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About Me

What it is: I've spent a significant amount of the last half decade being worthless. This is my OWN assessment though Im sure a few people would whole heartedly agree. Ive kept the same bullshit job, mistreated the woman I love, and slid by on "maybe later" and false promises. I have made myself into the person I despised. No motivation, not enough class, not nearly enough respect. My own selfishness and disdain caused me to let people be in need of my support, and I was not there to give it. My blindness caused me to hear what was being said, but not really SEE what was meant. My ignorance has now cost me an incredibly valuable part of my future.. I cant be that guy anymore. I may never regain what I've lost. Its hard to convince closed eyes (and closed souls) that the sunshine should come out again. I can only do what I must, progress as I will, and fix myself. And hope. Maybe someday, the sunglasses will come off and I will be able to prove what I say. 9 Months from now, I'll be new shoes. With the education I have put off, with determination like never before, clear headed and with wide open eyes, I will truely be who I THOUGHT I was. No more falseness, I will be THAT Man. Perhaps by then the sun will shine on me and warm my soul again.
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Un.con.ven.tion.al adjective: not conventional; not bound by or conforming to convention, rule, or precedent; free from conventionality

More Terms I cant Stand - "The Whole Shebang" & "Lickety Split". Both of these inspire me to bring violent thingies down upon your skulls.. and what the fuck are BESTIES?!

Im an asshole...I don't like to wait. We can be having fun, right now.The words BATCH ( lets make another ) and PIECES (how many did you have) as well as the term SECONDS ( can I please have ) make me feel ill. Research has shown that I make a horrible significant other. I blame myself. I have added a new photo section for photo work I've done. Please don't hate me if I steal your soul and display it for my own.. I only want you to see as beautifully as me. I didn't take all the original pictures. I just edited them the way I see fit. If you don't like me using your photos let me know. If I made you into art and you don't like it, just tell me dammit. I understand. If you have pictures you think I could make pretty, let me know.Otherwise, just check it out. I feel an immense sense of security beneath the brim of my hat.There is a great quantity of incredibly good music that gets lost everyday. I can give you a small bit of the quality, within that quantity. Drink it up kids. It's delicious. My friends list is a collection of beauty, personality, art and intelligence. They're amazing, all of them. Check em all out, but dont bother them. That would make you an asshole. Really, it would.Now..I'm no different than you, except that I don't suck as much. Awrite no really, I guess people 'need' to know more. I grew up in Lowell, then Tewksbury. I used to be a freak, a varsity athlete( as sad as it is, I'm a Redmen for life) , a writer, an artist.. apparently I have the ability to do quite a bit. These days, I work. After I work in the morning, I work at night. I got bills to pay, eh. It's all good tho cuz my son is better than you.My family is pretty important to me. I have a couple kids( as of July 07) , a couple baby mommas (we're tight, dontchu worry),my true close friends, the mom, the dad, the two sisters and a brother, and of course the whole crazy immediate family. I need these people. Dont doubt it.They made me who I am and they did a damn good job. Dont ever disrespect my family. I'll beat you upside the head with an aluminum T-ball bat all like PING ! I love music, expression, emotion, life. I like buildings that have soul. I like looking at bridges from afar. Music is my Jesus Christ. I dont like drama, or Algebra. I don't like how fat and lazy todays kids are, or how materialistic and souless they are learning to be. I'm a witty critic. I like making people laugh. Smiles should be induced daily. They're beautiful. I dont like people that bitch about every unfortunate instance in life. Choose your battles more wisely.I love having fun. Sometimes i scare myself. I can be very cynical or sarcastic so I try to think happy thoughts constantly..fuzzy bunnies, pretty clouds..crap like that. I care. No really, I do. I have a hunger for life and a thirst for knowledge. Feed me. Im deep and peaceful and confusing and shallow and simple and sometimes I think im God.. but at least im entertaining, right? Yah so.. Thats me. I am Jon. I know you love it. Why else would you have just read all that? Be Bold

My Interests

Being alive is a big interest of mine.. having fun is important. enjoy yourselves. if you cant smile everyday then quit your job.I'm a big fan of the female form. I appreciate beauty.Im becoming a geek of simple black and white photography.Life wouldnt be nearly as interesting without my son Jacob. Hes amazing. Olivia has come along now, and eventually we'll rule the world. My family is my savior.
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I'd like to meet:

The Dalai Lama, Martin Luther King Jr., John Lennon.. The Things You Could Have Taught Me.. Oh yah and.. David Ortiz, you're pretty friggen' awesome too. GO SOX

Music:

I couldn't live without it. Music has the explanation for every moment I've ever lived.. Yah except for country. Stiiiill hasnt grown on me. At all. Yeeehaw.I dig everything from KoRn to Marvin Gaye to Green Day, Gruvis Malt, DJ Tiesto, Talib Qweli, Hatebreed, Dispatch, Sublime, Gigi D'Agostino,Santana, Lagwagon, John Legend, Metallica.. the list is eternal and diverse.
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Movies:

I like everything but emo-drama and the obvious "chick flick". What good is a movie that makes me sad?! I like well written but senseless comedy. The kinda stuff that makes you crack up because how simple yet absurd it may be. Half Baked, Rat Race, Office Space, all good examples. I like good horror. It angers me when I can correctly predict the movies outcome 1/3 the way through, or when a movies main method of fright is abrupt loud noises and quick angle changes.. unfortunately thats the majority of anything "scary" these days. Check out japanese horror to see some stuff that'll make you drop nuggets in your pants. I think that while some independent films are the most godly (more so than any mainstream film) in stature, most end up being a worthless hour and 45 minutes. I enjoy catching extra efforts in actors and animators to make characters more complete. A minor gesture, grimace or tweek can sell me better than any spoken line.

Television:

I'd like to thank TV for bringing me all New England Sports teams, SportCenter, sports in general, assorted nature and/or scientific programming, and any other show I may happen to hardly ever actually watch. The Red Sox are going to the postseason without a doubt yo. Go BOSTON!! The Boston Celtics have won the division and are OFF TO THE PLAYOFFS!!

Books:

I have a lot of them. I like to read. Stimulates the imagination. Do it. I read Chilly Charlie to Jacob nearly 20 times the other day. Sometimes he reads it to me. Im rereading all of my old books in hopes of recapturing a lost literal essence and outlook I once had.

Heroes:

I have a friend named Jeff that helps keep the country safe for stupid people like me. Support The Troops. People that are willing to give themselves to help others rock. Good Parents, Teachers, People that make a positive difference in the Views, Morals and Intentions of children rock too. My family isnt so bad either.

My Blog

Dear Mims ( I love you so much )

My son asked me, why cant Mims come home?Mims is my grandmother, she has been terminally ill for a while.She has been in an out of the hospital lately.Today was her last day. Mims is gone.My heart is ...
Posted by Jonathan on Mon, 16 Jun 2008 04:09:00 PST

What I’ve learned.

I spent a week dying, for a woman. I spent the whole time pouring my heart out. I changed my life in essence, for her. Believe me, the life change will def. benefit me quite a bit, still. Dont get it ...
Posted by Jonathan on Fri, 30 May 2008 07:10:00 PST

What Space Is.

Space is a seperation between two points. It means that anything can end up in the middle. It means that what that 'anything' is, could be pretty unpredictable. It may not be what I like, it may break...
Posted by Jonathan on Wed, 28 May 2008 06:35:00 PST

More Pointless Early Morning Ramble

Another midnight rolls past. I was ready for bed 3 hours ago, yet I find myself still awake. I can barely sleep in my own bed. Its foreign and stiff, alone. I dont even want to be in my own house. Its...
Posted by Jonathan on Tue, 27 May 2008 09:42:00 PST

The Fuh, Fuh Fuckin Future.

Im a friggen steam roller. I am the evil of all evils, the ruiner of things. I am the unknowing enemy. I am stubborn as hell. And.. I am going to be better. I am going to be more. I will have my Home...
Posted by Jonathan on Sat, 24 May 2008 06:51:00 PST

Like My Father (God thats dramatic.)

My mother tells me occasionally that I'm like my father. This would make more sense had I spent more time with him. He lived in Chicago or Colorado, I lived in Massachusetts with my Mom. ...
Posted by Jonathan on Thu, 22 May 2008 05:39:00 PST

My Celebrity Look-alikes

MyHeritage: Family trees - Genealogy - Celebrities - Collage - Morph...
Posted by Jonathan on Sun, 25 Nov 2007 08:28:00 PST

My Celebrity Look-alikes

MyHeritage: Celebrity Collage - Vintage pictures...
Posted by Jonathan on Sun, 25 Nov 2007 08:24:00 PST

The New England Sports Scene

I know that most people wont read this, as most people dont really care about New England athletics but there are some things to consider, this year. The Red Sox have ALREADY won the World Series...
Posted by Jonathan on Sun, 11 Nov 2007 07:10:00 PST

where did you go

I miss the artistic and soul twisting power of anger,depression and confusion. I miss feeling my heart screaming that it wants out, while my head tries again to make the puzzle pieces...
Posted by Jonathan on Tue, 29 May 2007 07:36:00 PST