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Angela Blue(sk)eyes

The average man does not want to be free. He simply wants to be safe. -H.L. Mencken

About Me

SENSUAL.Sight: Color. Love it. Show me whimsical shapes and patterns and I'll glow for hours. Graceful lines. Subtlety of movement. It stills my mind. Close up. The veins on a leaf. An eye. The texture of life. The things that often seem too small and are frequently overlooked.Sound: Quiet. The ticking of a clock. My own footsteps in counterpoint with my breath. Wind. Laughter. Joy. Celebration. Stories that ignite my imagination. Words that are spun so magnificently that I want to hold my breath. Whispers. Secrets. Magic. Intimacy. Music that takes me beyond mind.Smell: Autumn. Decaying leaves. Wet earth. Fires. Spices. Home. Old books. Winter. Cold mornings. Soup full of spices and garlic. Bread. Candles. Spring. Hyacinths, lilacs, tulips. Morning dew. Green. Summer. Humidity. Fertile earth. Roses. Hot pine forest. Rain.Taste: Rich French chocolate. Masala chai tea with cream and sugar. Garlic mashed potatoes. Curry. Feta cheese. Dried cranberries. Fresh croissants. Hummus. Freshly steamed vegetables. Cool water. Belgian beer. Sweet grapes. Mint. Tarragon with cream. Pesto with sage. Crisp lettuce with salt. Butter on warm bread. Chinese chili tofu. Lemon pastries. Chocolate chip cookies. Green or white tea.Touch: Textures. Luxuriously soft and smooth, like velvet or silk. Cool marble or glass. Scratchy wool or brick or sandpaper. Warm and alive. Soft human skin, breathing, pulsing. Cat curled in a ball, sleeping. Cattails, lamb's ears, the center of an Echinacea blossom. Materials with patterns in the texture, ridges especially. Mossy stones. Smooth paper. Rough paper. Recently shaven heads. Bowls full of tiny polished stones. Mud. Hair. River stones. Sticky adhesives. Timeless, inviting, curious. Slow and deliberate. Gentle and intense. Lingering. Light, swirly, playful.TRANSCENDENT.Wanderer: Quests lead me to the farthest corners of the earth. Leave no stone unturned. Contemplative: Leave no question unasked. Answers appear in continuous streams and constantly evolve. Consciousness grows while my finger is tracking the pulse. Writer: Know what must be said and ground it on the page. Editing comes much, much later. Lover: Of all. Now and now and now. On and on and on. Always.a.redlink:active, a.redlink:visited, a.redlink:link { font-family:Times New Roman; color:rgb(255, 101, 171); font-size:16px;

My Interests

Bright colors, bright ideas, bright minds, bright hearts. Blue skies and grey skies and all that accompanies them. Moonlight and rivers and cool, mossy stones. Quiet time and good tea. Hiking, walking, watching, being. Health and wholeness. Connecting with people on a deep level. Writing about everything. Remembering to breathe. Contemplation, the meeting of heart and mind. Rocks and stones and shells and bones. All paths of love.

I'd like to meet:

People who inspire me. People who are courageous. People with twinkles in their eyes and good stories to tell. People who understand the value of a good hug. People who are tired of violence in all its manifestations. People who aren't afraid to be who they are. People who know their truth and live it fearlessly. People who want to change the world. And the love of my life.

Music:

Honestly, I prefer silence over listening to music most of the time. I can only devote my attention to one thing at a time, and when I listen to music, I don't want to be doing anything else. I rarely make the time to just listen to music, though...sometimes while cooking or taking a hot bath. Right now, I have been really enjoying soothing, mellow music like Loreena McKennit and Sarah McLachlan. I also like Gillian Welch and The Be Good Tanyas. Simon and Garfunkel. John Denver. Joni Mitchell's earliest work. I've been a huge Tori Amos fan for years. I'm also drawn to Ben Harper, Jack Johnson, We're About 9, and Crosby, Stills, and Nash. Even though I'm a classical musician, I don't listen to much of that genre. Occasionally Bach's choral music, as well as music from the Renaissance. There are occasionally days when I crave loud, noisy, angry, or really fun, upbeat music, too...but it's been awhile.

Movies:

American Beauty. I Heart Huckabees. Contact. Out of Africa. Defending Your Life. What the Bleep do we Know? Baraka. Amelie. The Sound of Music. The Wizard of Oz. Microcosm. Pleasantville. The Truman Show. I love movies that show the depth and sensitivity of being human, that are thought provoking, and that move me. I'm not interested in EVER seeing another violent film. If we create the world around us, then violent films feed our reality by infiltrating our consciousness.

Television:

I HATE TV!!!! I'm thinking about making mine into an aquarium.

Books:

Good God, there's not enough space in My Space for this list. Jack Kerouac, Tom Robbins, Henry Miller, Linda Hogan, Milan Kundera...that's a start. The subject matter is really irrelevant if the writer's voice captivates me. I prefer literary fiction as opposed to pop-fiction. I really love poetry, too, mostly stream-of-consciousness or abstract style. Rumi and Hafiz are utterly breathtaking, so far as ancient poetry is concerned, but I also love Mary Oliver and Linda Hogan. They are so earthy and deep. Then there's the great philosophical texts of the world...though I value the traditions of the west and have a lot to learn, my heart has always connected more with eastern philosophy. Osho's mystical writings have influenced my life greatly in the last year, and I highly recommend "Love, Freedom, Aloneness."

Heroes:

People who face the world with a belly full of fear, a heart full of butterflies, and a mind full of compassionate determination. People who embrace their truth and live it fully. People who refuse to sell out to the world because they know deep down what's more important. People who embrace their human nature with intelligence and understanding. People who live LOVE above all else.

My Blog

Giving what I can this Christmas...

Nearly two weeks passed between the time of the tragic earthquake in Peru and the time I was able to read about the disaster. My computer hard drive had crashed. But that was nothing compared to the...
Posted by Angela Blue(sk)eyes on Mon, 22 Oct 2007 08:09:00 PST

The Search (from the Intro to the memoir part of my thesis, "Awakening to Awakening")

I have been asking big questions and searching for answers for almost as long as I can remember. I was an inquisitive child and by the time I was nine years old, I was already wrapped up in contemplat...
Posted by Angela Blue(sk)eyes on Fri, 05 Oct 2007 12:24:00 PST

Meeting the Divine (thesis intro, part 2)

I have always wanted to know things for myself, to experience them for myself. This is the way I learn and know. This kind of knowing comes from inside, and is certainly informed and influenced by t...
Posted by Angela Blue(sk)eyes on Fri, 05 Oct 2007 12:11:00 PST

More to come...much, much more

Ok, so it had to happen eventually. As my thesis is well underway and coming together daily, I'm going to begin posting manageable-sized parts of it here. Before you dive behind your sofa in horror,...
Posted by Angela Blue(sk)eyes on Sun, 30 Sep 2007 03:32:00 PST

Things I'm tired of

THINGS I AM TIRED OF:1. Noise, noise everywhere. From the three ladies who I sat next to in a cafe who cackled like they were the only ones there, to the multi-directional construction noise in my n...
Posted by Angela Blue(sk)eyes on Thu, 19 Jul 2007 08:51:00 PST

Cleaning my house...

...has come to mean a lot more to me than merely scrubbing the toilets and vacuuming the floors. Though I could certainly stand to do better with those things, I have found my 30th year of life to be...
Posted by Angela Blue(sk)eyes on Wed, 11 Jul 2007 05:12:00 PST

101 Questions

101 Questions People Wouldn't Ask.OO1. When's the last time you ran?It's been awhile since I ran any significant distance. A year maybe? OO2. Do your jeans have rips, tears, and holes in them?Most o...
Posted by Angela Blue(sk)eyes on Fri, 22 Jun 2007 02:10:00 PST

101 Questions

101 Questions People Wouldn't Ask.OO1. When's the last time you ran?It's been awhile since I ran any significant distance. A year maybe? OO2. Do your jeans have rips, tears, and holes in them?Most o...
Posted by Angela Blue(sk)eyes on Fri, 22 Jun 2007 02:08:00 PST

Memory

"Memory is strange. Truly inexact. Even memories of yesterday. Everything is colored by perception, emotion....by a variety of different things. You think you have an idea of what's happened in your p...
Posted by Angela Blue(sk)eyes on Fri, 25 May 2007 05:59:00 PST

Self-improvement

I'm sure I've managed to catch a glimmer of my motivation in most of the things I do over the almost 31 years of my life so far, but none so clearly as one day last week. I think it was Thursday. It...
Posted by Angela Blue(sk)eyes on Tue, 15 May 2007 06:48:00 PST