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Marwah {this life is no way to live}

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March 06, 2007 4:02 pm EST
Current Mood: Bipolar
If you haven't read my blog lately, my mind is very much preoccupied with three things: sleep, having a gun, and getting my black Sony Cybershot DSC-T100 or DSC-T20. What's the connection? Well the gun would just put me to eternal sleep and be done with it. The camera... well I guess if I was dead I wouldn't have much use for it but as long as I'm still here might as well get it and do something. Anyway, I'm pretty sure in the end I'm not gonna end up with a gun or a cybershot. U_U Neh, everything sucks, and I'm sure I'm hated cause there's a bunch of people who I haven't talked to but I can't do anything about it. Hmmm, I have one last thought. If the day I die is the day I was born then that would be the perfect gift from above. You gave me life on that very day, I wish you could take it back.

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March 01, 2007 2:30 pm EST
Current Mood: Accepting
Which is worse; a person living life making so many little mistakes or another making very few big mistakes? I've been thinking about that lately. I live carefully and try to have good judgement but I've made one or two not-so-little mistakes. Makes me wonder who's better off. But aside from that, the first of March is finally here. That means two things: Spring break and my birthday on the 14th. That means I need to whip out my little wish list ^_^

Gift ideas for Marwah's birthday: xD
- Sony Cybershot DSC-T100 in black or red: Major high priority!
- Anime calendar: not sure what series but I want the 12-page kind, not the 6-page
- Anything by Kaori Yuki or Yun Kouga: artbooks! ^.^
- Any cool looking scrolls with angsty bishounens. X3

See? I don't really ask for much. Actually if I just get the cybershot camera I'll be ecstatic. I've been wanting a camera for like 3 years now. Oh yea, I won't be here till after March 3rd. I got some things to take care of.

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Feb 25, 2007 6:42 am EST
Current Mood: Sore & bitter
It's snowing as I'm typing this. Although I'm sick of breaking my back from shoveling this white crap all week, watching the snow fall is actually soothing. It helps since lately I've been falling under a bitter mood. I sort of don't feel like I have much a reason to login cause some of my friends who make my time here worthwhile either vanished or haven't been on much. If you sent me a comment/message/friend request and I haven't responded, please be a little forgiving of me. Trust me, I don't have any ill intentions of ignoring you. RL is keeping me occupied so it's severely screwing up my time to RP and reply to everyone. I'm trying to keep up but it might be a while.

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Feb 19, 2007 1:42 am EST
Current Mood: Okay
Back from Katsucon, it was alright but I can't say that it lived up to my expectation. I'm pretty certain it would have been better if Noufie-chan came. I'm too tired to elaborate but still, I will say that it was nice. Let's just say that in the end, I thought to myself "This was good but when I go to Otakon this summer, I'll have so much fun it'll be insane. Then at the end of it all, on the second night of the con when it gets really late, it would be the perfect time to kill myself. I'll die happy... It would be the perfect suicide." xD

You may not believe me but I'm not really insane, nor suicidal. My mind just works in a twisted way. At least that's what I think.

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Feb 16, 2007 6:06 am EST
Current Mood: Extremely Sleep deprived but Excited as hell!
It's here it's here! It's finally here! At last, the moment where I can spread my wings and be free from this suffocating dysmal cocoon. Even if my wings get torn away afterwards, I'm going to Katsucon and that's all that matters! It may not be such a big deal to anyone else, but this is something monumental for me. I only get to experience this kind of ecstacy 1-3 times a year (if I'm lucky). I busted my ass off all this time to earn this moment and I assure you I will go into a furious rage if anything stops me from going. That's right. I'm going to Katsucon so don't expect to hear from me for a few days.

Stay safe, hug a plushie, and kill the emo fairy if she tries to come at you... give her Chiclets! In the mean time I'll try not to O.D. on happy pills and Mountain Dew. ^_^

xoxo
Marwah ♥

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Feb 14, 2007 7:28 am EST
Current Mood: Drained & sleepless
I'm so tired. I know I haven't been around much but I did make time to write up an entry . I didn't expect to get so worn out like this but I'm trying to get everything done before this weekend. Katsucon is days away and I am on a mission. Anyone who gets in my way will be subjected to my homocidal tendencies in which I will bury you so deep into the Earth's core that you will incinerate in the fires of hell before your sorry ass even has a chance to crawl out of your pathetic excuse for a grave. When I start talking like this it means I'm serious I've had very little sleep. =_=

Oh yea, poor little me doesn't have a valentine but that's ok cause I don't need one. ^_^ I don't celebrate V-Day but if that's something you're into then I wish you the best and may your day be filled with love, candy, hearts, chocolate, cupcakes, brownies, and all the diabetic sugary sweetness you would want. Then once your done with that you can enjoy all the hugs, kisses, groping, raping, fun-filled molesting, and all the shameless BDSM you could ever ask for but do it where the kiddies aren't watching! O.O

As for me, I have other things to do ^_^

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Feb 3, 2007 1:20 am EST
Current Mood: The happiest girl in the world
What did I tell you? I said he'd come back! And did he come back? YA DAMN RIGHT HE DID!! COVIE-KINS IS BACK MOFOS! You thought he was gone but I knew he'd be back! I was patient and I know a damn thing or two about patience! Half a year went by and I still believed he'd come back! But he also needed a little encouragement from yours truly ^_^ hehe that's just a pretty way of saying I had to go on stalker mode to get his ass back on here ^.^ But hey it worked! Holy bananas I am so mother flippin happy! XD

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Jan 29, 2007 1:58 pm EST
Current Mood: who needs a mood? XD
Everything's been majorly demanding lately and I've got some added responsibilities at home. I don't think it'll settle down anytime soon. Here's a quick recap of last week while I wasn't around. _ I'm trying to be on here as much as I can but RL responsibilities are keeping me tied. But that won't stop me cause I love my peeps here and I'd miss you too damn much to be away!

I think nowadays I'm probably gonna be on for at least once or twice a week. My RPing is gonna be cut down to occasional RP. It would probably take me a few days to a week to reply to people (as if you haven't noticed already) and maybe I might change the RP to para RP to try to make it worthwhile... maybe, I'm not sure. Just take it easy and roll with it ok ^_^

Oh yea, as a result of the "arranged marriage" thing currently going on, it's actually become a source of humor in my life. For instance, watch this vid . It pretty much sums up how an arranged marriage works but it does it in a really funny way. Seriously go watch! As for me, it's all good cause I have nothing to worry about. Nothing's official on this marriage thing yet but the pressure from my family's not too kind. Oh well! ^_^;

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Current Thoughts Archive


"Maybe I'll melt your heart. Maybe I'll leave you frozen. Maybe there's more to you than what I can see. Maybe the same can be said of me. Maybe we'll just have to wait and see Will you drift away with me?"-Quote by Marwah-

Pics from friends
**************** From Areor ^.^

Meushi & Marwah: Chibi Kawainess!

Asuka & Marwah: Dresses!

Pretty Asuka ♥

From Eclipse: Bound to You

Protected by Eclipse

From Asuka: Loveless ♥

From Asuka: Marwah's Yaoi Shock!

Valentine & Marwah

From Athena: Let it Snow!

From Athena: The Willow Tree

Athena & Marwah: Protectors of All We Cherish

From Brandy: Breaking these Chains

Don't Forget Me: Selene & Marwah

Shizu & Marwah

Asuka & Marwah: Friends & Bishie Lovers Forever

My plushie Sano ♥

Eve & Marwah & NFK

Kitty & Marwah

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Pics to friends
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Asuka & Marwah ♥

Eclipse: Sakura

Eclipse & Marwah: Huggle of comfort

Eclipse @ Masquerade

Eclipse: the Ice Prince

Areor: You Take My Breath Away

Eclipse: Breathe Your Life Into Me

Angel Mikoto: Guardian of the Night

Asuka's Unhealthy Obsession for Pink!

Gigi Kurmuda: Sexy little Devil

Marwah, Fuushido, & Quintz

Your Sword & Shield:
Eclipse & Marwah

Friendly Match: Coven & Marwah

Friends Playing Pocky Game: Coven & Marwah

Bonds of Friendship: Eclipse & Marwah

Adopted: Kamui & Marwah

Which is Sano?

Kickass Friends: Zorro & Marwah

Exotic Bliss: Sano & Leopard Marwah

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They all came back! ^o^ Even Covie is back but I'm keeping this section for now until I put up a new layout ^_^

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Dark Rose Coven
Even though it's seems like forever, I'm still waiting here for you. You hold a special place in my heart. It's never been the same since you've been gone. I learned so much from you and you've made an impact on me that I'll never forget. I miss you Covie-kins. I'll always be your Middle Eastern gem, your Middle Eastern flower.

Asuka (my beloved Bishie)
Where the hell did you suddenly vanish? I want my bishie back! I know you're not gone. My stalker fangirl senses tell me so! You're more than my ultimate bishie, you're the yaoi prince. Somebody tell me where he is damn it! _Footage:
Le Chevalier d'Eon

Music:
"Shinkirou (mirage)"

Reason:
This is one of my recent obsessions. If you haven't already, you should really check out this anime.

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My Blog

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Current Thoughts Archive

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