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TennayaLayoutsI have definately been through the school of hard knocks. This is my testimony: When I was a baby, I was adopted from an Orphanage near Boston at the age of three months. I was the victim of molestation at least three times when I was a little girl as well, and lost my virginity to a date rape. As a teenager, I became very rebellious and started getting in the back doors of night clubs in Mpls., one of those nights I was kidnapped by a pimp and taken to another state to prostiitute working for call services. When I got away from him, I continued in that bisness, as well as dancing, because it was easy since I did not know sex as an act of love and I had lack of education. I moved to several different states working in this industry which is called "The Game". "The Game" consists of working girls, dancers, pimps and drug dealers. I ended up moving to Las Vegas where I made alot of money and felt like a little star. VIP everywhere, fur coats, diamonds, gold, nice place and car with phat rims. But eventually I mentally could not handle what I was doing for a living and felt like if one more man touched me I might lose it. At this point I was already smokin Chronic, but I became addicted to meth ( I never thought I would become addicted to anything in my life )and later extasy as well. The drugs help num the pain in my life for a while until I hit a deep dark depression and I no longer wanted to live anymore. I had seen too much, everyone I had ever had in my life always left me, I had lost friends to murder, suicide and drug overdoses. I had been mentally and physically abused, and tormented by all these memories. I was so alone. One night I was sitting on my bed doing lines of meth and I decided to kill myself. I already owned a gun, so that was easy , I pulled it out of my nightstand and put it to my head. Before I pulled the trigger, I thought I would try one more thing to escape from the pain, I said "Lord if your real and take the way I feel away from me, I will stop working, and doing drugs and live my life for you. At that moment I felt a peace come into my room, now I know it was the holy spirit, I put the gun down and got down on my knees and gave my life to the Lord. The devil tried to tell me I had to quit everything first and then go to Church, but God said just come to me as you are ! The next day I found a good Church called the International Church of Las Vegas. I met the Pastors wife, as well other leaders, who mentored and counseled me as I was trying to make my transition. But it was so hard leaving some friends and the money behind, so I kept one foot in Church and one foot in the world. It took something devastating for me to come all the way to God. Myself and one of my best friends, Leanne, where trying to get out of the game. Her plan was to start college, she got a computer and started making her plans, but it never happened. Leanne went to see her regular customer one last time and he murdered her while I was on the phone with her. Within hours of finding out what happened to my girl, I promised God and Leanne that if there was anything I could do while I was alive, to spare even one more girls life, I would do it. I am not a sell out or a snitch, I have many friends still in the life. But the thing is about "the game", its a big game on us from the devil ! You say to your self, just 4 months and then it turns into a year and then years. anyone reading this that is still hustlin, how many people have you actually seen make it out ?
Out of these experiences in my life, God has put a burden in my heart and a ministry with my Church where we use unconditional love and support to help people who feel stuck in the game and do not see a way out, change their lived by the power that only God can give them. None of us know what could have happened in someones life for them to end up in "The Game" , whether it be somebody manipulated them, or they could have been kidknapped, to lack of education due to our failure as a Nation to provide the same level of education and opportunity, irregardless of what city you live in. Some kids grow up in a neiborhood where all they saw was poverty, they may have been abused, parent or parents on drugs, neglected and different things they experience and see tell them their not worth anything, and the only people they see making it out of where they come from are doing it illegally. Then society wants to get mad at them when they grow up to be pimps, prostitutes, drug dealers, or gang mambers. I seriously doubt when asked in kindergarden " what do you want to be when you grow up ? " that any children raised their hands and said their dream was to be in one of those illegal professions. I have a strong opinion that everybody did not grow up having the same opportunities as others and sometimes people end up in lifestyles that are easy to get stuck in and hard to see a way out. I believe you cannot judge anybody unless you've walked in their shoes. More money should be poured into education than prisons, but it should be mandatory for a prison to provide education to stop the cycle and give people a chance! Sorry to get all serious, I'm just very passionate about this. I was in " the game" for the majority of my life, I've had many friends lose their lives, and their souls. Please pray for those still stuck in this lifestyle. We are all here to help one another, Amen ? God has now given me the awesome opportunity to pour into those stuck in the game on my radio show called " Life After Game". It's online , www.idradionetwork.com every Thurs. night from 8-9pm Vegas Time! It's heard all over the world. Please listen and call in live during the show at 1-866-242-8007 and give your comments, testimonies, and/or prayer requests. God Bless you ! Michelle
Lot's of love to my Best Friend Kim Fritzke in Mpls., MN.
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