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Silke

Conspire (L) To breathe with

About Me

i am a corner-store adventurer who finds delight and beauty in unlikely places. i seek to access wonder and admire the absurd. i strive to be awake in the moment and of service in my waking life. i have already lived a very strange story but i still admire the bold tricksters of this world. i am fascinated by dark corners and captivated by color. i laugh when i am uncomfortable and cry only when i am totally at ease -- i find both positions genuinely funny and fleeting. i am a recovering journalist and reluctant author whose real life's work should never earn a cent. i have a dedicated practice which teaches me that thoughts are as transitory as breath but i still like to wrestle, curse, and wear clown socks. last year, i went to India where i licked the Taj Mahal; worked for a textile trader in the Thar Desert; and volunteered at the house for the destitute and dying in Kolkata -- none of which challenged me as much as sitting in silence for 14 hours a day while my brain roared. upon returning, i moved into a hospitality house and took up duties serving new york's surviving poor on the lower east side. it's a start... i find myself in the unlikely position of spending every other season in san francisco where i write and wander and watch pirated movies on my childhood chum's big tv. none of which feels the way it sounds.

My Interests

clowns and pirates in all their many guises; abandoned buildings; new street corners; climbing, falling; finding, losing; sitting quietly with my unsettled mind; black holes, dice walks, bats, and cephalopods; service, a lot of service

I'd like to meet:

rodeo clowns. conjoined twins. midget bullfighters. heroes, heroines, and hustlers who have outgrown themselves. lovers of crumbling structures, both physical and mental. scientists who uncover poetry; artists who prefer craft; laborers who construct gallows humor; loudmouths who practice silence. those who question commerce and find delight in detritus. anyone able to wink at fear and tickle my ribs. those who know it's funny because it's true.

Music:

Gun Club, Fang, Urban Assault, Buzzcocks, Bad Posture, Serge Gainsbourg, Edith Piaf, Kurt Weill, Django Reinhardt, Nick Cave, Pogues, Billy Nayer Show, Nina Hagen, Nina Simone, Leonard Cohen, Antony and the Johnson, Cat Power, PJ Harvey, Billie Holiday, Iva Bittova, Yuri Yunakov, Fear, David Banner, 16 Horsepower, Arthur H, Charlie Parker, Otis Redding, Beastie Boys, The Stooges, Cesaria Evora, Redskins, Stiff Little Fingers, Faun Fables, Songs: Ohio, Cocksparrer, Smog, Tom Waits, Box Car Saints, any Harry Smith or Alan Lomax anthology, Violent Femmes, Johnny Cash, Handsome Family, Joy Division, Hank Williams, Hasil Adkins, Winfred E. Eye, Carmen Linares

Movies:

GENERALLY: Gatlif, Herzog, Malick, Wenders, Maddin. SPECIFICALLY: The Cruise; Godard's Breathless; Kubrick's Lolita; Fast, Cheap and Out of Control; Saddest Music in the World; Pig in the City; Raging Bull; Jungle Book; Latcho Drom; Badlands; Gummo; Repulsion; A Clockwork Orange; The Tenant; Apocalypse Now; Shakes the Clown; Stranger Than Paradise; Wings of Desire; Rivers and Tides; Caddyshack; Blade Runner (director's cut); Look Back in Anger; The Ogre; The Hustler; Cat on a Hot Tin Roof; The Wild Dogs; In the Realms of the Unreal. A CURRENT FAVORITE: No Country for Old Men really turned my crank

Television:

Honestly, some nights, I wish I could lay in a big fluffy bed and watch cable TV... I used to really like The Daily Show; Deadwood; Battlestar Galactica, Gong Show; the Young Ones

Books:

GENERALLY: Rilke; Baudelaire; Flannery O'Connor; Mervyn Peake; Lewis Carroll; Maurice Sendak; Edward Gorey; Colin Wilson; Truman Capote; Nabokov; Mikhail Bulgakov; Comte de Lautreamont; Dostoyevsky; Dr. Suess; John Fante. SPECIFICALLY: "True West" by Sam Shepard; "The Dice Man" by Luke Rhinehart; "Sarah" by JT LeRoy; "Desert Places" and "Tracks" by Robyn Davidson; "Among the Thugs" by Bill Buford; "Hobo" by Eddie Joe Cotton; The Museum of Lost Wonder series by Jeff Hoke; "Low Life" by Luc Sante; "Essence and Alchemy" by Mandy Aftel; "The Father of Spin: Edward L. Bernays;" "Step Right Up"

Heroes:

Sir Richard Burton, Robyn Davidson, Nikola Tesla, Rube Goldberg, Tim Cahill, Harry Smith

My Blog

Something beneath Kolkata

Just a couple days after I arrived in Kolkata, I experienced a my first real dis-ease since setting out on this trip. It wasn't, as one might imagine, because of the level of poverty and des...
Posted by Silke on Thu, 01 Nov 2007 08:19:00 PST

A Moment from the Thar Desert (Rajasthan)

In the desert, dishes and cooking pots are cleaned with sand. Sand is an amazing scrubbing agent, can polish a metal pot burnt black by a cooking fire within moments and it's hit by direct UV all day....
Posted by Silke on Wed, 31 Oct 2007 01:00:00 PST

How a Buddhist practioner fell in love with the Catholic Worker

There was a morning this spring, when the winter, mild as it was, seemed reluctant to fold its hand. The weight of the sky could be sensed as much as seen through the open back door and frosted front ...
Posted by Silke on Wed, 31 Oct 2007 12:49:00 PST