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About Me


Like Yeshua, i am both conservative and liberal.
i am not a moderate. Be hot or be cold, He said. But, like Jesus, i despise the judgmentalism and lack of grace of conservatives and the disregard for truth of liberals. Conservatives do not understand the full meaning of grace. Liberals do not get the reality of truth. And yes, i am speaking generally, but it is mostly true in varrying degrees, of course. And moderates? wtf?!?
And like the Lord Jesus Christ, i despise politics. Besides, both major political parties are owned by the new age movement. Skull and Bones, Freemasonry, et al, are running this nation and virtually all of its institutions.
*This reminds me of my sister*
:(
Senator-elect Amy Klobuchar raped my sister and our family.
i am also a metaphorical rape victim of my former, so-called church. Spiritual Rape could just possibly be the worst crime under Heaven.
................................Shit Happens............................
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Roman Julius Maximus I
Best Boy Ever
*i miss him so endless*

These last few years have been way too much.
i am so tempted to not write since too many ppl misunderstand, misinterpret, and misconstrue what it is that i try to say.
i was born cool. i've always been cool. i always will be cooL.
i am a vissionary...i see things better in the "big picture."
i am a processor...i am very thoughful, contemplative, meditative, intuitive, empathetic, sympathetic, and circumspective.
i am also an artist...very sentimental, hot-blooded, emotional, shoot-from-the-hip.
i believe dichotomy like this can be good sometimes, but is also something that has to kept in check at others.
i am a quarter Polish, 1/8 Irish, and Norwegian, Swedish, German, and ummm, one other nationality of losers from Central Europe that shall go unnamed in public forum ;)
i have a killersweet Gibson electric accoustic guitar
i am the best-dressed transient, Ever.
i try to keep my cards close to my vest becuz
i've been fucked over so damn many times, but in truth
i wear my heart on my sleeve.
i used to throw raves and i had my own nite at a killer club.
i used to do crazy shyt like carsurf and make out with two girls at the same time.
i can drive for miles and miles with just my knee(s)
i have been in more fights than i can count.
i studied everything from Psychology and Political Science to Buddhism to Kung Fu.
i am very well-read.
i believe in peace and love.
i can be very intense at times, but im always willing to listen and hear all sides.
i am almost always righton but sometimes i'm not.
i am sometimes wrong, but i'm always willing to admit it.
i can fall down sometimes too, just like anyone else.
i dont always know what the right thing is.
i always try to do the best i can.
i try to put other people first, but i'm only human.
i have the weirdest day ever, at least once a month.
i like to stay up late.
i am not a morning person.
i love poetry and writing and im going to be a screenwriter and film-maker,
even if i have to kill somebody.
i love to push the envelope.
i often say things i dont really mean.
i live for the quest for truth.
i am naturally inquisitive.
i hate not knowing or understanding something.
derr, i come from a family of medicine...so yeah...duh.
i am too smart for my own good sometimes.
i love music, film and art...i'm very creative.
i am very gifted, and in more ways than one;)
i can see things that other people cannot.
i have in the past not acted on this sight much to God's dismay.
i may sometimes overcompensate for that these days.
i love extreme sports like Snowboarding and Mountain Biking and the next thing im gunna do is Kitesurfing and Kitesnowboarding on Tonka with Josh.
i am gunna buy a 28' boat that sleeps four with Josh this winter.
im gunna start trading in commodities futures with Dewey
who is setting up an account with me soon.
i love to travel and im going all over the world over the next cpl years.
i am almost hopelessly naive.
i am quixotic to a fault.
i have lost more friends than most people ever have, but i make new friends easily.
i have been burned by so many people via money, love, politics, geography, whatever.
i am too trusting, but i dont really care cuz i want to think the best of people, even though sometimes the worst presents itself.
i am probably too forgiving.
i have become so jaded and cynical by betrayal that there are some people i just cannot forgive.
i believe in endless second chances.
i believe that the Buddha was so kickass, but i also totally believe that Jesus was not a liar or crazy or misunderstood by those who wrote about Him †
i believe we live in a corrupt, fallen world.
i am my own person and i dont live my life for anyone but me.
i dont care what the world thinks of me because the world is a horribly subjective, judgmental, fallen piece of hell.
i hate hatred. lol.
i love love.
i love sex, but i can just chill and cuddle endlessly, and waste all the time in the world
i can even wait until marriage with the right girl ♥
i believe in True Love
i love nothing more than the wonderful feeling of a girl falling asleep in my arms.
i loved the comfort and loyalty and love of my departed Roman Julius Maximus I.
i loved him so much i cant even think about getting another dog.
i live for the day, but cant help but think about tomorrow.
i have a genuius IQ...but i was born with a PHD ;)
i have been subverted, undercut, undervalued, subjugated, subdued, and otherwise distracted by various attacks from the powers and principalities thru those closest to me.
i always forgive them when they ask or otherwise prove themselves worthy.
i have a most difficult time forgiving those who do not ask or think they need it or who do not otherwise prove themselves desserving.
i fall short of that particular aspect of Grace.
i do my best to practice Agape, but i do lack patience sometimes.
i am frequently misunderstood, midjudged, and falsely accused.
i am frustrated by how much this has happened in my life.
i am trying to become better at it, but it really seems like the love of this world is waning...
just as Jesus said would happen, of course.
i will not give up on God, becuz he has never and will never give up on me.
i could go on and on and on cuz life is just that big...

Some Favorite Quotes:
"He who travels the fastest, travels alone."
-The Silver Surfer, boy can i relate...
“Don’t pay any attention to what they write about you. Just measure it in inches.”
-Andy Warhol
"Idealism is what precedes experience; cynicism is what follows."
--David T. Wolf
"Cynicism is not realistic and tough. It's unrealistic and kind of cowardly because it means you don't have to try."
--Peggy Noonan
"Happy endings are stories that haven't finished yet."
--From Mr. and Mrs. Smith
"I really wanna take an impossible left, sean."
Emily
To Love and Hate, nor can the reason tell;
But that I hate and love, I know too well.
--Seneca, ancient Roman Poet
"He who sees a need and waits to be asked for help
is as unkind as if he had refused it."
--Dante
"Some animals are more equal than others."
--George Orwell in his monumentally cool Animal Farm
"Be who you are and say what you feel,
because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind."
--Dr. Seuss
"I'm a walking contradiction, partly true and partly fiction."
--Chris Christopherson
"The greatest thing the Devil ever did
was convince the world he doesn't exist."
--Kevin Spacey's character in The Usual Suspects
"I'll torture you so slowly, you'll think it's a career!"
--From Hudson Hawk =D
"I know a life of crime has led me to this sorry fate.
And yet, I blame society. Society made me what I am."
--Duke, from Repo Man :D
"The only thing necessary for evil to triumph is for good men to do nothing."
-Edmund Burke, Grandfather of Conservatism
Your Element Is Fire
Your passion and emotion are as obvious as the brightest flame.
You make sparks fly, and your passion always has the potential to burst out.
You are exciting and creative - and completely unpredictable.
You sometimes exercise control, and sometimes you let yourself go.
Friends describe you as sensitive, spirited, and compulsive.
Bright and blazing with intensity, you seem mysterious and moody to many. What's Your Element?

My Interests



i ♥ genuinely sweet ppl =)

Christ Jesus ,snowboarding, mountainbiking, volleyball, softball(ss), football, soccer, car-surfing (not so much actively anymore ;), waterskiing, wave-running, books, writing, movies, film-making, theology, eschatology, the one-world movement, psychology, philosophy, metaphysics, esoterics, the occult, buddism, taoism, existentialism, nihilism, and isms in general to a point ;)

i really despise this JUDGMENTALLY ILL world. but i love how clever i can be sometimes.

We shoulda elected this dude for Prez...
osama would be gone by now!
But then if Osama bin Laden were dead, the Bush Family and the the Carlyle Group would not still be doing business with the Bin Laden Family in Saudi Arabia.
Get it?!?!




This is my spankin new Sony HDR-FX1

I'd like to meet:



fcuking ♥ this girl =]

some ppl believe that the eyes are windows to the soul.
and many tell lies with their eyes.


Seriously...would and/or will love to meet:

Richard Wurmbrand ;
Eric Blair aka George Orwell;
Former DCI William Colby ;
The Apostle Paul;
Enoch;
The Prophet Elija;
The Prophet Jeremiah;
Siddhartha Gautama The Buddha;
Lao Tse, author of the Tao Te Ching;
Aristotle;
Plato;
Thomas Aquinas;
Sir Thomas More ;
William Shakespeare;
Aldoux Huxley;
Christopher Hitchens ;
Lenny Bruce ;
Terry Gilliam ;
Alex Cox ;
Stanley Kubrick;
Quentin Terentino;
Matt Stone and Trey Parker
Trent Reznor ;
Billy Corgan ;
James Iha ;

and many others...

*Merry Christmas!*

This is not why i started snowboarding...but it doesn't hurt either ;)

*HoTTness*

Check out the horrible things some poor lost soul left in that comment about adultery. it would seem that this person is horifically confused. in John 10:29, Jesus tells us "And I give eternal life to them; and they shall never perish, and no one shall snatch them out of My hand. My Father, who has given them to Me, is greater than all; and no one is able to snatch them out of the Father's hand."

"These things I have written to you who believe in the Son of God, in order that you may know that you have eternal life.(1 John 5:13)."

Amen and Hallelujah!!

Music:





New Fave: Punkrocker by Soft Machine

Legends


Mr. Johnny Cash
Mr. Jim Morrison
Mr. Bob Marley
Mr. James Marshall Hendrix

Spiritual
[i dont like to use the word "Christian" since so many who use that term to describe themselves are NOT all that anyway]
Underoath
Jars of Clay
Sixpence None the Richer
ThirdDay
Bebo Norman
Mark Alan
Stacy Hanson
Grits
POD
Skillet
Switchfoot
Lifehouse
Morella's Forrest
EDL
Pillar
Plumb
Thousand Foot Crutch
John Reuben
Katy Hudson
Relient K
Channelsurfers
Burlap To Cashmere
Caedmon's Call
"Better Is One Day In Your House Than Thousands Elsewhere"


Now, The Urgency Of

the Gorillaz
underOATH
Sonic Youth
ToolPerfect CircleTool
Smashing PumpkinsZwanSmashing Pumpkins
Puddle of Mudd
Red Hot Chili Peppers
Peter Gabriel
n.e.r.d.
Basement Jaxx
Maroon 5
the Killers
Kings of Leon
Ryan Adams
Howie Day
the Strokes
Arctic Monkeys
the Vines
Modest Mouse
the Goo Goo Dolls
Dashboard Confessionals
Yeah Yeah Yeahs
the Doves
Finch
Story of the Year
Sigor Ros
Keane
Nancy Wilson
Staind
Sublime
Greenday
one minute halo
smile empty soul
something corporate
deathcab for cutie
bleed the dream
theory of a dead man
the honorary title
authority zero
blindside
emery
brand new
the early november
taking back sunday
Hawthorne Hights
yellowcard
Jimmy Eat World
Dead Poetic
the Used
A Static Lullaby
she wants revenge
mars volta
Garbage
Beck
Coldplay
John Mayer
David Grey
Linkin Park
SoundgardenAudioslave
Slipknot
Incubus
Nirvana
Foo Fighters
Everlast
Blink 182
Black Eyed Peas
Grits
Bob Marley
Cypress Hill
the Cure
Joy DivisionNew Order
the Orb
Oakie
U2
Pink Floyd
Jethro Tull
Fatboy Slim
Blondie

Xcore-Punk-Post Xcore

underoath
thrice
senses fail
scars of tomorrow
underminded
poison the well
twilight city fracture
orangeburg massacre
the agony scene
navaeh
hollywood undead

That Which Feels So Good

Anubian Lights (Bhajan)
Hooverphonic (The Magnificent Tree)
Les Nubians
Afro-Celt Sound System
The Orb
Oakie
BT
DJ StevieB (iknow that dude)
DJ Josh (iknow that dude too)
The Chemical Brothers
Astralwerks
Fluke
Jamiroquai
DJ Amber
DJ Tiesto
DJ Dutch
Stereolab

70s
Earth, Wind and Fire
Grand Funk Railroad
AC DC
Van Halen
Kiss
Foreigner
The Cars
Poco
Styx

80s+ alternative

Jane's Addiction
the Smiths
Kate Bush (Running up that hill :)
Cocteau Twins :)
XTC
Lush
This Mortal Coil (Song of the Siren :)
Everything But The Girl
the Ocean Blue (Drifting and Falling :)
Psychedelic Furs (Ghost In You :)
Pavement
tha Pixies
The The
the Jesus Lizard
Echo and the Bunnymen
Haricut 100 (LoVe PluS oNe :)
Romeo Void...i might like u better...
Jesus and the Mary Chain
Siouxsie and the Banshees
BauhausDali's CarLove and RocketsPeter Murphey

80s punk

the Clash
the Sex Pistols
the Dead Kennedys
Adam Ant
BowWowWow

80s industrial n techno

Ministry
Revolting Cocks
My Life With The Thrill Kill Cult
KMFDM
Skinny Puppy
Lords of Acid

Diggable Planets

Locally

Spymob
DJ Rap
Atmosphere
Sonik boom of love
tha Suburbs
tha Replacements
Soul Asylum
Husker DuSugarBob Mould
Trip ShakespeareSemisonic
Bodeans (kinda local sorta)

Bay Area

GahundzaPump MotherAmerican Drag
Miggs
Primus
Psychofunkapuss
Poetic Justice
Skyclad

OGs of Hard Rock

the Doors
Jefferson Airplane
Rolling Stones
Pink Floyd
Led Zeppelin
the Who
Jethro Tull

Movies:


Every Right-Wing "christian" NEEDS to see this film at least 4x
Anyone who thinks the death penalty is cool...needs to see this film.
*Syriana Is The Most Important Film of the Decade*
i love art.
i love film that makes u think and feel and empathize with the characters, whether good or bad. Also, i am very very creative and intensely emapathetic and even...dare i say?...sublime...so it takes more than just a pretty face or a lotta explosions to keep my interest.
My fave Directors are David Lynch, Terry Gilliam, Tim Burton, Sam Mendes, Ridley Scott, Joel Coen, Christopher Nolan, Alex Cox, Cameron Crowe, Stanley Kubrick, George Lucas, Francis Ford Coppola, Paul Thomas Anderson, James Mangold and Quentin Terantino
* = i own it
Cool as Fcuk
Wicker Park...Paul McGuigan
The Life of David Gale♥...Alan Parker
♥KissKissBangBang...Shane Black
*The Manchurian Candidate (2004) ... Jonathan Demme
*Vanilla Sky♥...Cameron Crowe
*Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind♥ ...Michel Gondry
*Memento♥---*Batman Begins♥ ...Christopher Nolan
*Sin City♥ ...Frank Miller & Robert Rodriguez
*REPO MAN♥ and Sid and Nancy...Alex Cox
Nowhere...Gregg Araki
Lair of the White Worm---Whore---Gothic ...Ken Russel
*The Man Who Fell To Earth---Track 29 ...Nicholas Roeg
*Trainspotting---*The Beach ...Danny Boyle
*24 Hour Party People ...Michael Winterbottom
*Swordfish ...Dominic Sena
*The Professional♥ ...Luc Besson
Batman---*Edward Scissorhands♥---*The Nightmare Before Christmas♥---♥Sleepy Hollow---*Planet of the Apes---*Big Fish♥---Charlie and the Chocolate Factory♥ ...Tim Burton
*The Butterfly Effect♥ ...Eric Bress and J. Mackye Gruber
*Clerks---Chasing Amy---Mall Rats---Dogma---*Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back ...Kevin Smith
*Conspiracy Theory ...Richard Donner
*Three Days of the Condor...Sydney Pollack
*1984♥ ...Michael Radford
Brave New World ...Leslie Libman and Larry Williams
Equilibrium ...Kurt Wimmer
*Animal Farm♥ ...John Stephenson
*THX 1138♥---Amerian Grafiti---George Lucas
*Go♥, *The Bourne Identity...Doug Liman
*The Bourne Supremacy...Paul Greengrass
*The Interpreter, The Bourne Supremacy 3 ...Sydney Pollack & Paul Greengrass
*Underworld...Len Wiseman
The Cook, the Thief, His Wife, Her lover♥ ...Peter Greenaway
Something Wild ...Jonathan Demme
*Julian Po ...Alan Wade
*The Game ...David Fincher
*The Others ...Alejandro Amenabar
Walk the Line♥---*Identity ...James Mangold
♥*Star Wars Episodes I,II,III are fukking brilliant...No one understands Hegel's Dialectic better than George Lucas who employed dialecticalism perfectly in these prequels. George Lucas won a life-time acheivement award btw...and is a film-making genius (yes, despite his pandering to youth and families in the star wars films) really tho he is so humble that he totally demurred when he accepted the award saying he really has made only "two films!" And Lucas Ranch is sooo cool...even has its own fire dept yo...i got to see Indy's hat and whip and sum of the star wars stuff too. =]
Classics
The Graduate (1967) Mike Nichols
Gaslight (1944) George Cukor
Citizen Kane (1941) Orson Welles
Gone With The Wind (1939) Victor Fleming
Muzik
*Gorillaz Demon Days Live♥
Walk the Line♥...James Mangold
Stop Making Sense♥ ...Jonathan Demme
*Pink Flyod The Wall♥...Alan Parker
♥Rocky Horror Picture Show!!! ...Jim Sharman
*West Side Story♥ ...Jerome Robbins
Minnesota
*Monty Python and the Holy Grail (1975)-- Time Bandits♥-- The Meaning of Life-- *Brazil♥-- The Adventures of Baron Munchausen-- *The Fisher King♥-- *12 Monkeys♥-- Monty Python & the Quest for the Holy Grail♥-- Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas ...Terry Gilliam ...another brilliant film-maker(MN rocKx)
*Blood Simple♥-- Raising Arizona♥-- *Miller's Crossing♥-- *Barton Fink♥-- The Hudsucker Proxy♥-- *Fargo-- The Big Lebowski♥-- O Brother, Where Art Thou?♥-- ...Joel and Ethan Coen (minnesota rocKx =)
Drama
The House on Carroll Street...about how Allen Dulles and his Occultic Cia imported hundreds and hundreds of Nazis after WWII
*American Beauty♥, *Road to Perdition♥ ...Sam Mendes
i had way more films listed here, but someone deleted them.

Television:

someone deleted this.

24
Lost
Heroes
Scrubs
12 ounce mouse
ATHF
Metalacolypse
The Daily Show
The Mind of Mencia

Books:

someone deleted this too.
The Bible by God
Jesus Freaks by DC Talk and Voice of the Martyrs
Tortured for Christ by Richard Wurmbrand
Wild at Heart by John Eldridge
The Screwtape Letters by C.S. Lewis
The Illuminati by Larry Burkett
Inferno by Dante Alighieri
Satanic Verses by Salman Rushdie
1984 and Animal Farm by George Orwell aka Eric Blair
Brave New World by Aldous Huxley
Player Piano/Slaughterhouse 5/Breakfast of Champions/Dead-Eye Dick by Kurt Vonnegut
Notes From the Underground and The Grand Inquisitor by Fyodor Dostoevsky
Nausea by Jean-Paul Sartre
Siddhartha by Herman Hesse
Pictures of the gone world by Lawrence Ferlinghetti
the Beat Reader
Living at the Movies and Basketball Diaries by Jim Carroll
Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas by Hunter S. Thompson
Waiting for Godot by Samuel Beckett
Beowulf
Gilgamesh
Anything by William Blake
Unseen Rain by Rumi
Black Beauty by Anna Sewell
Still Life With Woodpecker by Tom Robbins
The World According To Garp by John Irving
A Tale of Two Cities, David Copperfield, A Christmas Story by Charles Dickens
The Old Man and the Sea by Ernest Hemingway
Ordinary People by Judith Guest
Our Town by Thornton Wilder
The Gunslinger, It, The Stand by Stephen King (11)
Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy by Douglas Adams
Atlas Shrugged by Ayn Rand
Kosmos by WITOLD GOMBROWICZ
Polish author who won the International Prize for Literature, 1967
How the Irish Saved Civilization by Thomas Cahill
En Route To Global Occupation by Gary Kah
Walking With The Devil--What Bad Cops Don't Want You To Know And Good Cops Won't Tell You --- by Michael W. Quinn
[i've actually read way way more than this]

Heroes:



My Blog

Sad Irony

i just read that Mel Gibson's latest film, Apocalypto, debuted at No. 1 this weekend past taking in $14.2 Million. SNL made lots of fun at Mel Gibson's expense due to his recent drunken tirade against...
Posted by Ðj §ean † on Mon, 11 Dec 2006 11:39:00 PST

Useless Football Fact

Top Ten Rush Defenses of All-Time 1942 Bears.......47.2 Yds per Game 2006 Vikings.....53.3 ypg 1944 Eagles......55.8 2000 Ravens.....60.6
Posted by Ðj §ean † on Sun, 10 Dec 2006 12:05:00 PST

More Corporate Conspiracy

THE NEW WORLD DISORDERBush-41 officials in Chinese cargo-monitor deal Firm connected to communist regime setting up high-tech sensors in U.S. Posted: December 8, 20061:00 a.m. Eastern By Jerome R...
Posted by Ðj §ean † on Fri, 08 Dec 2006 09:11:00 PST

Bush Family + Bin Laden Family = $$$

CIA agent alleged to have met Bin Laden in July, 2001French report claims terrorist leader stayed in Dubai hospital Anthony SampsonThursday November 1, 2001The Guardian Two months before September 11 ...
Posted by Ðj §ean † on Thu, 07 Dec 2006 10:44:00 PST

A Beautiful Miracle

check it ouT!!i just got off the fone with mi amigo y compadre, Joshone of the dudes who was in my crew from the rave dayzhe got married in Chicago a few years ago. and like 2 wks ago, his brother-in-...
Posted by Ðj §ean † on Sat, 25 Nov 2006 11:27:00 PST

Girls, God, and gosh the fuck.

ok.  for the last few years, i have been misunderstood, misinterpreted, misconstrued, misjudged, etc, etc, ad nauseum.  wtf.  well, actually, i know wtf.  the spirit of confusion i...
Posted by Ðj §ean † on Sat, 04 Nov 2006 10:47:00 PST

A girl's chains

chains of laughterchains of funchains of endless games in the sunchains of lustchains of desirechains of things devoured by Bema firechains of deceptionchains of lieschains of abitrary things despised...
Posted by Ðj §ean † on Wed, 18 Oct 2006 08:12:00 PST

Better To Have Loved And Lost...

Better to have loved and lost Than never to have loved at all.                               &n...
Posted by Ðj §ean † on Sun, 17 Sep 2006 05:48:00 PST

History 101.9.11

Ordo Ab Chaok so here is the big picture:  There is nothing new under the sun. These are some of the things that started wars either here in America or elsewhere around the world [for practical p...
Posted by Ðj §ean † on Tue, 12 Sep 2006 11:33:00 PST

seven times i screamed at the world

Seven times i screamed at the worldNo one             looked at meThe earth shookGold-rimmed plates crashed          &nb...
Posted by Ðj §ean † on Mon, 04 Sep 2006 04:24:00 PST