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eStroJen

eStroJen!

About Me

This is always the hardest thing to do....I can describe the person I think I am....I can describe the person I strive to be....but it is a very difficult thing to see oneself through another's eyes.....I will say.... I work hard to be the best person I can be, always.....I appreciate honesty in others, and always give the same in return.

My Interests

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I'd like to meet:

This is a poem by a woman named Oriah Mountain Dreamer...it pretty much sums it up for me...

The Invitation

It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living.
I want to know what you ache for
and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing.

It doesn’t interest me how old you are.
I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool
for love
for your dream
for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon...
I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow
if you have been opened by life’s betrayals
or have become shrivelled and closed
from fear of further pain.

I want to know if you can sit with pain
mine or your own
without moving to hide it
or fade it
or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy
mine or your own
if you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes
without cautioning us to
be careful
be realistic
remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me is true.
I want to know if you can
disappoint another
to be true to yourself.
If you can bear the accusation of betrayal
and not betray your own soul.
If you can be faithless
and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see Beauty
even when it is not pretty
every day.
And if you can source your own life
from its presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure
yours and mine
and still stand at the edge of the lake
and shout to the silver of the full moon,
“Yes.”

It doesn’t interest me
to know where you live or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up
after the night of grief and despair
weary and bruised to the bone
and do what needs to be done
to feed the children.

It doesn’t interest me who you know
or how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand
in the centre of the fire
with me
and not shrink back.

It doesn’t interest me where or what or with whom
you have studied.
I want to know what sustains you
from the inside
when all else falls away.

I want to know if you can be alone
with yourself
and if you truly like the company you keep
in the empty moments.

Music:



My favorite music is actually a lot of the music from Mi Familia of crazy talented musician friends: Echo Base Soundsystem, Oceanic, The Alpha Rhythm, Laura Scarborough, OHN, Govinda, Exstus, Telefon Tel Aviv, Tolera Storm, Lila's Medicine, and pretty much any band that Bruce Hughes has played in has been top notch. Also a big fan of Thievery Corp, Portishead, Sasha and Digweed, Shpongle, the Arc Angels, Ian Moore, Nick Drake, Billie Holiday, Patsy Cline, Buddy Guy, and yes, am dating myself by saying I even love James Taylor. I like to listen to classical when I'm driving.

Movies:

Yep, watch 'em!

Television:

Not much into TV, but this is what I like to spend time on instead: Good friends, inspiring people, artists of all types, smart folks I can learn from, debates and what if? conversations, sculpting, painting, making costumes, curling up with a good book, movies, dinner for two, dinner parties, creating beautiful memories, gardening, working on my house, chilling naked in my cee-ment pond...with friends, the fish...and a nice glass of sweet tea or two, being outdoors, trading stories over a campfire, La Dolce Vita, leaving the country...as much as possible, other cultures, Burning Man, spank twister, Mad Hatters, sustainable living...or just trying to figure out how to do that urban-commando style-on no budget, building stuff, making stuff, thrift-storing for art supplies, learning new things, meeting new people, the butterfly effect of the people who come in, out, and through my life....throughout my life.....and you....

Books:

Too many to name...I love to read, but never get enough time to read as much as I'd like to. I read myself to sleep a lot.

Heroes:

My blood family, and the Art Familia that I have been graced with.

My Blog

Haveron Studios LA show, October 25th

Kama Sutra LA!!!After fifteen years of putting on costume parties in Austin, I am finally bringing my Art Parties to LA...starting with the Kama Sutra ...a magical night of Art, Music, Dance, and cost...
Posted by eStroJen on Mon, 18 Aug 2008 06:21:00 PST

Life is funny...

You know, when I was young, and imagined myself in my prime...and hearing the pitter patter of little feet around the house...I had no idea they'd belong to a duck.Life.  Always a strange adventu...
Posted by eStroJen on Sat, 26 Jul 2008 10:53:00 PST

Biofuel...harmful or helpful ? CHECK THE CHART...

..>..>..>..>Bio-Hope, Bio-Hype A users' guide to biofuels By Frances Cerra Whittelsey September/October 2007 ..>..>..>..> ..> Chart: Comparing Biofuels ..> IN OUR BEAUTIFUL BIOFUEL FUTURE,...
Posted by eStroJen on Wed, 22 Aug 2007 06:28:00 PST

Stewards of the Blue Marble...

There is power in small things, done by many. There are some amazing things you can do that make a difference... and it's so easy to.  Your World... is My World... is Our world, and it'...
Posted by eStroJen on Fri, 22 Sep 2006 01:03:00 PST

Where can I recycle my ________...

I went looking for somwhere to take all the dried up nasty cans of old paint that have been piling up over the years of changing my wall colors ...this is what I found...What Can I Recycle? I...
Posted by eStroJen on Tue, 08 May 2007 12:36:00 PST

The great plastic bag debate....

It's so easy to either skip the bag, or go for the biodegradeable, paper option...to make such a big difference in the planet you live on.  I wish more people thought about where all this stuff e...
Posted by eStroJen on Wed, 25 Apr 2007 03:54:00 PST

GREEN ENERGY available for your home...

I signed up with the City of Austi's green energy program when it first came out, where the city buys my power from wind farms instead of coal or other dirty power sources.  YAY Austin!  The...
Posted by eStroJen on Tue, 10 Apr 2007 03:34:00 PST

Itty Bitty Green Penis Envy...

and my dream car, built by  *GASP!* an environmentally responsible company: www.teslamotors.com ooooooohhhhhh! aaaahhhhhh!
Posted by eStroJen on Wed, 20 Sep 2006 03:11:00 PST