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amy

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About Me

too late to repair what i done fucked up one too many times. giving up on being smarter than the battles I won only to sacrifice my heart to the enemy in disguise.

so long as that muscle still beating is known as a heart; keep moving and dancing, running, riding, walking, loving, and being jaded when neccesary.

i ride you.

RIP, February 29th, 2008. i rode you.

My Interests

part time living. sand dollar exchange rates.

I'd like to meet:

some body who knows the balance between vanity and humility. between recreational and abusive. between fetish and perverse. between feeling and numbness. how to avoid crossing over from living to just existing.

Music:

the stones. spiritualized / jason pierce. devendra banhart. jason molina / magnolia electric co/ songs:ohia. sufjan stevens.

Movies:

mullholland drive

Television:

firefly

Books:

bad dreams and regrets on paper.

My Blog

i am plain text blogging

its late. i should be sleeping. not winding down after white whine and cocktails.. prettending to be fancy.. fancy pantsed.So.I am enjoying life.Like my bicycle. don’t like my white saddle. not ...
Posted by amy on Wed, 02 Apr 2008 01:16:00 PST

new house

we moved into a new place this weekend... from an ugly basement in north portland to a beautiful house in laurylhurst.. things are going better in our lives. me and doug are both clean. aside from occ...
Posted by amy on Tue, 29 Jan 2008 01:23:00 PST

post new blog

I am at the library. I'm not sure why. I forgo tot bring the library books I have at my hosue that are three or four weeks late. Oops.   The weather today cant make up it's mind if it's hot or c...
Posted by amy on Sat, 19 May 2007 02:23:00 PST

fghf

i chose this photo i have on my profile for one reason; i mean, the reason i photoshopped it was for a class, but i was smiling. and it seemed unconventional because well I never smile in photos. but ...
Posted by amy on Fri, 13 Apr 2007 02:09:00 PST

shut in.

i've never been such a shut in in several years the amount of time i spent behind a tv in my basement room in the dark is enough to drain the blood from my veins.guess i already did because they're re...
Posted by amy on Tue, 16 Jan 2007 11:20:00 PST

today

is christmas and ive spent almost all day in bed. i got an electric blanket to help me sweat out another night. dopesick on a holiday pretending to be something i'm not.
Posted by amy on Tue, 26 Dec 2006 08:10:00 PST

is it possible

to feel both fat and skinny?to feel ugly and beautiful andto hate yourself for being capable of too much to want to be so many things that instead you are nothingso sick of loving that you only love t...
Posted by amy on Sat, 23 Dec 2006 09:20:00 PST

it's my

birthday.and i'll cry if i want to.and laugh too. or shrug it off, just another day.
Posted by amy on Mon, 04 Dec 2006 07:07:00 PST

fuckingme, fuckingyoouuuu

I'm feeling better. Artificially. I mean, I wish I had the courage to see what life feels like unaltered. But that's real scary. It tends to not turn out well when I do try . School is going OK. PCC ...
Posted by amy on Mon, 13 Nov 2006 01:27:00 PST

yeah

the worst part iseven my dog hates me nowhe wont let me sleep at nightthis is the third night in a row. i guess it's some kind of cruel joke after i slept all weekend long that I get three hours of sl...
Posted by amy on Wed, 08 Nov 2006 09:59:00 PST