous struggles, situationists (to an extent...i hate that they seem stuck in the paradigm of modernity, and want to restructure cities as opposed to abolishing them), egalitarian relations, sewing, peace, non-pacifism, animism, thinking so much i feel like my head is going to explode and only having enough time to vocalize a fraction of it, hedonism, gaia theory, anti-capitalism, dancing like nobody's watching, love, revolution, evolution, self-expansion/expression, anti-civilization(ism?), questioning everything, spontanaeity, shows, liberation!

I'd like to meet:

People from any walk of life who are truly beautiful and genuinely interesting, whatever it is making them that way not being important.

Music:

a lot of everything but gospel, i suppose. will be more thoroughly updated when i'm not lazy.

Movies:

the adventures of sebastian cole, elizabethtown, the machinist, party monster, eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, resevoir dogs, cannibal the musical, vanilla sky, kids, the notebook, se7en, boondock saints, spun, trainspotting, american history x, lost in translation, evil dead 2, american psycho, snatch, basquiat, being john malkovich, the wall, cube, born on the fourth of july, pi, saw, the curve, the shining, good will hunting, super troopers

Television:

Five hundred channels of a day-dream stimulation helps me to resent my life and raise my expectations. Locked into re-runs, your memories repeating, and all your ideals seem so self defeating. For you and yours, the pepsi generation, when you're discontent, you change the T.V. station.

There's Shit on TV by Richard Olmsted

Books:

Ishmael/The Story of B/My Ishmael - Daniel Quinn ....... Endgame/A Language Older Than Words/Walking on Water - Derrick Jensen ....... Demian - Hermann Hesse ....... The Dispossessed - Ursula LeGuin ......... 1984/1984 Revisited/Animal Farm - George Orwell ....... American Gods/Neverwhere - Neil Gaiman ....... What Matters Most Is How Well You Walked Through the Fire - Charles Bukowski ....... Brave New World - Aldous Huxley ....... The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien ....... The Electric Koolaid Acid Test - Tom Wolfe ....... Desert Solitaire/The Monkeywrench Gang - Edward Abbey ....... The Chronicles of Blood and Stone - Robert Newcomb ....... Howl - Allen Ginsberg ....... Stone Hotel - Raegan Butcher ....... White Noise - Don DeLillo ....... On the Road - Jack Kerouac ....... Days of War Nights of Love - Crimethinc Ex-Workers Collective ....... Choke/Fight Club/Invisible Monsters - Chuck Palahniuk ....... Against Civilization - John Zerzan .......

My Blog

and we'll keep on growing

intensity of desire for new growth doesn't fade, ever (i'm forced to assume). and you know what? i'm alright with that.
Posted by like a colt .45 everytime on Thu, 17 May 2007 09:19:00 PST

well, fuck

hmmmm.
Posted by like a colt .45 everytime on Mon, 12 Mar 2007 08:53:00 PST

ali vs. frazier (note to self)

how many more days will you sit and talk about your ambitionsall that you can bethe person you are dying to bethe place you want to get tobut always out of reachbefore that fury swells inside of yougr...
Posted by like a colt .45 everytime on Wed, 07 Feb 2007 12:21:00 PST

premises

Premise One: Civilization is not and can never be sustainable. This is especially true for industrial civilization.Premise Two: Traditional communities do not often voluntarily give up or sell the res...
Posted by like a colt .45 everytime on Wed, 07 Feb 2007 12:17:00 PST

float

i'm like a balloon. hold my string or i might...float away.
Posted by like a colt .45 everytime on Fri, 04 Aug 2006 05:13:00 PST

sure i guess i am a tree hugger

"We're like trees: our roots spread through the earth, anchoring us and helping us absorb water and minerals that keep us alive. But when a tree gets cut down and is disconnected from it's life force ...
Posted by like a colt .45 everytime on Thu, 01 Jun 2006 03:29:00 PST

arsonist's prayer

The horror--that we may not live. We may not live To see the walls fall from between us Between us and the world for which these songs cry out. That the desire--which still lives--to contest, a mark o...
Posted by like a colt .45 everytime on Fri, 19 May 2006 03:55:00 PST

the dead flag blues

the car's on fire and there's no driver at the wheeland the sewers are all muddied with a thousand lonely suicidesand a dark wind blowsthe government is corruptand we're on so many drugswith the radio...
Posted by like a colt .45 everytime on Fri, 19 May 2006 03:53:00 PST

your life as pornography

Your Life As Pornography - By Ran Prieur She stood before him in all her unbearable beauty, moist pouting lips, full perky breasts with hard nipples showing through her thin shirt, tight skirt barely ...
Posted by like a colt .45 everytime on Thu, 27 Apr 2006 04:12:00 PST

a sparring based on the previous blog

Here is an interesting dialogue I had with someone I know in response to a post I made in my livejournal that includes the exact same text that makes up my previous blog: twistedshell 2006-03-23 09...
Posted by like a colt .45 everytime on Thu, 23 Mar 2006 02:50:00 PST