a smith & wesson beats four aces.

About Me

a report from the trenches of art:
i've just come back from the front line. they are writing poems there, staying up all night, kissing like fools, and trading clothes. they are wearing down pencils to the nub and talking a mile a minute. they are celebrating the landing of humans on the asteroid Eros and making funny faces. there are shiny things everywhere and the flesh makes a mournful, sweet sound that travels along cables and veins and makes everybody goofy. it's tough there.

also, sometimes i speak in tongues. you can hear my band, The Glass Bead Game, here.

Go to:
Myspace Layouts
Myspace Backgrounds
Myspace Graphics (glitter graphics)

My Interests

"there is a need to dance the cosmic joy of shiva. yet we seem to have cut the possibility of doing it out of our lives and to have fed ourselves with ersatz pleasures. we sacrifice joy for pleasure, and try to entertain ourselves with very puny things indeed. things that are really very soul killing. the real breakthrough of joy only happens when we are moved to the core of our being- when we are shattered by our encounter with meaningfulness."

"...anything that makes you lose your confinement in your ego consiousness and makes you feel part of something greater than yourself- that's what ecstacy is."

"we could all become wonderful people- and what is more, we should. and we will."

- 'the call of the dervish' pir vilayat inayat kahn

i am interested in the dust that settles when worlds collide.
i'm interested in being shattered by my encounters with meaningfulness. becoming a wonderful person. feeling part of something greater than myself. ecstacy. mild piracy and some drunken plundering also acceptable.

I'd like to meet:

i'd like to meet people. i'd like to meet animals and minerals. i'd like to meet a wealthy arts patron willing to devote themselves financially to the development of my artistic vision so that i can spend more time wandering in the fields and sweating at the barre and screaming on the stage. but who wouldnt?

while there is a great chance that i'd like to meet you, please dont send me anonymous friend requests. send me a message first letting me know who you are and what we have in common. otherwise i'll just respond to your friend request with "do i know you?"

Music:

i write some. some of it's on this page. check out the glass bead game's myspace spot for more.

Movies:

Bird, by cera, Damage Control Dance Theater

Dallas Black Dance Theatre

i managed to find a video of dbdt. they performed this piece today. i cried during the show, and for about an hour after. i still feel pretty...unable to communicate in words. god i love them. ailey, dbdt, odc. that is the holy trinity of modern dance in the cera pantheon any time you'd like to take me, please email. i'll probably go with you.

Television:

no, thank you.

Books:

currently:

3/25/07
decolonizing methodologies - Linda Tuhiwai Smith

Heroes:

"See, my mother, she worked for the CIO [Congress of Industrial Organizations] as a labor organizer, and she made sure that we had appropriate heroes, flesh- and-blood people. She would clip columns out of The Cleveland Plain Dealer, a good labor paper in its day, [and] paste 'em in scrapbooks. We could take it to school to share with other kids at the equivalent of show-and-tell.
Scrapbooks were mainly filled with clippings about bank robbers. She seemed to favor bank robbers. Called them class heroes. Didn't understand at the time what she meant - I do now."

My Blog

new poem-y deal

on a day in which nothing spectacular changedshe fell into a soft pile of herself and foundsmall comfort.the ages it had been since she'd seenwhat she was made ofrustled like the leaves of dried books...
Posted by a smith & wesson beats four aces. on Thu, 05 Jul 2007 09:25:00 PST

< /end birthdaycake >

best. birfday. ever. the party last night was amazing. thank you so, so much to those of you who were there (and those of you who werent but sent along your wishes. you were there in spirit).it was s...
Posted by a smith & wesson beats four aces. on Mon, 07 May 2007 08:19:00 PST

think i wanna sing myself a lullabye. feel free to listen...

i have helluv work to do. does that mean i'm recording joni mitchell covers? why yes, yes it does.go to him, stay with him if you can, but be prepared to bleed......
Posted by a smith & wesson beats four aces. on Thu, 08 Feb 2007 03:38:00 PST

100 words - no more, no less

you make me hungry in ways i never knew a human could ache.my hands become all eyes, and my eyes all teeth.this endless mouth, this accidental death;you put rabies in my heart, my tongue charred blac...
Posted by a smith & wesson beats four aces. on Thu, 08 Feb 2007 08:20:00 PST

you tasted just like a mistake i'd made before.

it couldnt be easierthe way you make flesh disposablethe way you make fleshand these opposable limbs can wrap arounda hundred train wrecks before the end of the nightthese disposable whims can warp ev...
Posted by a smith & wesson beats four aces. on Wed, 31 Jan 2007 10:15:00 PST

the beginnings...

of what is becoming a performance piece about stories - the process of storing them, telling them, and the differences/value of "women's" history versus "war and glory" historyanyway. here it is.**...
Posted by a smith & wesson beats four aces. on Sat, 27 Jan 2007 10:13:00 PST

you being in love...

you being in love will tell who softly asks in love, am i separated from your body smile brain hands merely to become the jumping puppets of a dream? oh i mean: entirely having in my careful how caref...
Posted by a smith & wesson beats four aces. on Wed, 24 Jan 2007 02:12:00 PST

what's this? an update!?

i've been invited to audition for janice garrett today. of course, i got invited on monday, and on tuesday i came down with strep throat. i'm mostly better, but still pretty weak and wonky. however, i...
Posted by a smith & wesson beats four aces. on Fri, 12 Jan 2007 01:08:00 PST

happy new stuff.

happy new year, mutha hubbards.stuff is good.i danced in hawaii.i moved.i'm teaching new classes out of my new studio.my little company is starting to move out of my head and into the world.all in all...
Posted by a smith & wesson beats four aces. on Thu, 04 Jan 2007 09:23:00 PST

sweet dont drop (mp3entry)

there's a little song that i sing to myself all the time. kindof a lullabye. i dont know where the words/melody came from. i've been singing it to myself for years. i dont even know what it means, and...
Posted by a smith & wesson beats four aces. on Sun, 03 Dec 2006 02:39:00 PST