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Eureka

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About Me



Create your own Friend Quiz hereI am the friend of a friend of a guy you once knew. The anecdotal story of hope and determination told when everyone runs out of things to say about themselves-------------------------------------------------- ------I'm the person you knew so well, when suddenly like a kaleidescope with the smallest of imperceptible turns, everything changed, everything now appears differently, it's like we've never met--------------------------------I've given up hope that my body and soul will ever match. The closest I've ever gotten to this utopia is while swimming completely submerged underwater, eyes wide open. If only I could hold my breath just a little bit longer-------------------------------------I don't think fate has ever been anything but a foe to me, yet it's what I believe in. I know that "one of these days you will look for me, and I'll be gone," So, for your benefit I'll keep you at a distance with elbow locked and one hand on your chest to push you away. On many fronts I wax and wane, this one's no different. It is not my job to police your heart, so, with my other hand I'll reach for yours and pull you back. But then without notice, time and time again fate flips this very coin, and those around me crumble into dust--------------Thankfully I believe love has nothing to do with words------------------I'm 19 years into the bonus round of my life and my endurance for it all is so scare it frightens me at times, just to surge back from the most unlikely of sources. It's like you've just shown up to the game, while I'm 9 deep into extra innings. You're rooting for the home team, I'm hoping that the end, any end, is near------------------------------------------In case you didn't know it I am a lier, but just by omission. A feeble favor from me to you. I'm loyal, often much longer than I should ever have been, at least in hindsight. Despite this, to me the alternative is worse------------------------------------------------I am far too perceptive when it come to those around me, but am unable to turn that same mirror toward myself------------------------------------------------------ -----------I am many things to many people. Christy to friends, my last name to those I consider my better friends. Chris to older friends from my childhood and to family. Chilly Willie to my favorite co-worker who is also my department's doyenne. Chicken Little to my mother on the rare occasions when I let her know I'm really sick. Frogger to my best friend. I've been Sunshine to a handful of men. Louise after my great aunt who died in her early 20's from the same disease I now have. Colossal coincidence or is the name cursed? Either way it's what I go by at work these days. "That Girl" at another job because my hair style reminded my co-workers of the main character from the television show of the same name. I am Soffitina when I paint houses. Guadalupe for 3 years in high school Spanish class. Room 213 for 3 months at NIH in Bethesda, MD. Hot Stuff or What's Up Buttercup to my middle sister, and Miss Chris to my 7 year old niece------------------------------------------------------- --------------------------------------------I am many things now, but not forever. Of all the convictions I hold in life, the one I subscribe to more than any other is that stagnation breeds contempt. This is the end from which, I am ever evolving.
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My Interests


I love Seattle and I love torrential dowpours


I love to swim: read on Alki beach: laugh so hard I'm sore the next day: hang out with my friends: people watch: fly by the seat of my pants: sit in the aisles of a book store with my favorite friends reading the backs of books and catching up on each other's lives: hike: cook dinner with friends: rub my cats bellies: support my friend's dreams, aspirations and goals in life. Even it it's merely cheering from the sidelines or clapping enthusiastically at the end of a great stage performance: My friends:

I'd like to meet:

People who are open minded, funny, in touch with reality, and have aspirations in life. People who's lives are complete without me. To be one's biggest priority in life is pressure of a kind I cannot take.People who care about the world they live in.


Music:

Moby: Natalie Merchant: Fleetwood Mac: Johnny Cash: Ray Lamontagne: Neil Diamond: George Winston. Despite what my middle sister will tell you, we did not have a family band growing up and I DID NOT play the tambourine

Movies:

This is not just something that happends. This cannot be one of those things. This, please, cannot be that....The Big Lebowski: Garden State: Almost Famous: Stand By Me: Good Will Hunting: Swingers: Walk the Line

Television:

Television is the catalyst for my insomnia, but this clip is great. Charlie: Candy Mountain

Books:

Lolita, Nabakov: All of David Sedaris' books: Bartleby the Scrivner, Herman Melville: The Fountainhead, Ayn Rand: The Garden of Forking Paths (short story), Jorge Borges: Rita Hayworth and the Shawshank Redemption, Steven King

Heroes:

Those rare people who have all the rough breaks in life, but emerge the better for it. Anyone who gives of themselves without expectation of recognition.

My Blog

I Spy a Bruised Eye

Yesterday I had a cat scan to determine the reason for some of my labs are getting higher. Also they want me to get more labs in addition to the cat scan, but the labs are scheduled for next Friday wh...
Posted by Eureka on Sat, 19 Jan 2008 02:54:00 PST

Im not dead (yet), Surgery on the Horizon, and Dead in 4 hours

I'm not ignoring everyone who's been emailing me and posting comments, and I haven't died (fingers crossed) yet.  My internet connection is being a bastard child.  Ever since I hooked up Tiv...
Posted by Eureka on Thu, 17 Jan 2008 11:18:00 PST

Do You Have a Background in Plastics?

I did 16 days of IV antibiotics in hopes of killing the infection I have.  It took a week for the lab to identify what has crept into my blood stream:  Ochrabactor. ...
Posted by Eureka on Sun, 13 Jan 2008 04:25:00 PST

2007 Just the Facts

2007 Year in Review.  The Facts:  -Trips out of the country: 1 Weekend in Canada -The worst thing my mother tried to feed me:  My own vomit.  I was trying to choke down a gigantic ...
Posted by Eureka on Mon, 07 Jan 2008 11:51:00 PST

and then he fingered my hair

I wish I was able to donate to charity more, but most of my time and money has been sucked up by being sick.  Instead I've been growing my hair out for the last couple of years to donate to locks...
Posted by Eureka on Mon, 07 Jan 2008 09:06:00 PST

Im reaching into my bottomless pit of fight

Things were going so well. were.... I'm back on IV nutrition.  That's a 10 hour infusion I give myself at night when I'm sleeping. The IV port in my chest is red and sore and appears to be i...
Posted by Eureka on Fri, 28 Dec 2007 11:36:00 PST

I think my dentist went too far

Last week I had dental surgery to lower my gum line in preparation for a crown on my last lower right tooth.  It's cracked all the way through on 3 sides because I grind my teeth.  I we...
Posted by Eureka on Mon, 24 Dec 2007 12:08:00 PST

A million ways to be cruel

After last weekend, after the 4 units of blood and 4 liters of IV fluids, after the 15 hours I spent at the infusion clinic over two days, and after my doctor put me back on the IV nutrition (TPN) tha...
Posted by Eureka on Sun, 23 Dec 2007 12:56:00 PST

Where oh where have all my red cells gone?

Thursday night I bowled my last two games of the season for my league.  We have already signed up for next season.  At work on Thursday my fatigue was unrelenting.  Pre-planner that I ...
Posted by Eureka on Sat, 15 Dec 2007 02:14:00 PST

Giving, Taking, & Reciprocating

I'm almost done shopping for and wrapping the Christmas gifts I am giving this season.  When I was a kid I remember comparing the amount of gifts I received to the amount of gifts adults receive...
Posted by Eureka on Wed, 12 Dec 2007 09:03:00 PST