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deviant satellite

pretty, dirty

About Me


perverted pansexual insomniac
no excuses, no apologies, no regrets
There'll be times When my crimes Will seem almost unforgivable I give in to sin Because you have to make this life liveable But when you think I've had enough From your sea of love I'll take more than another riverfull Yes, and I'll make it all worthwhile I'll make your heart smile
Strangelove Strange highs and strange lows Strangelove That's how my love goes Strangelove Will you give it to me Will you take the pain I will give to you Again and again And will you return it
There'll be days When I'll stray I may appear to be Constantly out of reach I give in to sin Because I like to practice what I preach I'm not trying to say I'll have it all my way I'm always willing to learn When you've got something to teach And I'll make it all worthwhile I'll make your heart smile
Pain will you return it I'll say it again -- pain Pain will you return it I'll say it again -- pain
Pain will you return it I'll say it again -- pain Pain will you return it I won't say it again
I give in Again and again I give in Will you give it to me I give in I'll say it again I give in Depeche Mode
I enjoy having my cake and eating it too (as long as it's vegan)... what's the point of having the damn cake if you can't eat it?
Walk with me
Open your sensitive mouth
And talk to me
Hold out your delicate hands
And feel me
Couldn't make any plans
To conceal me
Open your sensitive mouth
Hold out your delicate hands
With such a sensitive mouth
I'm easy to see through
When I come up
When I rush
I rush for you
Cry for you
Seen the tears
Roll down from my eyes for you
Heard my truth
Distorting to lies for you
Watched my love
Becoming a prize for you
Seen the tears in my eyes
Heard my truth turn to lies
Seen the tears in my eyes
I'm not proud of what I do
When I come up
When I rush
I rush for you
I come up to meet you
Up there somewhere
When I rush to greet you
My soul is bared
Gave more for you
Dropped my crutches
And crawled on the floor for you
Went looking behind every door for you
And because of the things
That I saw for you
I spiritually grew
When I come up
When I rush
I rush for you depeche mode


My Interests

fluidity , truth (as gritty and dark as it may be), triazolobenzodiazepines, yoga, meditation, sex workers' rights, enjoying an eclectic array of cuisines (mainly vegan), laughing , holistic health, soy green tea lattes, dirty martinis, sake, music, dancing, fucking, smiling, writing, learning, change, having sex in lucid dreams , queer theory, Nietzsche, black latex gloves, sarcasm, gender fucking, anthropology, passion , the darkest corners of the human psyche, vampires, photography, becoming lost in thought, intensity , compassion, inspiration, mind fucking, all-anal pornography, life altering experiences, sadomasochism , trying to be a good vegan, domination, submission, soy banana smoothies...

I'd like to meet:


fellow freebirds and adventure seekers
and others who understand "poly" relationships

By the way, if you a straight man with no real reason to be contacting/ requesting me, please refrain from doing so.

Also, if you are a submissive/slave, I don't really have time to converse over the internet, so only contact me if you are in or will be in NY sometime soon and are very generou$$$. Thanks ;)

Music:

Depeche Mode
and the rest in no particular order...
Say Anything
IAMX
De/Vision
Death Cab for Cutie
everytimeidie
Erasure
Neuroticfish
Project Skyward
Pretty Boys
Anberlin
!!!
Minus the Bear
Wolfsheim
vnv nation
Covenant
Ulrich Schnauss
Cash
30 Seconds to Mars
Massive Attack
Scissor Sisters
Ladytron
Peaches
Thrice
Frou Frou
She Wants Revenge
Goldfrapp
Portishead
Fischerspooner
The Cure
le tigre
Fiona
New Order
Echo and the Bunnymen
Kinnie Starr
Melissa Etheridge
The Postal Service
Tegan and Sara
the smiths
NIN
Bowie
Alix Olson
PJ Harvey
Deftones
Head Automatica
Lynyrd Skynyrd
Boys Night Out
Ani
Snake River Conspiracy
The Break
Sparta
Elliot
Denali
lamb
sia
and the list goes on....

Movies:

Really dirty porn, Boys Don't Cry, Interview with the Vampire, The Secretary, Love & Sex, Labyrinth, Ma Vie en Rose, GIA, A History of Violence, Brokeback Mountain, Basketball Diaries, Lost in Translation, But I'm a Cheerleader, Almost Famous, Reality Bites, A Clockwork Orange, Eyes Wide Shut, Fight Club, Cry Baby, Kinsey, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Iron Jawed Angels, Garden State, Closer, Troy, Napoleon Dynamite

Television:

Queer as Folk, Weeds, Carnivale, Six Feet Under, Californication, Rob & Big (guilty pleasure)

Books:

The Ethical Slut , Stone Butch Blues, The Unbearable Lightness of Being, Drag King Dreams, Autobiography of a Spiritually Incorrect Mystic (OSHO!) Valencia, Diary of an Emotional Idiot, Being and Nothingness (yea right), The Stranger, Interview with the Vampire, Go Ask Alice, As Nature Made Him, Siddhartha, 1984, the Gay Science

Heroes:

Show me a hero and I will write you a tragedy. - F. Scott Fitzgerald

My Blog

Drowsy Introspection/more insomnia

It's really too late to begin thoughts. I spend every night trying to end them. To close something off. To get a few hours of cell regeneration. Rarely able to tuck the racing thoughts to sleep, I tuc...
Posted by deviant satellite on Sat, 23 Feb 2008 02:42:00 PST

Nietzsche - the inspiration for my rib piece

"The greatest weight -- What, if some day or night a demon were to steal after you into your loneliest loneliness and say to you: 'This Life as you now live it and have lived it, you will have to live...
Posted by deviant satellite on Sat, 05 Nov 2005 01:18:00 PST

for my fellow deviants and feminists....

I received a rather disturbing myspace message from an old friend tonight. I was called out on quite a few things that were not true, so I responded to clear some things up.  I am posti...
Posted by deviant satellite on Mon, 20 Mar 2006 12:28:00 PST

ooo creepy lesbians!!!!!!!!!

I am disturbed by creepy lesbian relationships... The "lesbian urge to merge" is just creepy.... who is who? and does anyone have their own identity or life? It's just creepy... One more time for the ...
Posted by deviant satellite on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

the insomnia is eating away at my soul!

The days and nights are all blurred into one long lucid dream in which I slip into and out of. My madness taunts my consciousness with wicked threats. I am not crazy, I am not crazy, I am not crazy....
Posted by deviant satellite on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

INSOMNIA!

Yea, so I still can't sleep. This has been going on for close to 2 months... I officially have chronic insomnia. According to my lil pamphlet here you must have sleeping problems for at least 3 week...
Posted by deviant satellite on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST