I AM: Merely a collection of molecules and memories; defined and redefined by my acquaintances and enemies. I have two people living in my head and I am pretty sure that one is trying to kill the other (sometimes I wish he would just get it over with already). I never know which one is going to be driving when I wake up in the morning. It is almost as though they flip a coin when I am sleeping (which is why I avoid sleep at all costs)and WHEN IT’S HEADS: I’m friendly and approachable. I’m a wiseass, but it is all in fun. I can take a joke. I don’t regret the past or worry about the future; I just roll with the moment. I am willing to see your side of the story and willing to compromise. I am content to sit and do nothing. I can be a great listener, a rational thinker and can offer useful and practical advice. I always put others first. I sing (and maybe dance or mosh) to songs on the juke box. I buy everyone drinks. I know that everything is going to be alright. I look forward to the rest of my life. I wouldn’t trade any of this for the entire world. WHEN IT’S TAILS: You should leave me alone. I may think I am being funny, when I am really just being mean. I take everything as an insult or a challenge. I spend most of my time cursing the past and dreading the future. I am stubborn and I argue about everything for no good reason. I get anxious and annoyed when I am bored. I have no patience or time to listen to people whine about their problems (especially when they are of your own doing). I am selfish. I refuse to smile and sometimes refuse to leave the house. I am pretty certain that I am going to die violently. I am pretty sure I am going die alone. I don't want to live forever; I don't even want to live past 40. I would gladly trade this all for 30 seconds of violence and a slow fade to black. BUT THERE ARE SOME THINGS THAT NEVER CHANGE: I am honest and I appreciate honesty. I am loyal and I appreciate loyalty. I am (almost) always down for a party, a game (or 50) of beer pong, and/or a few rounds of Asshole. I don’t need to be entertained, but I am willing to entertain. I would give you the last dollar in my pocket, even if it meant I would starve, but I would never ask anyone to do the same for me. I can build anything without instructions. I am a hard worker. I am a quick thinker. I drive fast. I always play my music loud. I have seen a lot of movies, I remember most of the lines and I like to repeat them over and over. I never apologize, unless I really, really mean it. I hate talking on the phone for longer then is absolutely necessary. I choose my words carefully. I suggest that you DO NOT ask for my opinion if you aren't ready to hear it. I give people enough rope to hang themselves with, but it is up to them to decide whether or not they will do so. I won't take meds, because I am afraid of feeling normal. I know I have some great friends, but I don't know how to take advice. I am keeping a lot of secrets, even from those people closest to me. I don't believe in love, but I do believe in ghosts. I will try my hardest to make you laugh or keep you otherwise distracted so you won't ask me how I am doing. I am inclined to dream big, but I'm accustomed to achieving small. I have mastered snatching defeat from the jaws of victory. I hate people who wait for their turn to talk instead of listening to what is being said to them. I hate talking for the sake of talking, but I hate uncomfortable silence more. I hate stories that have no real point. I like hate like when like people like say like between like every like word like. I can lie with a straight face and I fight dirty. I forgive, but I NEVER forget. I have considered how many pills it would take, but I haven't tested my theory... yet. I drink alone and I drink a lot. I am never impressed, but I find plenty of time to be depressed. I am continually amazed by how quickly people are willing to qualify something as an absolute truth knowing full well that it has come from the most disreputable and unreliable of sources. I believe that you must make the majority of people earn your trust; because an even bigger majority of people will not value or protect something they got free of cost or effort (I am sure that there are exceptions to this, but I haven't met many). I know that most people will never realize that it isn't about whether or not they can live with a lie, but whether or not someone else should be forced to. I would rather be a chapter in a single person's story, then a single page is everyones. I used to be smarter. I used to be braver. I wish I was more photogenic. I miss making music. I miss writing stories, but I guess that’s just me…
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