Your Daddy

what's my destiny? i'm still searching for it. am I destined for a life of wealth? or am I already there?
I sit upon the rocks, watching the sunlight dance upon the ocean, and feeling the warm wind across my face. It feels nice across my skin, like a lover's touch. The touch of satin, red satin. I close my eyes, and enjoy the moment. Suddenly the warmth upon my face seems to fill me from within. Is it my imagination, or did I just feel my lover's fingers on my chest. I breathe in deep, as a touch upon my neck is like a sensual kiss. The warmth within begins to build. Dare I open my eyes, or shall I stay like this... forever?
I find myself inherently selfish. I want only the best for myself. Yet at the same time that selfishness extends into wanting the best for the people around me too such that there is sometimes that tension that exists that is undescribably powerful and intruiging. i don't know why. maybe you could tell me.