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About Me

Ranev Sadoma Dark --
[noun]:
The Dark Business. Does not believe that love is a once-in-a-lifetime thing. Does what she can for the world. Helps those who want and deserve it. Tell the rest to find peace elsewhere. Only relies on truth and love and music. Not people, cos they are unreliable. Not material things cos all will fade away. The end.
I love my life. I love my person. I love what I do and who I have become. I am an original creation of every person that I have ever met. I love the beautiful in life. It's everywhere. I love romanticizing what comes off as ugly.
I am certainly not perfect.
But for the first time in a long time,
I embrace my imperfections.
I am enhanced by my flaws.
And that makes me feel all the more beautiful.

I am sarcastic. I am blunt. I am vague. I am funny. I am talking. I am speaking. I am listening. I am hearing. I am odd. I am certain. I am unsure. I am nothing. I am everything. I am your worst nightmare. I am your most pleasurable dream. I am talented. I am proud. I am capable. I am useful. I am trustworthy. I am memorable. I am who I am. But I will never be a regret.
I want to live my life and do beautiful things. I want to go to school and study. I want to do theatre, studio art, music, Latin, religion, speech language pathology, photography, dance, creative writing. I don't know where I'll go. I might stay around here for a few years. Long enough to get some money. But I plan on moving to Pennsylvania, or New York. City, or state. Mostly state. I want to live in a little apartment with my beautiful piano. I want to walk the city streets with a pad and charcoal. I want to sit on a park bench and read something beautiful. I want to drive out of the city and spend the night lying on top of my car, listening to the stars. I want to be in a studio or a theatre. I want to live off of coffee and cigarettes. I want my fingers to be stained with watercolor and acrylics, and callused from writing and smoking. I want to grow my hair out and wear dresses with jeans and boots. It's what I want... for at least a few years. I just want to live my life and help the people that want it and need it. I want to love. I want to be.
I used to think that friends were over-rated but I was a cold and cycinal person. Now, I just say to know who you can trust. And if it turns out you shouldn't have, learn, and move on. Don't keep trashy people in your life. But life your life pure and true and you'll learn in time who is worth keeping around.
People that I enjoy spending time, people that I will make time for almost anytime
KEVYN M
KRISTEN R
ERYQ J
STEFFANI G
SHYA LM
LORI M
DEREK R
ADAM G
SYDNI H

Neices and Nephews and second cousins.
all of 'em.
The twenty or so small children that are a part of my life... I love them all and they make me want to have a baby.
To Shya. Even when I move off to New York, I never want to let you go. What's it been, now? Eight years? You mean more to me than I let show.
To Lori-Lynn. I love you. You've been there for my entire life, and then some. I have known you for as long as I can remember. And I have always looked up to you and I want to live my adult life in much the same way you currently do. I miss you every day.
To my mother. I love YOU. My poem, J'aime Me Mere, is to you in every way. I don't know what I would do without you. You make me laugh and smile and think and you're one of the few people that still has the power to bring me to tears. You have given me so much and have given up so much for me and I love you all the more for it.
To Kevyn. I love you for your faith and devotion, for your plans and goals, for your ideas, for your passion. For the way you are able to love and the way you hurt. The way you feel. I love you for who you are and what you can do to me. You are there when I need you. And I am always here when you need me. Truly.
To Steffani Rae. I'm sorry for any of the ways I have ever hurt you. I don't live my life trying to lie or break promises. But things grow and people change and the future is unknown. That's why promises don't work. However, I appreciate all the fun times you gave to me and how much you contributed to my "teenage girl" experiences.
To Derek. We have a lot of good memories. We grew a lot together. I've done some growing up, outside of our friendship. I hope you never stop growing and learning. Because there is so much to learn. The world is full of things to know and do. I hope you realize that it's not just your little bubble that revolves around your big head. Thanks for the inside jokes, late night phone calls, good times, parallel life, and midnight escape. Thank you for your forgiveness and your friendship. "Friends come and go. TRUE friends go and come back."
"I try my best to rid these thoughts,
Of you and I it’s so hard.
When you come to me,
I fall back on my knees.
I learned to hate love.
You kiss me on the cheek,
You say you’d never make it without me.
It’s getting harder everyday."
aha dirtiest song lyrics EVER. you know....
To Adam. I have felt a lot of different things for you in these past five years. Indifference, love, appreciation, hate, etc. But for the past year, I think I have been pretty steady on love and appreciation. You are always available for a good laugh or an open ear. Any time spent with you is always a good time. Thank you.
To Just Rick. You are so amazing. You brought music to my life and helped me grow as a person. You showed me how beautiful life can be, and how beautiful I am. I appreciate everything you have done for me.
To Nicolas. I do love you and I appreciate you putting up with me for the longest time and everything you do for me. I will always put up with you! Your joy brings me joy, your despair brings me despair, your confusion brings me confusion, your embarassment makes me laugh my ass off. And I love you. Go live your life and be happy. But remember that you will never be truly happy without me ;] haha.

My Interests

Gabriell, I've a beautiful story to tell you!

I'd like to meet:


A M B E R . E N S L E R
B I L L Y . B L O O M
L E G A C I
J O S H . G R O B A N
J O E . N G U Y E N
C H A N N I N G . T A T U M
G A B R I E L
K R I S T I N . C H E N O W E T H
J A M E S . S T . J A M E S
M I S S Y . H I G G I N S
Z O O E Y . D E S C H A N E L
L . J E T H R O . G I B B S
K E L L Y . C L A R K S O N
S T A C Y . D U P R E E
I D I N A . M E N Z E L
S H O S H A N A . B E A N
A L I C I A . M O O R E
T I M . B U R T O N
D A N N Y . E L F M A N
R O B I N . W I L L I A M S
F R A N C E S C A . L I A . B L O C K

Music:

Acoustic. You know, that "emo" stuff you laugh at. And, I've got a week spot for Spice Girls, and NSYNC's self-titled debut album.

Amy Winehouse
Beethoven
Bright Eyes
Cherry Poppin Daddies
Chris Garneau
Christina Aguilera
Colbie Caillat
Danny Elfman
David Nevue
Enya
Eisley
Evanescence
Gavin Degraw
Idina Menzel
James Blunt
Jason Mraz
Josh Groban
Joss Stone
Kelly Clarkson
Kevin Devine
Legaci
Loreena McKennit
Meatloaf
Missy Higgins
Nicolas Kosean Daily
Nelly
NSYNC
Pink
Queen
Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Richard D'von Daily
Sarah McLachlan
Tegan and Sara

The Cogent
The Scene Aesthetic
Usher

Movies:

Juno
The Royal Tenenbaums
Pirates of the Caribbean: The Curse of the Black Pearl
Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Mans Chest
Pirates of the Caribbean: At Worlds End
Harry Potter
The Notebook
Boys Don't Cry
Thirteen
Anatomy of a Hate Crime
Oh Brother, Where Art Thou?
Animusic
A Wrinkle in Time
RENT
The Lion King
Mulan
Grease
Sleepy Hollow
The Nightmare Before Christmas
Charlie and the Chocolate Factory
The Corpse Bride
~~~~~~~
Wicked
Urinetown
Seussical
The Lion King
The King and I
The Sound of Music
Mary Poppins
Avenue Q
iWitness
In the Continuum
Sweeney Todd

Television:

America's Most Smartest Model
Big Bang Theory
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation
Degrassi: The Next Generation
Ghost Whisperer
House
How I Met Your Mother
Mythbusters
NCIS
Pushing Daisies
South of Nowhere
Supernatural
Tru Calling
Two & A Half Men

Books:


FAVORITE BOOKS
Freak Show by James St. James
Invisible Monsters by Chuck Palahniuk
The Phantom Tollbooth by Norton Juster
A Wrinkle in Time by Madeleine L’Engle
Wicked: The Life and Times of the Wicked Witch of the West by Gregory Maguire
I Was a Teenage Fairy by Francesca Lia Block
Cut by Patricia McCormick
Midwives by Chris Bohjalian
Violet & Claire by Francesca Lia Block
Tithe by Holly Black
Define Normal by Julie Anne Peters
Keeping You a Secret by Julie Anne Peters
Speak by Laurie Halse Anderson
Burn by Ellen Hopkins
Crank by Ellen Hopkins
Glass by Ellen Hopkins
Go Ask Alica by Anonymous
Smack by Melvin Burgess
Geography Club by Brent Hartinger
The Order of the Poison Oak by Brent Hartinger
Boy Meets Boy by David Levithan
Deliver Us from Evie by M. E. Kerr
FAVORITE SERIES
“Harry Potter” by J. K. Rowling
“The Time Quartet” by Madeleine L’Engle
“His Dark Materials” by Philip Pullman
“Dangerous Angels” by Francesca Lia Block
“The Spiderwick Chronicles” by Holly Black
“Confessions of Georgia Nicholson” by Louise Rennison
FAVORITE AUTHORS J. K. Rowling
Philip Pullman
Holly Black
Lois Lowry
Madeleine L'Engle
Sharon Creech
Anubis Daemon
Francesca Lia Block
Julie Anne Peters
Edgar Allen Poe
Emily Dickenson

Heroes:

I kind of want to say "all of the theater kids from 05-06" because they influenced me and gave me a solid backing for my entire freshman year. When things went downhill, I always had theatre and Troupers that I could depend on. Sure things were chaotic, but I could rely on that. But it wouldn't be right if I didn't specifically point out Nicolas. We were friends outside of things that involved theatre and singing. We can talk about other things. We have other things in common. It's a multi-leveled friendship and I really love that guy. I wanna be there for him all the time. Nicky, I love you. Sing derry down derry.
Same is true for Rick and Heather. Srslyyyyy
My brother Joe, because he just knows what to say and is always there, even when he can't be THERE.
Actually, all my brothers and sisters. Joe, Casey, Troy, Tara, Meigan, Shya, and Marissa.
Anyone who has saved me from going over the edge at least once. You know.. during my "rough patch," as it's called.
Lori.. she is the one person who was actually helpful in my time of suicidal tendencies. She took care of me, showed me love, and said words that sunk in. They weren't cliched. They weren't lame. She really loves me.. her words came from the heart. I look up to her and she really is my hero in many ways.
My mom. Self-explanitory. I mean really...

My Blog

confused

its really weird how much my feelings about everything have changed. really. i hope that i will one day have the time to write about it all. one day very soon.and, if not write, then draw. or paint. ...
Posted by o' sailor on Tue, 19 Feb 2008 11:46:00 PST

i know....

the saddest part is that she never actually stopped loving him.       ever.
Posted by o' sailor on Tue, 22 Jan 2008 04:41:00 PST

You oughtta see

You oughtta see the secrets I hide. You'd either be really proud, or terribly ashamed.I haven't decided yet.   Ask nicely.Maybe I'll tell you. Ask again. I'll show you.     Seeing...
Posted by o' sailor on Mon, 24 Dec 2007 12:25:00 PST

MTS [what i have, what i want]

so as of right now, i own the following musical soundtracks: urinetownseussicalrent obcwickedthe last five yearsnightmare before christmasgreasecrazy for youmikado i REALLY want to have as many of the...
Posted by o' sailor on Sat, 17 Nov 2007 12:22:00 PST

My turn: 15 Anonymous Statements to People [yeah theyre long]

1] I love you. Even through all my re-evaluations of everything and all the thoughts that go through my head, some of which you know nothing about, I always come to the conclusion that I love you. Eve...
Posted by o' sailor on Sun, 16 Sep 2007 10:59:00 PST

[C][O][L][L][E][G][E]

Colleges.Applications.Reviewing.Narrowing down location, type of school, major, etc.Trying to get some idea of where I want to be and what I want to do.Registration for SAT and deciding which Subject ...
Posted by o' sailor on Wed, 29 Aug 2007 08:24:00 PST

Summation of my bulletins pertaining to children

There are actually seventeen small children in my life.I love every single one of them,even if I haven't met a few.They share blood with me and I love them.The ones that don't share blood,I still lov...
Posted by o' sailor on Thu, 23 Aug 2007 09:45:00 PST

This time, its for real.

Dear World, dear Friends, dear KIM, dear ESANDJ, dear So Many Others,From this day forward,you'll have to WORK to disappoint me.It's hard to let me down when I have learned to expect less than nothing...
Posted by o' sailor on Wed, 08 Aug 2007 04:11:00 PST

Dear Forces of the Universe, forgive us for being idiots.

Taoist symbol of the interplay of forces in the universe. In Chinese philosophy, yin and yang represent the two primal cosmic forces in the universe. Yin (moon) is the receptive, passive, cold female ...
Posted by o' sailor on Sun, 15 Jul 2007 11:38:00 PST

all to one

Pull back the shield between us, and I'll kiss you, Drop your defenses and come, into my arms. I'm all for believing, I'm all for believing. I'm all for believing if you can reveal the true colours wi...
Posted by o' sailor on Fri, 29 Jun 2007 03:51:00 PST