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About Me

i feel homeless
i'm waiting for snowfall
my mother is away
this skin strangles me
the phone keeps ringing
but i refuse to answer
i remain silent and pray for my soul to rain reign
the light does not blind me
yet i retreat to my own darkness
i meditate on paper (a hope for morning vespers)
watching people shelter themselves in boxes and newspaper
i cry blood
menstrating the walls of my mind
i am molting again
leaving myself behind
i am moon now
the force moving tides and seasons
the phone is still ringing
i'm still not answering
i refuse solid food
give me water
give me earth
i mother the naive
i father myself
the modonna in me is divine
putting the last of loose change in another sun's cup
i wallow in our plight
disconnecting for the nameless hope
disconnecting for my own sanity
i grasp at short straws
you are at the end of your rope
and it's burning
golden and wrapped around your neck
i am angry with you
i am angry with myself
this is the act of me breathing rebellion
my throat is a birthing canal
embryonic stem cells detain fallicies for questioning at the 77th
i won't post bail
too overrun with rising waters in my boat
some are rocking stars, some dig ditches
i am transmitting on the high frequency
message sent
end transmission

My Blog

This is me laughing...

at all the people who thought I was in one "box" but soon realized that I chose my own boundaries.  I'm sorry, I won't let you pigeonhole me because it makes you comfortable.I don't understand it...
Posted by Renee` " on Mon, 28 Apr 2008 11:18:00 PST

idiacy

i began to write a long blog fussing at a particular person for the foolishness that they  insist ..ging me into.  i can't be bothered.  i thought better of the matter.  any and al...
Posted by Renee` " on Thu, 24 Apr 2008 04:45:00 PST

a change?

when you have a vision for yourself it's just like a garden.  you water it,  nurture, etc.  you never anticipate other people wanting to help, or being overly concerned about your growi...
Posted by Renee` " on Tue, 15 Apr 2008 02:53:00 PST

it begins with a trickle...

we concern ourselves with rising costs of gasoline....and new pairs of shoesmy heart is breakingim feeling the world breathe beneath my skinwe’re watching the evaporation of humanitywhile they d...
Posted by Renee` " on Thu, 10 Apr 2008 07:26:00 PST

telepathy

written language is futileso i write humming nina simone connecting to the sorrow in her songpouring a myriad of jumbled gray matter to a whitened surfacei think: i’m so tired of talking to peop...
Posted by Renee` " on Wed, 09 Apr 2008 06:05:00 PST

relationships...

i don’t want to be in one if it’s forced or laborsome.  i don’t think i should have to try so hard, if it’s "right".  the way i see it, the Creator is all knowing, so...
Posted by Renee` " on Tue, 08 Apr 2008 01:52:00 PST

look what i’ve got!

...a brand new bag...it’s called quiet..r.
Posted by Renee` " on Sun, 06 Apr 2008 04:41:00 PST

new w(r)ites - 033008

i’ve mastered the art of treading wateri had no choicethe tides’ recession was the long way offnow i find my muscles seize sporadically as time passesi panicat the thought of  sinking...
Posted by Renee` " on Mon, 31 Mar 2008 07:33:00 PST

radio darkness

i read a close friend's blog this morningthought to myself:"we always going through the same shit"i was happy to see thathewas coming throughand yesi know what i must dotooso i'm letting it all gothis...
Posted by Renee` " on Sat, 23 Feb 2008 06:40:00 PST

humming early morning mind

when its your timeits just timeand all the other bullshitdoesnt matter* * * the lovecalled me last nightlate last nightand i answeredshe was overjoyed, excitedthis was the first time i could it hear i...
Posted by Renee` " on Wed, 20 Feb 2008 03:36:00 PST