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my own personal struggle with emotional and psychological stability. chaos and adversity (i just can't help it when i'm out of control). kink. diverging from the self and the society for the sake of wisdom and the fullness of a multi-faceted existance, even if it means painful sacrifice. transhumanism . winter for: the short days, peace and quiet, snowfall at 3am, and slowing of most other things while i accelerate. sample this, sample that. i have said that "only nothing is original, for it is from nothing which all things come..." and that is purely original. absurdity. if you ever try to wander too far from reality, someone will take issue (death included). why wonder? just know. roaming will cost you. i know that i have not all the answers, and that nothing answers it all, and probably only that as well. nihil. my words may mean nothing to an insect, in the same way that god may sometimes mean nothing to me. rainbows to earthworms. the ineffable. awe. i keep going and you keep going (away). information exchange. cryptology. who is to say what source it has? there is no source. i am and am on a channel, where going and coming becomes irrelevant. static and dynamic. no static, no signal.
I'd like to meet:
a. person you know well and regard with affection and trust, friend.
b. cause worth concern. for the reason that; on account of.
c. you
d. attract by using an inexorable force, inducement, etc.
please be aware that i try to keep my personal profile somewhat exclusive by including, for the most part, only those who i know in real life on my friends list. if you are a friend or someone else who would like to add me, you will be required to know my email or last name. if you need this information, just ask! i had to do this partially because of issues with spammers. ADDITIONALLY: i do have a music profile here where i will gladly add all who are interested. go to it.
i'd also like to meet you here:
so go. GO!
Music:
PLAYLIST TEMPORARILY DOWN BECAUSE I'M AN OUTLAW.
aside from nine inch nails and medic (both of which are close to my heart), the tip of the iceburg sounds like this: aphex twin, a perfect circle, dj acucrack, adult, and one, bad company, beastie boys, beck, bjork, blondie, boards of canada, brian eno, BT, chemlab, chris vrenna/tweaker, client, clint mansell, pop will eat itself, cobalt 60, coldplay, covenant, daft punk, dave ralph, david bowie, deep dish, depeche mode, dieselboy, dj icey, dj shadow, keoki, dmx, dot allison, one dove, download, dr. dre, eazy-e, enya, excessive force, faith no more, fatboy slim, farmers manual, fear factory, filter, fischer spooner, fluke, front 242, front line assembly, fsol, gary numan, goldfrapp, gorillaz, grandmaster flash, groove armada, gus gus, hive, infected mushroom, information society, INXS, iszoloscope, james brown, johnny cash, junkie xl, juno reactor, kmfdm, korn, kraftwerk, led zeppelin, ludacris, madonna, male or female, marilyn manson, massive attack, meat beat manifesto, meg lee chin, michael jackson, ministry, missy elliot, moby, mr bungle, NERD, nitzer ebb, NWA, ohgr, ol' dirty bastard, onyx, orbital, orgy, outkast, panacea, panasonic, pantera, paul oakenfold, paul van dyk, peter gabriel, phil collins, pig, pigface, pink floyd, plaid, plastikman/richie hawtin, prick, propellerheads, psychic TV/genesis p. orridge, public enemy, radiohead, rage against the machine, razed in black, rob zombie, sasha, scott weiland, stone temple pilots, sevendust, siouxsie & the banshees, sister machine gun, skinny puppy, squarepusher, static-x, switchblade symphony, the chemical brothers, the crystal method, the orb, the prodigy, the who, timo maas, tom petty, tool, us, ub40, underworld, u2, utah saints, ween, william orbit, xtc
Movies:
no, i didn't read the book. i prefer audio-visual presentations and manifestations. sometimes i try to consider that i should probably watch a movie more than once in order to determine what i really think or how i feel about it, because i wonder how much my mood or other factors regarding the state i was in when i originally saw it influenced my opinion of it, kind of like a science experiment where the film is the control group and i'm the experimental group.
i tend to believe that the director more than anyone else affects the outcome of a film and for me, a good director often means a good piece of work. i know there's a term for this philosophy on film, but i can't remember it. i like to watch a movie that makes me think or cry a lot, or both; something provoking. i like lynch, aronofsky, michel gondry, occasionally oliver stone or scorsese. i like what charlie kaufman (aka the kaufman brothers) has done as a writer and producer. i like everything i've seen that woody allen has done (i love how well he conveys neurotic tendencies - makes me feel like i'm not the only one, and it's hilarious). i really have to give nods and props to larry and andy wachowski or the wachowski brothers for their work on the matrix series alone, including not only the trilogy but also all other work surrounding it. it may make me a total nerd, but i don't care one bit. i think the matrix was a masterpiece, even though i could still criticize it on some points. taking on such a massive project is, in itself, worthy of praise in my opinion. i definitely like some things about kubrick too. i also like what gene wilder i'm familiar with and have a real appreciation for some of his work - same goes for woody allen, regardless of his personal life and any issues he may have. doesn't everyone have issues? i say yes, and i think most of the people who really have something to offer artistically are probably some of the most fucked up people there may be, who have one way or another managed to channel and infuse a lot of that into a productive career (that's the hard part - i'm still workin' on that myself).
i don't feel like going into actors right now, nor do i feel like i can speak about actors much without being too subjective, but then again i guess it's all just a matter of opinion. i have a thing for mid 80s to early 90s sci-fi, and in some ways sci-fi in general, but it has to be well thought out. well, not always. i can't explain this. i can say that i think you should be familiar with ghost in the shell 1 and 2 if you aren't already. then again, maybe that's not your cup of tea.
one thing i think i should note and mention regarding how i feel about film - madness is hard to sell to a madman, and there's nothing like the real thing manifested masterfully. yeah. one thing i really like about myself and movies as i grow older is that i feel like i'm able to appreciate older material more; things before my time. i can connect some dots and see how one thing led to another, how one thing influenced another thing, etc. it's good to get some sort of origin or reference in culture. i think that's a marvelous thing to explore.
Television:
AMC, adult swim, bits and pieces of G4 (although i miss tech tv and i think G4 has kinda gone to shit), a little comedy central here and there (love the daily show and colbert report), and some channels containing documentary material and informative programming. i'll have to admit that sometimes i can be a sucker for some reality television even though most of it is shit. it's a guilty pleasure, what can i say? sometimes i feel like television is raping me, so i don't watch it. other times, the hypnotizing light box is like a warm bath.
Books:
Twas brillig, and the slithy toves did gyre and gimble in the wabe: all mimsy were the borogoves, and the mome raths outgrabe.
Heroes:
my mother, my grandmother.
