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ZANNY

Brian, May you Rest in peace. You will be missed!

About Me

My real name is Suzanne, but you can call me Zanny. That's my nickname and you can call me either as I have no preference. I'm 33 years old and a single mother. My life has not exactly been a box of chocolates but I have learned a lot and it has given me more empathy and understanding for all. I have a beautiful 7 year old daughter whom I love much more then anything in this world. She is turning 8. Wow, how time flies. She has been my strength, my reason to never give up. But there have been many difficult times too. She was diagnosed with autism when she was a little over 2. That made things a bit difficult in our lives to say the least. But we are getting through it everyday and now she functions normally like every other child.. IT took alot of work and effort. You get the point. I have a wonderful family and my own great place to live. Im not lacking in anyway. OH by the way...I change my "about me" section alot. So you may read this in a few weeks and it will say something completley different. But this is in the now. I was also diagnosed bipolar/borderline personality disorder which is now being effectivly treated medically. I had it since I was 14 but we didn't know and it went untreated and un-noticed for 19 years. So instead, along with countless other people, I began to self-medicate with drugs and alcohol. The last 2 years I have lost 3 close friends to the combination of drugs and alcohol and that is heart wrenching to me. None of them made it to there 30's. It's just not worth the risk to mix all of all this stuff together to solve a problem or to feel good for just a night. Im not trying to preach because I did the same for 19 years. I wish I could have helped them in some way but I couldn't. I finally stopped self medicating before it was too late for me. I am very lucky. Now we all suffer without the people we cared for so dearly. Im going through a tough time right now and I hope all can understand if I don't respond right now to everyone's comments as fast as I used to. But as I always say "this to shall pass." And I hope all of my friends are in a safe place now resting peacefuly as they are all missed and loved dearly. To my very missed friends: STEVEN, SHRODE AND BRIAN God bless you and your families and may you rest in peace.

My Interests

href="http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vczE0OS5waG90b2J1Y2 tldC5jb20vYWxidW1zL3M3My9sYXVyYW1zdGV2ZW5zb24vQ2hhcml0aWVzLz 9hY3Rpb249dmlldyZjdXJyZW50PVNhdmVUaGVDaGlsZHJlbi5naWY=" target="_blank"DEFINING AUTISMAutism is a spectrum disorder, and although it is defined by a certain set of behaviors, children and adults with autism can exhibit any combination of these behaviors in any degree of severity. Two children, both with the same diagnosis, can act completely different from one another and have varying capabilities.You may hear different terms used to describe children within this spectrum, such as autistic-like, autistic tendencies, autism spectrum, high-functioning or low-functioning autism, more-abled or less-abled; but more important than the term used to describe autism is understanding that whatever the diagnosis, children with autism can learn and function normally and show improvement with appropriate treatment and education.Every person with autism is an individual, and like all individuals, has a unique personality and combination of characteristics. Some individuals mildly affected may exhibit only slight delays in language and greater challenges with social interactions. They may have difficulty initiating and/or maintaining a conversation. Their communication is often described as talking at others instead of to them. (For example, monologue on a favorite subject that continues despite attempts by others to interject comments).People with autism also process and respond to information in unique ways. In some cases, aggressive and/or self-injurious behavior may be present. Persons with autism may also exhibit some of the following traits:Insistence on sameness; resistance to change Difficulty in expressing needs, using gestures or pointing instead of words Repeating words or phrases in place of normal, responsive language Laughing (and/or crying) for no apparent reason showing distress for reasons not apparent to others Preference to being alone; aloof manner Tantrums Difficulty in mixing with others Not wanting to cuddle or be cuddled Little or no eye contact Unresponsive to normal teaching methods Sustained odd play Spinning objects Obsessive attachment to objects Apparent over-sensitivity or under-sensitivity to pain No real fears of danger Noticeable physical over-activity or extreme under-activity Uneven gross/fine motor skills Non responsive to verbal cues; acts as if deaf, although hearing tests in normal range. For most of us, the integration of our senses helps us to understand what we are experiencing. For example, our sense of touch, smell and taste work together in the experience of eating a ripe peach: the feel of the peach's skin, its sweet smell, and the juices running down your face. For children with autism, sensory integration problems are common, which may throw their senses off they may be over or under active. The fuzz on the peach may actually be experienced as painful and the smell may make the child gag. Some children with autism are particularly sensitive to sound, finding even the most ordinary daily noises painful. Many professionals feel that some of the typical autism behaviors, like the ones listed above, are actually a result of sensory integration difficulties.There are also many myths and misconceptions about autism. Contrary to popular belief, many autistic children do make eye contact; it just may be less often or different from a non-autistic child. Many children with autism can develop good functional language and others can develop some type of communication skills, such as sign language or use of pictures. Children do not "outgrow" autism but symptoms may lessen as the child develops and receives treatment.One of the most devastating myths about autistic children is that they cannot show affection. While sensory stimulation is processed differently in some children, they can and do give affection. However, it may require patience on the parents' part to accept and give love in the child's terms.Get More at COMMENTYOU.com http://viewmorepics.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.ed itAlbumPhoto&albumID=1215781&imageID=21186116&My Token=8e60fa49-602a-4d97-a803-abf6913776db Beading and pottery and when the weather is nice hiking and I'd love to get back into rollerblading. It's been a while. But then again its been a while since I have had the time to rediscover myself and I'm ready.

I'd like to meet:

Someone who understands me, makes me laugh, and loves me and my daughter just the way we are!

Music:

Anything but country. I listen to the stuff that relates to my mood, and my mood is often different. Jimi Hendrix is a legend as well as the Beatles, Cat Stevens, Frank Sinatra, Billie Holiday and Patsy Kline! India (actually any Salsa)Portishead, Bjork, Tori Amos,Sarah McClaughlin, Jewel, Norah Jones, Pink Floyd, Mobb Deep Red Hot Chilli Peppers, Nirvana, The Smiths,Dave Matthews, Led Zepplin, Radiohead, Smashin' Pumpkins, Blond RedHeads, the Killers, Busta Rhymes, Snoop, Foxy Brown, Lil Kim, Erikah Bahdu, Nas, Jay-Z, the Notorious B.I.G, Akon, Tribe Call Quest, 50 Cent, Llyod Banks, Camron, Cypryss Hill, Slick Rick, Eminem, Beasty Boys, Run DMC, Pink, Gwen Stafani, Madonna, Disco Classics including KC and the Sunshine Band, BeeGees, The Tramps, Donna Summer, Aretha Franklin, the SOS band and Earth Wind and Fire, I also listen to Dimitri from Paris, Louie Vega, Doc Martin, and I can't forget Classical Music. I studied Piano for 9 years. I have studied music from but not limited to Beethoven, Bach, Chopin, Debussy, Motzart, Tschaikowsky. Music is my life and my medicine; without it, I think life would be boring.

Movies:

Hitchcock. I love old movies.

Television:

I have one in every room.

Books:

I have them in every room.

Heroes:

My parents for their love and never-ending support.

My Blog

Loosing friends

You never know what to expect emotionally when you lose a friend.  I have lost three of them in the past two years, and each and every emotion has be different, but yet similar  at the same ...
Posted by ZANNY on Wed, 04 Jun 2008 05:18:00 PST