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Blackened Bloody Roses

In Memoriam: SPC Steven John Fitzmorris, US ARMY, Baghdad, IQ, 08/03/1982 – 08/25/2008 - Brother a

About Me



To describe one's self... It is a large task. How to represent who you are, without leaving false impressions?
I suppose you could say I'm something of an amature musician... I am learning keyboards and guitar, yearning for harp, burning to be more than I am. Truly, though, where my ability lies is with my voice. My flaw is that I write the words, and can hear the finished score, but cannot reproduce it. My hands are not skilled enough to paint in sound the pictures I see in my mind.
My dreams are all that keep me sane, most days. Others, they're the cause of the descent.
I've kept strong through things that would have broken others, and have broken at the slightest breeze. I am only human, and I do what I must to survive. I've suffered heartbreak, disaster, and the loss of everyone I considered a friend. Through this, I've learned that I am the one on which I must depend... helplessness leaves me terrified. I have learned to enjoy my own company, and that of books and music.
I believe that what you get from something, so should you return to it. Devotion, hatred, a melancholy sense of bemusement... I've also been known to attempt to bribe people with cookies.
Racism disgusts me in ANY form. I can comprehend disliking someone for many reasons. Idiocy, arrogance, annoyance, simply not finding them pleasant to be around. Their origin or skin tone? Not so much.

one day...


My Interests

Lessee, I like music, harps, books, cats(well, my cat. I don't know about your cat...), sewing, medieval fashion, making chain mail, long hair and the growing thereof. Night Time. Warmth. Comfort. Hanging out with people I care about. Writing.

I'd like to meet:

Maybe not meet, but have back again: My big brother, who died way the hell before his time. I'd like to meet the people responsible for the clusterfuck surrounding it, actually. I have a few choice words for them. (Okay, more than a few)

Other than that:
poets, artists, musicians, philosophers, the odd and the deranged, those who might understand where I'm coming from, and those who have unique perspectives..... anybody worth a damn, really.

Music:

Nadjia is my definate #1, and Dommin, Evaescence, and I:Scintilla are probably tied for #2 on my list of favorite bands... Also on my top list is Loreena McKennitt, 10 Years, and random harp music I've collected. I like many kinds of music, industrial, rock, metal(as long as the 'vocalist' doesn't sound like he's belching into the microphone or really horribly constipated), classical, celtic, new age, gothic... I've even been known to enjoy a rap song or two. Tis rare, but has happened.

Movies:

I'm not too much of a movie watcher, but I must say I can't get enough of The Phantom Of The Opera, or The Princess Bride. Underworld and its sequel were pretty good. I liked the Matrix trilogy. Admittedly, the second two weren't as good, but still. Keanu Reeves. Need I say more? Dark themes, creepy themes... I dislike most slasher movies(I'm paranoid enough as it is).. although I can be convinced to watch a true horror movie every once in a while. I liked the Exorcist. The Ring gave me nightmares. *shrugs* I know, it doesn't make much sense. Personal preferences don't have to.

Television:

Useless. Well, if You Tube counts, then that. otherwise, useless.

Books:

I wonder if online serials count? Tales of MU anyway, since it's one of the best stories I've read, and I'm not sure if that's because or inspite of the fact that it's an online serial. For print novels: The Wheel Of Time, by Robert Jordan(my current obession, thanks to Gothic Metal), The Heralds Of Valdemar, a series by Mercedes Lackey, Anything by David Eddings, pretty much, lots Of fantasy stuff.

Heroes:

My big brother, SPC Steven Fitzmorris (R.I.P). Not only a hero to me... He was a hero to the entire fucking country, and DON'T YOU FORGET IT.

Anyone who's been able to make a success of music.
The guy who invented yarn.
My mother (hell, she didn't kill me, she's got to be a superhero)
Paul
those who fight to defend the defenseless.

My Blog

A random thought... (music)

Okay, I know this is going to seem odd, or possibly completely obvious, but it just occured to me...  One of the interesting things about having friends who are musicians, is that you start reali...
Posted by Blackened Bloody Roses on Wed, 19 Dec 2007 03:56:00 PST

Long Hair.

I've been growing my hair out for years, with occasional setbacks - cutting more than an inch off (which always leads to remorse).. I have always loved the look of long, healthy flowing hair. It's jus...
Posted by Blackened Bloody Roses on Fri, 13 Apr 2007 02:07:00 PST

New People and Music This Week

So the past week has been interesting...  I met Dojah over the weekend. He's a mostly unknown(nationally) rapper, but in south louisiana, he's pretty big. As everyone knows that knows me we...
Posted by Blackened Bloody Roses on Wed, 28 Mar 2007 07:32:00 PST

Memories Have Been Haunting Me

Lately I've been thinking a lot about the past. Old friends I've lost touch with and old memories I thought I'd forgotten have been haunting me. Another life, it almost seems like, sometimes...
Posted by Blackened Bloody Roses on Fri, 09 Mar 2007 10:15:00 PST

Home...

It's kind of amazing, when you think about it. You can live in a place for months, and it's simply... a residence. A place to sleep, becaue it's customized to someone else. A bachelor, in this ca...
Posted by Blackened Bloody Roses on Mon, 06 Nov 2006 07:19:00 PST

Past few weeks....

Lets see, in the past few weeks, I  * Flew to Louisiana to be with my boyfriend Gothic Metal * Saw Kali Yuga play live at the Spanish Moon in Baton Rouge *Met Brad (Torrent Vaccine) (awesom...
Posted by Blackened Bloody Roses on Fri, 22 Sep 2006 11:09:00 PST

This Week In Meland

    This week I met Gothic Metal. Finally. And all questions, all doubts, all fears I had were answered, and proven false. Even if he won't admit it, he's more perfect (at least for me)...
Posted by Blackened Bloody Roses on Fri, 28 Jul 2006 03:45:00 PST

This is what happens when I am without Gothic Metal for a night...

Well, Gothic Metal wasn't feeling well so he went to sleep early... Now I'm lost... I don't know what to do with my time. I guess I'll tell you people about our romance. We met January 22 on yahoo cha...
Posted by Blackened Bloody Roses on Tue, 04 Jul 2006 12:22:00 PST

well, interesting SAT type things

                It seems, my dear, we have an exceptional person amongst us tonight. Yes, of course, that would be me. I know, I know, it is...
Posted by Blackened Bloody Roses on Tue, 28 Feb 2006 09:03:00 PST