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souldelirium

It's that little souvenir of a terrible year that makes me smile inside...

About Me

love is not a victory march it's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah
I love men and women, I love animals, I'm a well-travelled, well-educated, bilingual girl who lives for new experiences. Sometimes submissive, sometimes dominant, I tend to approach things a bit differently than most, seeing life as a series of adventures and explorations. I tend to live for the adventure and lesson therein to be learned, rather than the final outcome. If I see something or someone I want, I'm not afraid to reach out and grab it.
I love to dream and to explore alternate states of consciousness, alternate realities. I love being naked. I adore Bettie Page. My favorite colours are purple, green, blue, and glitter, in that order. I love photography, especially of the erotic kind. I love a good spanking. I love being bound. And, sometimes, I enjoy doing this to others. I love life, but am fascinated with death and all things dark.
I hate arrogance, ignorance, mindlessness, people who flick their cigarrette butts out of car windows and equally people who spit on sidewalks, rednecks, fuckwits who try to push their religions on others, George W. Bush, males or females for that matter, with agendas/ulterior motives, disrespect, close-mindedness, people who've apparently obtained their drivers' licences from cracker jack boxes, negative, melodramatic crybabies, spiders, roaches, clowns, global sewer spillage, republicans, and big scary things that jump out at you in the dark. And, I absolutely abhor balloons. I keep tryng to find the name for my "balloon phobia" but so far I've not had any luck. *edit to add: it's called "globophobia"
I am a voyeur. I am an exhibitionist. A sensual healer. A passionate and intense lover. I am a hopeless romantic at heart and often find myself getting mine broken. I love with such an intensity that I'm almost constantly in pain. I guess that makes me something of a masochist. I am resilient. Strong-willed. Honest to the point of sometimes being crass. Clumsy at times, I find myself stumbling over my own feet and sometimes my own words. Sometimes I lose myself in uncontrollable fits of laughter. Sometimes I cry because the world is too much. Music is my soul. Learning by Living. And Loving. Experiencing all there is...in the only way I know how.
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Radiohead - A ReminderIf I get old I will not give in But if I do Remind me of thisRemind me that Once I was free Once I was cool Once I was meAnd if I sat down And crossed my arms Hold me into This songKnock me out Smash out my brains If I take a chair Start to talk shitIf I get old Remind me of this That night we kissed And I really meant itWhatever happens If we're still speaking Pick up the phone Play me this song.

My Interests

1920's, 1940's pinups, 1950's pinups, 80's music, absinthe, anais nin, anne rice, antiques, art, art nouveau, bdsm, beauty, being restrained, being tied up, bellydancing, bettie page, billie holiday, billy idol, bisexual, biting, bladeplay, blood, body art, bondage, boticelli, breathplay, bt, burlesque, cats, chartreuse, christopher walken, clara bow, coldplay, corsets, crispin glover, cruxshadows, d&b, david bowie, dead can dance, depeche mode, diversity, dominance, dragonflies, drew barrymore, ella fitzgerald, erotic art, erotic photography, eroticism, evolutionary biology, exhibitionism, faggy dance music, ferrets, fetish, flamenco dancing, flirting with death, freaks, geeks, girls in glasses, glasses fetish, goddess worship, hinduism, goth, guys in glasses, guys wearing makeup, hair fetish, honesty, independence, industrial music, intellectuals, james bond, james spader, jane's addiction, jazz, jeff buckley, john cusack, josephine baker, julian sands, kissing, lace, lesbians, lipgloss, lipstick, long road trips,latin culture, love, lucid dreaming, maat magick, madonna, manu chao, mexico, middle-eastern dance, morrisey, mysticism, new orleans, nina simone, nootropics, open-mindedness, orchids, organic foods, otherkin, pagan, pansies, photography, piercings, pin-up, platform boots, poe, poetry, political activism, polyamory, queer as folk, quentin tarantino, radiohead, rainstorms, respect, river phoenix, san miguel de allende, sasha, secretary the movie, sex, sex magic, sex therapy, sexuality, shapeshifting, sisters of mercy, smartdrugs, sneaker pimps, snuggling, soft skin, somafm.com, spirituality, stargazing, sting, strangulation, subculture, submission, suicide, sushi, tall men, tantra, tattoos, tea, the cure, theivery corporation, tori amos, transhumanism, transvestites, travelling, u2, unity, vampire erotica, vampire fetish, vanilla, vintage erotic art, vnv nation, voyeurism, waist cinchers, wine, wolfsheim, writing, ziegfeld girls

I'd like to meet:

Billy Fucking Idol and Crispin Glover
but seriously folks...
Someone with a beautiful soul, open-minded, who's not psycho and who has a brain and a good sense of humor. Honesty and good taste in music are imperative, as well as a healthy penchant for kink. Adventurous and not afraid to follow their dreams. Someone who enjoys traveling. Someone to just hang out and have a good time with and get to know better. If the sparks fly, we'll see what happens next...someone who will expand my horizons, challenge me, and make me question myself and the world around me.

It would also be really nice to meet someone who wouldn't fucking lie to me for once.
**NOTE**: I get a lot of friend requests, especially from men, whom I have seemingly nothing in common with except for location (if that). If you are interested in becoming my "friend", at least write to me first and tell me why. If you can't even speak/write in proper English, please don't bother. I may or may not add you after that, depending on what I think.Oh yeah, and if you're a gossipy, whiny, trash-talking fake-plastic bitch, we won't get along, at all. Please move right along with your little herd of hussies...
"In the depth of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer"

Lust and Laughter- one makes life possible, the other makes life endurable.

"Language"

If language were liquid It would be rushing in Instead here we are In a silence more eloquent Than any word could ever be

These words are too solid They don't move fast enough To catch the blur in the brain That flies by and is gone Gone Gone Gone

I'd like to meet you In a timeless, placeless place Somewhere out of context And beyond all consequences

Let's go back to the building (Words are too solid) On Little West Twelfth It is not far away (They don't move fast enough) And the river is there And the sun and the spaces Are all laying low (To catch the blur in the brain) And we'll sit in the silence (That flies by and is) That comes rushing in and is Gone (Gone)

I won't use words again They don't mean what I meant They don't say what I said They're just the crust of the meaning With realms underneath Never touched Never stirred Never even moved through

If language were liquid It would be rushing in Instead here we are In a silence more eloquent Than any word could ever be

And is gone Gone Gone And is gone
~Suzanne Vega~

Music:

Depeche Mode, The Cure, David Bowie,Billy Idol, Billie Holiday, Nina Simone, Ella Fitzgerald, BT, New Order, Sasha, John Digweed, Delirium, Radiohead, Wolfsheim, Dead Can Dance, Frou Frou, Halou, Thievery Corp., Manu Chao, U2, Roxy Music, Pulp, Future Sounds of London, Lemongrass, Sneaker Pimps, Portishead, Adam Ant, Das Ich, Duran Duran, The Fixx, Jane's Addiction, Prince, Peter Murphy, the list goes on...

Movies:

Memento, Secretary, Motorcycle Diaries, Y Tu Mama Tambien, Lost Boys, Stand By Me, Breakfast Club,House of Mirth, My Summer of Love, This Girl's Life, James Bond, Velvet Goldmine, Bladerunner, Trainspotting, Indiana Jones, My Own Private Idaho, River's Edge, Harold and Kumar Go to Whitecastle, Quentin Tarantino, David Lynch films, almost anything with Ben Stiller or John Cusack, comedy, horror, sci-fi, porn, foreign and independent films...

Television:

I don't watch much tv, but when I do, I like to laugh, mostly... Kids in the Hall, Queer as Folk, AbFab, Reno 911, Dr. Who (w/Tom Baker)-who wants to buy me the box set? , Daily Show

Books:

Story of O, The Ethical Slut, Don Quijote de la Mancha, Fav. authors/poets: Anais Nin, Joseph Campbell, Alice Walker, Maya Angelou, Sarah Vowell, Anne Rice, Marquis de Sade, Jim Carrol, Jack Kerouac, Nietzche, Pablo Neruda, Cervantes, Jose Luis Borges, too many more... I'm sure my list will grow.

Heroes:

Bettie Page, Anais Nin, Josephine Baker, Mama Margaret, people who aren't afraid of being honest

My Blog

October...

Sooo, in October, my visa runs out, which means I have to return to the states to get it renewed....October is also a very special day in a very special city, for some of us..namely:  New Orleans...
Posted by souldelirium on Wed, 02 May 2007 02:16:00 PST

Emily Dickinson

I think I was enchantedWhen first a sombre Girl-I read that Foreign Lady-The Dark-felt beautiful-And whether it was noon at night-Or only Heaven- at Noon-For very Lunacy of LightI had not power to tel...
Posted by souldelirium on Mon, 16 Apr 2007 10:00:00 PST

At home!

Ya estoy en mi casa!  I'm here, finally!  I arrived on Tuesday night...had quite a time crossing over the border at Reynosa *lesson learned*:  never, ever ever ever EVER cross there!&nb...
Posted by souldelirium on Fri, 06 Apr 2007 03:32:00 PST

A Poll, of sorts

If one had to choose... which of these places would you choose to live and why?  New OrleansPortlandSeattleNew York CityL.A./Hollywoodsomewhere else in California (say where and why)FloridaAlso, ...
Posted by souldelirium on Fri, 15 Dec 2006 09:21:00 PST

It's that time again...

Season's Greetings.  This month, instead of trimming a tree, I'll be trimming my "friends" list.  If you got deleted, it's because I don't know you, I don't like you, you're a vagina co...
Posted by souldelirium on Mon, 11 Dec 2006 11:43:00 PST

Happy Birthday to ME!!

Just wanted to say thanks to everyone who's sent me "happy birthdays"... love you guys!!  Bitches better have my cake tonight!  ...
Posted by souldelirium on Mon, 04 Dec 2006 01:47:00 PST

quote of the day

"Yet each man kills the thing he loves,By each let this be heard,Some do it with a bitter look,Some with a flattering word,The coward does it with a kiss,The brave man with a sword!"~Oscar Wilde ...
Posted by souldelirium on Sat, 18 Nov 2006 05:07:00 PST

Scientists use artificial chromosomes to correct genetic defects

The public and even many scientists are unaware of how close science is to making germ line engineering a reality, said Dr. Michael Rose, who studies the genetics of ageing at the University of Cali...
Posted by souldelirium on Mon, 13 Nov 2006 07:31:00 PST

Success

I'm so laughing right now...
Posted by souldelirium on Sat, 11 Nov 2006 04:07:00 PST

Quote of the Day

"There is a part of me that is secretly enjoying pissing people off, because I know that when you're pissing people off you're often doing the right thing,"  "What I hope I'm doing better now tha...
Posted by souldelirium on Tue, 07 Nov 2006 02:02:00 PST