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CrucialBBQ

I Guess I Really Don't Know How To Party

About Me

First off, in case you don't read my blogs I just want say I have battling leukemia since Feb. 4, 2005, I've had several chemotherapy treatments and hospital visits and nothing seems to helped. I'm set for a bone marrow transplant in September that will hopefully get me back to normal. Feel free to email me or add me as a friend, but plese note I don't hvae much access to a computer in the hospital and sometimes I even lack the energy to write back. Thank you for stopping by....AND HERE'S THE REAL ME....

I work in Manhattan as webdesigner for some rock bands. I big teddy bear with tattoos and a shaved head...the look don't match the personality. Music is my life and my job. What I most like to do is sit back at an quiet dirty old bar, Guiness in hand, good tunes on the jukebox, watching / reading people. I like life.....laid back.

My Interests

Music, Stouts, Porters, Barleywines, Stoli, History, Football, Baseball, Hockey, Tattoos, Genuine People, Intelligent Conversation, People Watching

I'd like to meet:

People who love music as much as me. Laid back folks that would like to wander aimelessly around the city or just chill out with a beer. Quiet and subdued over loud and crazy...though I do like to throw down and party once in awhile. People who don't care about money/ prestige or what kind of clothes you wear or the car you drive. Oh...and girls that watch sports rule!

Music:

Damn... how can I narrow it down... Life of Agony, Vision of Disorder, old Metallica, Murphy's Law, Mighty Mighty Bosstones, Seaweed, Shift, NYHC, Goverment Issue, Rancid, Turbonegro, Fugazi, The Smiths, Morrissey, Beastie Boys, Old School Hip Hop, Shades Apart, Live, 3 Doors Down, REM, Wilco, Chevelle, Kiss, Motley Crue, 80's Hair Metal, Pearl Jam, Soundgarden, Chevelle, Nirvana, The Doors, Anthrax, Guns N Roses, earshot, Johnny Cash, Gold Mind Squad...generally heavy... just come over and look at my cd collection!

Movies:

Dead Poets Society, Good Will Hunting, A Few Good Men, Training Day, Road To Perdition, Spinal Tap, Old School, Reservoir Dogs, Shawshank Redemption, A Bronx Tale, Another State of Mind, SLC Punk, Fight Club, Rounders, Usual Suspects, American History X, Good Morning Vietnam, Breakfast Club, Die Hard, Goodfellas, The Matrix Trilogy, Star Wars Trilogy, Miracle, Gladiator, Braveheart, anything with Belladonna

Television:

Chappelle's Show, Law & Order, CSI, Monster Garage, American Chopper, WWE, Dog The Bounty Hunter, Sportscenter, Late Show With David Letterman, Late Night with Conan O'Brien, Inked, Hogan Knows Best

Books:

Hunter S. Thompson, Henry Rollins

My Blog

The Final Countdown

Just got back from the hospital for a checkup. The vacations over. The leukemia is starting to grow. Tomorrow, Chemotherapy/Bone Marrow Transplant begins. I doubt I'll have access to a computer, ...
Posted by CrucialBBQ on Tue, 06 Sep 2005 02:25:00 PST

Temporary Relocation

So they discharged me from the hospital last night. They believe they have the leukemia just under control and becuase they believe 2 previous chemos damaged my heart, they wanted to give my heart a l...
Posted by CrucialBBQ on Fri, 02 Sep 2005 12:10:00 PST

My Brain Is Mush

I just feel like a giant pile of mush. My brain don't function anymore. I can't watch TV. Reading bores me. I honestly (and sadly) usually just stare at the clock going around. I'm not kidding, I can ...
Posted by CrucialBBQ on Wed, 31 Aug 2005 06:57:00 PST

SSSSSHIVERING

So n Friday they decde to give this new drug. It eats up leukemia cells and drives the numbers down. Considering mine are still pretty low, they hope that giving me this drug this past Thursday, today...
Posted by CrucialBBQ on Sat, 27 Aug 2005 08:50:00 PST

Unexpected Lung Surgery

So I've been battling this lung infection for awhile along with the leukemia. Well a CT scan showed on Tuesday that one of the nodules had grown to the size of a quarter. They had been trying differen...
Posted by CrucialBBQ on Sat, 20 Aug 2005 07:01:00 PST

The Cancer That Will Not Die

So I was awoken to the sobering news today that the results of my latest bone marrow test was positive for leukemia. MAN...I just can't lick this mofo! Well Doc, what does that mean. Immediate high do...
Posted by CrucialBBQ on Sat, 13 Aug 2005 05:15:00 PST

A Phone Call I Got

So my phone rang yesterday and all the caller ID said was "Illinois". Not knowing anyone really from Illinois I wasn't going to answer. It turned out to be Sam Loeffler from Chevelle, he was...
Posted by CrucialBBQ on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

A Quick Stop In

Well it's been like a month since I posted and Im still in the hospital...with a big lack of internet access. Well anyway I got my chemo and they are waiting to for the blood levels to return to norma...
Posted by CrucialBBQ on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Keeping Your Sanity

I'm trapped in the hospital and I'm trying to stay sane. I have a mental fight on two fronts: (1) my mortality and whether Im going to survive this (2) the feelings of frustration, boredom, and claus...
Posted by CrucialBBQ on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Cancer Strikes Back

"Gave all I haaaaaaaaad.....", Broken Valley I am back here lying in a hospital...one with high speed internet amazingly. I was admitted Fourth of July weekend with fevers that they believed were bact...
Posted by CrucialBBQ on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST