art: (including but not limited to) Painting in acrylics and water colors...I am slowly working the patience level of a grown up so oil paints aregoing to have to remain undiscovered..but I have the feeling it won't be long. Oops! I so love the art of side track! Chalk pastels, charcoal,pencil and pen sketching.. the mental sketch isn't too bad either and Wether i want to believe it or not it is possible to have a positive mental"sketch" and TRUST me 9 out of every 10 who know me will tell you I indeed have this down to an art form. Leather crafting, sewing, jewlery(beaded, silver, copper etc.) if it's considered art and I've heard of it and i've had the financial means to try it there is a good chance I'vetried!! (Note:I am aware that approx. 200 charecters ago I made it sound as if I had never given oil paints a chance...but on the contrary Ihave...If you go back and hear what I typed for you to read you will be the prime target for my arch nemesis CAPTAIN OBVIOUS and realizethat if I had never tried oil paints as a medium then how would I have known I did not have the patience for them?) Hmmm..I love computers,the hardware, the software, 2600, BL411, 300/1200/2400 bps 8-N-1, My favorite thing about computers is what I just decided to callhomio-cyber psychology..Myself and this alloy based life form think alike, algorythmic The answer, then the question is found it is the trueformula which is next to impossible for the average to truly comprehend for even a Parakeet with the approxamite selling price of $9.99 atyour local pet store is able to repeat what it hears....Sheepole wanna cracker? Quantum theoies, mechanics and physics, astro physics,electronics (the taking apart, breaking and occassionally fixing or putting back together of) POWER TOOLS! Building things out ofwood...CAUSE "I'm a lumberjack and I'm ok I sleeps all night and I works all day", psychology, socialogy, conspiracies, photos, beauty, scifi--shit like star gate, star trek and any sci fi B or any B cause B is for me..I take myself serious enough the last thing I need is watchingsomeone elses imaginative truths brought to the emotional level of pseudo reality...I have witness of my reasoning it all became evident oneday when an arguement was overheard between a lama myself and a toaster...the bagel itself thanks to our constitution still remainsinnocent. Crowley, balance, reflections, karma, Thinking, writting, laughing, smiling, learning..OH POOPIE SQUAT I LOVE IT ALL! JUST ANEURORITANYLITICALHYPOCONDRISOMATIC HIPPIE AT HEART:p
I'd like to meet:
Maybe I know them already? yeah right! Seriously though, someone who is my best friend, and who is capable of being my lover as well...and when I say these words "being my lover" I am not speaking of just in a physical/sexual way- I am referring to the way I believe that two souls can compliment eachother. Someone who I could speak to without words, who I could share laughter, learning, living and growing with-and the shoulder to cry on if so needed. Maybe I'm unrealistic, maybe I'm still too like a child with my dreamy aspirations for love...but I still hold a light of hope inside that refuses to dim or be estinguished....
Music:
Pink Floyd, Frank Zappa, Grateful Dead, Atmosphere, Tori Amos, Depeche Mode, Led Zeppelin, Sky Cries Mary,Kiss, Tricky, SkinnyPuppy, Front 242, Front Line Assembly, Combi CHrist, Motley Crue, Metallica, Slayer, Fugazi, Reckless Kelly, Misfits, Plasmatics, Type O,Mozart, Beethoven, Trans Siberian Orchestra, Ratt, Bang Tango, Peter Gabriel, David Bowe, The Beatles, Apathy, Jeidi Mind Tricks, LilFlip, NWA, Eminem, Run DMC, Lush, Switchblade Symphony, Kevin Aviance, Tiesto, ok thats enough of typing for now.. but one last thing(NO SERIOUSLY) the music of life..You know I did have a show typed in this space, however upon further reflection on myself I (added later) now that shit is funny! here i stopped in mid thought mid typing! lol
Movies:
Stargate, Hellraiser Series, Forest Gump, Natural Born Killers, The Eye, CHUD, some movie where the ants take over the world but i cant remember its name, b flicks, The Wall, A clockwork Orange, Sid and Nancy, NIN broken
Television:
You know I did have a show typed in this space, however upon further reflection on myself I am reverting back to my former and true synopsisof television. It is what my mom used to refer to as an idiot box. It thinks, hears, smells, imagines, and lives for us. How many times is a childwitnessed playing make believe but as thier favorite super hero or cartoon chatecter? How many sheepole wander blindly in predeterminedUSDA grade "A" pseudo sub concious reflections of vicarious living. Pop-culture icons who induce our physical actions and visualinterpritations of what our status quo socially acceptable real life broadway musical "programme" gives the carbon based falible mind theguidelines that those we foolishly put in control of our lives give us to go by. Multiple choice? Why must we have A. B. C. D. and oh lest notforget the token all or none of the above-which does nothing more then deprogram the original validity of the All the above. This is whereAlloy has the supreme advantage over the carbon base-Carbon/organic based life forms are easily changed-though the over all stability ofthe human body/mind is for the most part pretty damn good. It is the inner bio chemical and electrical reactions and interactions that makeour methods and processes of aquiring, processing, storing, and applying data so inadequite and primitive. hetero with homo geniousinside constantly switching properties....I shall sum this up in a metaphor...Our brain is like writting in sand, a computer where all the laws oftrue and false are programmed by physical representations of collective conciousness is the aquivelent to being writting in stone (though stillnothing in stone is set;) And this is why TV is unhealthy, poisoness, deadly, and more cancerous then a pack of cigarettes ever can or willbe. If for any reason you should find yourself laughing at what you've just read or disagree with the basic truth in any of my above views thenplease do not bother attempting to communicate with me, we don't think on the same level-and though I am forced to stiffle my true intelect tosome degree every day to "surrvive" I will not waste any of my true self on those not on my level..Now that would be my idea of the worst buzzkill...
Books:
books by crowley, isreal regardie
Heroes:
my dad for providing finacially for the family while he was raising himself as an adult....I only wish I fared as well My mom now too, cause shehas blossomed into a wonderful beautiful teenage mom-and who said that children can't raise children..it is possible but it's all about meetingat a middle ground;)
