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About Me

I'm arrogant, immature, and goofy as all Hell. But at very least I'm amusing to talk to. Ok, Ok, so that was some unnecessary self bashing. It's cool. I like myself just fine, and I don't need you to validate me or tell me I'm cool. I'm going to acknowledge my faults, try to change them, and if I can't, glory in them. I'm going to be quirky, and I'm going to be loving. If you're a good friend, you'll be loved, and that's the best I can do for you now. If you're my lover, you have my soul, and if you're my family, you have my heart. Ok, so that was cheesy. Here, let's try again. It's impossible for me to sum myself up in so few words and so little space, so just know me as a contradiction, a muse, a spaz, and a goof. Know me as a creative person who is seldom limited to one world and one state of consciousness, and know me as an impish little geek who loves bad horror movies and inside jokes. This kid has fun with no drugs and lots of conversation....so I'm probably boring to most of you. But eh...who cares...I'm pretty damn cool to know.Introverts rock!

My Interests

Writing, Reading, Studying psychology and biology, plays, operas, (so long as they're well written), and pretty much anything artsy or crafty that I can get my hands on. I love Museums, good food, working, dancing, beading, sculpting, painting...and a number of other things that I'm not very good at...

I'd like to meet:

Oh...only the people who aren't very good at fitting in. They seem to be the one's who need friends most.

Music:

Crazy stuff. Origa, Postal Service, Jars of Clay, Moody Blues, Jefferson Airplane, Doors, Stones, Beatles, AFI, Evanescence, MxPx, RUFiO, Yellowcard, Res, Poe, Eisley...Let's shorten this and just say Club, Jazz, Blues, Punk, Rock, Alternative, Classic, Classical, Indie, and pretty much anything sans country, hardcore techno, and rap.

Movies:

Lessee....There's: Lonestar State of Mind, The Birdcage, Ghost in the Shell, Count of Monte Cristo, The Labyrinth, Secrets of NIHM, Boondock Saints, Anything Quentin Tarantino, Tombstone, Big Fish, And pretty much anything else that is visually stimulating, well written, and has good dialogue and characterization in it.

Television:

Hell no. Well wait...ok...I do like "Decisiones: Casos Extrodinarios" on Telemundo...^_~And I effin' hate the Steve Wilkos show...

Books:

Sweet Jesus, there isn't enough room...Let's go with the first five that pop into my head: A Picture of Dorian Grey, Catch-22, The Lord of the Flies, The Count of Monte Cristo, and Things my Girlfriend and I Have Argued About.

Heroes:

Jesus, The Dalai Lama, Studds Terkel, Piaget, Voltaire, Oscar Wilde, Coleridge, Hannah Madigan, Valerie Bertolina, My Mother, Jared, Sharon, David, Oliver Sacks, A certain Mr. Martinez, Roosevelts 1 and 2...and Eleanor too...and a number of people I haven't the time to name.

My Blog

Real, Live, Honest-to-God Summer

I'm beginning to remember what I real, live, honest to God summer was. Not working (really), not stressing about finding a job, or saving money up for school...not having to worry about what classes ...
Posted by Xanian on Tue, 07 Aug 2007 02:57:00 PST

I'm trying really hard to not exist right now...

And it's just not working.Damn Western Philosophy with it's Descartes and "I think, therefor I am" logic...Anyway, I've been locked out of my and boyfriends apartment now for about four hours now with...
Posted by Xanian on Mon, 07 May 2007 05:29:00 PST

Lucky kids bleeding ingenuity

SO up here in Santa cruz there seems to be nothing but various kids on some sort of mission or strive for something terribly important and lasting. Everyone has this absurdly inflated sense of self t...
Posted by Xanian on Thu, 11 Jan 2007 06:50:00 PST

On why I chose the most nauseating colors and irritating font for mi' blogs

Upon looking at my blog, one might have wondered, "Why is it so irrationally annoying?"Perhaps, I have looked for subtle ways to turn people off to reading my blog. "Why?" One might ask, "What's the...
Posted by Xanian on Fri, 08 Sep 2006 05:42:00 PST

On death and dying...

**Caution: Do not read the below entry unless you are A) unsqueamish about death and dying, B) Unemotionally attached to Portia Mae Price, and C) not aversed to some highly disrestectful words, thou...
Posted by Xanian on Fri, 11 Aug 2006 02:55:00 PST

Mmm yeah, that's some hot stuff...

Alright, so according to about a quarter of mothers and pregnant women, men are disgusting pigs who can't seem to do anything but objectify women and that women's "dirty pillows" are disgusting, dirty...
Posted by Xanian on Wed, 02 Aug 2006 07:16:00 PST

Odd thoughts I had today...

When Whites assured Native Americans that the camera wouldn't steal their soul and seal it in the picture, they should have mentioned that they'd be stealing it later in a completely unrelated way.Whe...
Posted by Xanian on Wed, 31 May 2006 09:00:00 PST

Bad Dreams about Colorful Suicide Machines

No, this is not a bad Pink Floyd Album, this actually happened to me last night.I had one of the worst nightmares I've had in a while. I have nightmares frecuently, but rarely the kind that severly i...
Posted by Xanian on Wed, 05 Apr 2006 12:09:00 PST

Black Body Blues

[More shitty poetry written by me for me solely for my own benefit. WHEW! Yeah, don't make fun, we all have cathartic moments in different ways.] It's been awhile Since I've felt myself Spinnin...
Posted by Xanian on Sun, 19 Feb 2006 12:04:00 PST

Ah...the wondeful things...

I used to love National Singles Day. It was a good day to go to a restaurant by yourself and get free stuff and get clever little gifts for my friends and family. It was an expression of my position...
Posted by Xanian on Wed, 15 Feb 2006 10:28:00 PST