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About Me

I owned my own home for a few years( I put it up for sale in June '07 and it sold in August ) and am living in an apartment again ( which I LOVE, it's nice as shit! ) I have 3 vehicles( one of which is a '92 Suzuki Intruder 800!!...5-1-08 UPDATE: sold my baby:'^( ), been blessed with 2 beautiful little girls that are never far from my side, and that I could absolutely NOT live without, and still, I don't feel as though I'm where I should be in life or better yet, I feel like there is something out there still waiting for me . I don't know, I guess life hasn't turned out quite the way I thought it would be.( I thought I'd have sooo much money by now that I'd be wiping my ass with it, and sleeping on a king size bed with the mattress stuffed full of $100 dollar bills!!!) At this point and time in my life right now, I'm tryin to figure out what it is I REALLY want out of life. What it is I want to be doing, where I want to be going. I'm THINKING about trying wrestling (probabaly not, but we'll see) or becoming a certified personal trainer, maybe that's what I want to do since I workout alot anyway? I've done roofing, bartending, a little carpentry, hardee's cashier, sub shop cook and delivery girl, topless dancer, a pizza-flyer-passer-outer(putting sub shop coupons on peoples porches), mill work, liscensed fork lift operator, telemarketng, dunkin donuts cashier/ waitress, use to own a small relaxation business(I sold it last year ) and now I'm looking for the next thing to try, so............ on top of giving the wrestling thing a try( who knows, probably not ) and MAYBE becoming a CPT ( or group fitness instructor ) I will also be applying for a few reality T.V. shows ,like Survivor and maybe American Gladiators( I use to watch it when I was little and KNEW then that I'd make a bad ass rock you sock you pick you up and drop you Gladiator!) Who knows? Fuck it! You live ONE time, might as well make the most of it while we're here. Not one single person is guaranteed tomorrow, so live TODAY!!! What is that thing they say? ( Who the hell is THEY anyway?) Yesterday is gone, Tomorrow may never come , .... shit, you don't need me to say it. You know what comes next...?There is alot of things about me that conflicts with alot of things about me (some people see me as an angel and some people see me as a devil, good but bad)I do what I want, without worrying about what other people think and if someone dosen't like it,well,so what? Who cares as long as I'm not hurting anyone? I look at it like this... I have THIS life right here, right now, and even if I live to be 100, it's still too short, so I'm going to live my life the way I want to live it. I can do ANYTHING I put my mind to and the ONLY person who can stop me is me!(Ask my kids and they'll tell you they can do anything they put their minds to also)Life is what YOU make of it.I know what matters most to me in this life,do you? Live NOW, cause NO ONE's promised tomorrow!! As for the devil/angel thing, I'll tell you what, if you think you've got me figured out, let me know or keep it to your self, either way I really don't care cause in the end I'm STILL going to BE ME
(4-26-08) Ok. So there's this thing..this way about me.I don't know why but I have these issues (who don't ,right?)Trust issues, can't-get-close-to-people issues and never realized just how BAD till lately. I met a great dude and now that I'm starting to have some feelings, I'm pulling away. I've done this shit before and NEVER had a problem walking away. I was with someone for a LONG time ('94-'06)and even he would say things like "Why do you put these walls up, Jen?" " Why won't you let yourself REALLY love me?" I don't know. I don't know. I just DON'T know. I know I do. I know I have the walls. It's fucked up, but HOW do I get rid of them? No one else can. Only I can do it. But they're too thick to go through, too tall to go over, to wide to go around and too deep to go under and I just don't see a way. It's been fine till now. Good actually. I wonder ( if given the choice) would I spend most of my time with (A) an enemy or (B) someone I could fall in love with. I bet it'd be (A). That's sad.. I suck.. I'll probabaly end up old and all alone all because of my bullshit....

You Are The Magician
You are powerful and wise - beyond what anyone can see.
Deeply complex, you have the resources to connect to the spiritual and material world.
You posses the knowledge to manipulate your life and the lives around you.
You also have a great healing power, should you choose to use it.
Your fortune:
You have unhidden powers that you have yet to tap into.
Soon, you will better understand how to use your intellect and intuition.
Believe it or not, you will discover how you can manipulate yourself and others for good.
You are at the beginning of a path of spiritual enlightenment. What Tarot Card Are You?

My Interests

"In the Heart of the Warrior there is no surrender, when the body says quit, the spirit screams Never!!!!!!"Chillin with my babies, working out, gettin tattooed, reading, playing pool, makin money, havin fun,meetin COOL new people,vampires, and some other things;0
Your Birth Month is January
You are a natural leader who is able to stand up when no one else can.
Strong and powerful, you tend to overshadow those around you.

Your soul reflects: deep love, fascination with life, and a distinctive persona

Your gemstone: Garnet

Your flower: Snowdrop

Your colors: Black, dark red, and dark blue ?

You Should Get An All Over Tattoo
Hell Yeah!! Outrageous crazy type of chick!
Get WHATEVER the hell tattoo you want! Don't let anyone try to tell you any different. Dosen't matter if anyone did...you wouldn't listen anyway! Besides, you never have to choose just one!! ;^)

I'd like to meet:

Anyone who is chill,for real and up for havin a good time without bringing fake ass drama( or ANY drama for that matter). I don't like hanging out with people who always start trouble and shit. A little trouble SOMETIMES is fine, but tryin to prove that your some kind of tough guy/girl all the time is for self-concious little kids that haven't grown up enough YET to realize that life is too short for the little dumb bullshit. I think everyone has a defining moment in their life that tells them.." holy shit!! Life IS short, I'm NOT guaranteed tomorrow and neither are my loved ones, so let me step back and figure out what's REALLY important" for some, that moment is great, for others like me it was a fucked up hell and a tough pill to swallow, to realize , damn, I'm not immortal and neither is anyone that I love. In any case, it made me realize I'd rather have fun and make friends while i'm here rather than be an asshole to everyone my whole life. My VERY real, VERY sad moment came June 30 1995,though it took only a moment, the sadness has lasted to this day. Have you had your moment yet?And anyone else who is not only cool but not fake, people who are true to their inner selves no matter what other people say or think, but I also don't like to be around mean assholes who like to make other people feel like shit about themselves.If being a mean asshole IS being true to you, and YOU'RE cool with it,then that's fine, it's you. I just prefer to not be around it.Really, the only other people I DON'T like to be around, is people who think that they're better than anyone else, those stuck up assholes who look down on people who have less than what they have. I prefer chilled, laid back people who like to have a good time and don't feel the need to act like anyone else but themselves

Music:

Mainly rock and classic rock but anything you can dance or have sex to is coool with me

Like I said, Everything!!
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Movies:

Crazy as all hell and a little embarrassed to admit but lost boys is my still fave. I like comedys and horror and action, hell as long as I don't have to READ a MOVIE, then I'll atleast give it a chance.

You Are Bad Girl Sexy
You are nothing but trouble. And that's hot.
You've got the classic bad girl sexiness mojo going on.
And your badass attitude makes men fear you - and crave you.
Do NOT give into people who say to tone it down. You're perfect as is.

Television:

Survivor call me!! Damn! I'm READY already! I don't watch much tv(it's usually on the cartoon network)but I do like to watch Moonlight!! Prision Break ,Bionic Woman ,and Survivor when I can.

Books:

You'd never know it looking at me , but I love to read. I don't know why, but lately I've been into the modern day type vampire, werewolf and witch books(fiction)Right now it's Kim Harrison, Patricia Briggs( lovin the Mercy Thompson series..she's a Skinwalker/Mechanic/Badass tattooed chick), Kelley Armstrong, Maryjanice Davidson and Charlaine Harris. But that could change in a second, just like anything else.....

Heroes:

My grandfather (Pete ) and my grandmother (Agnes ). If you knew them then you'd see where I and EVERY single member of my familys' inner strength stems from. We are fighters We are survivors and above ALL, we LOVE and stand by each other NO MATTER WHAT!! The way a family should be, cause in the end it's your family that has your back, be it a blood bond or a love bond. Family is what YOU make it

CURRENT MOON lunar phases
Your Inner Color is Purple
Your Personality: You're a dreamer and visionary. You believe you were put on this earth to do something great.
You in Love: You're very passionate but often too busy for love. You need a partner who sees your vision and adopts it as their own.
Your Career: You need a job that helps you make a difference. You have a bright future as a guru, politician, teacher, or musician. ?
You Have a Choleric Temperament
You are a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things.
Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life.
You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation.
You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon.
Strong willed, NOTHING can keep you down. Your energy can break down ANY wall.
You're an INSTANTLY passionate person - and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others.
At your worst, you are a narcissist. Kinda full of yourself and even proud of your faults.
Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion.
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My Blog

Funny as hell!! ( to me anyway)

A doctor goes out and buys the best car on the market, a brand newFerrari GTO It is also the most expensive car in the world, and itcosts him $500,000.He takes it out for a spin and stops at a red lig...
Posted by Jen on Fri, 20 Jun 2008 02:39:00 PST

Watch this video!!! Earth Day 2008

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Posted by Jen on Thu, 27 Mar 2008 07:30:00 PST

Because you didn’t see me...Bikers Story

..> Look twice save a lifeI saw you pull your child closer when we passed each other on the sidewalk.But you didn't see me playing Santa at the local mall.I saw you change your mind about going in...
Posted by Jen on Sat, 16 Feb 2008 05:51:00 PST

looks like i’m on some televisions website

http://oxygen.feedroom.com/?fr_story=607018e204ef9545bdafc2c 8483159de1f16470c&rf=bm someone just told me to check this out soi went here then scrolled down to where it says "Displaying" and clicke...
Posted by Jen on Sun, 02 Dec 2007 02:24:00 PST

A poem to give you goosebumps...

>>A drunk man in an Oldsmobile>>>>>>They said had run the light>>>>>>That caused the six-car pileup>>>>>>On 109 that night.>>>>>>When broken bodies lay about>>>>>>'And blood was everywhere,'>>>>>>'The...
Posted by Jen on Mon, 09 Jul 2007 06:48:00 PST

A poem that PISSES me the FUCK OFF !! >:^(

**NO kid should have to go through this.......Read and pray for all the children of the world that are going through something like this right now. No child should EVER go through this, and as a ...
Posted by Jen on Sat, 09 Sep 2006 07:46:00 PST

A poem that I really like

Crabby Old Lady> >> > When an old lady died in the geriatric ward of a small>hospital near Dundee, Scotland, it was believed that>she had nothing left of any value.>>Later, when the nurses were going ...
Posted by Jen on Tue, 22 Aug 2006 11:50:00 PST