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My life is just as pathetic and as boring as everyone else living here. I've lived here all my life and I will always live in Florida until I die. I've been to tennesee a while back but only for like 3 days and that's the only time I have been out of this state. I know you are wondering why I have been here so damned long and that's because my family is poor and doesn't have the money to move anywhere. I hate this place and I always will. Nothing to do and nowhere to go.No place makes me most miserable then this place. Just being out of this city will make me feel sooo much better. Why do I hate it? It's not just the place but the people as well suck ass. I have too many enemies here. Way too many. And the number continue to grow. People that don't understand me and refuse to try. The people alone make me miserable. Also there is nothing exciting about this place yet, so many people come here. I dunno what they see. This place is way too crowded and is way too small. No sights to see and no amusement parks around and no good restaurants. This place sux ass. People have had goals in their lives to be singers, famous actors, billionaires, just random shit. But the main thing I have always wanted to do is just get the fuck out of here. I always wanted to see the world and see other people cultures and how different people lived day to day. Now I really don't give a shit. I gave up on that, all I want now is a new life. Away from all the people that have made me miserable my whole life. Will I get that? Eventually probably hopefully.A better part of my life is my man Chris. He can be annoying and act crazy but he's not afraid to say that he loves me and doesn't mind spending every day with me. We have been going out for almost two years now and he's still not yet sick of me. That mean a lot too me. He's the only person who hasn't got completely sick of me out of everyone that I have met and known. We share so many of the same interests too. We are both cat people, we like dogs but we love cats a lot more and have a lot more patience for cats as opposed to dogs. We both like rock music a hell of a lot as well as horror movies. We like playing the same games pretty much too. I just hate wrestling games. But besides that pretty much the same shit.Another up to my life is my pets. I have two ferrets named Mikey and Seifer and they never sieze to amaze me. I can walk them, and bathe them without much of a problem. Also I have a guinea pig named Grimy, He is black with orange spots on his back and is coat is very long and almost feels like human hair. His coat continues to grow too. He's afraid of everyone and everything and no matter how much I hold him that doesn't change a bit. He always makes squeeking noises when he's hungry or when his water bottle is not in his cage. So I always know when he needs something, even if it's in the middle of the night lol. I have 3 rats too Odin, Ganesh, and my white rat. I had a brown rat named Benny he died just recently. I try not to be upset about it because death is as natural as life and I know he's not in any pain anymore. All my rats are getting very old and there's nothing I can do to prevent them from getting any older. So I try to accept it. Both Odin and Ganesh are both dumbo rats, as was Benny, the rat I had that died. Odin is black and Ganesh is gray. They both share the same cage and they wouldn't have it any other way. My white rat is a male rex rat, he is a really big rat, one of the biggest rats that I have ever seen. He's albino too and doesn't have very good eyesight at all. But he's still really sweet. Those are all the pets I have, besides getting another ferret, I don't really want any new pets for now.My favorite color is black and I can stand pink or bright yellow. Just to be random. My best friend's name is laura. She's lives in a different city then me but I still try my best to keep in touch whether she likes it or not. I don't have a job and I really hate working with managers anyways, most of them have no patience with me anyways. So fuck them. I have a tattoo, a pentagram on my arm which needs to be redone. Next after that I want to get a dragon on my other arm. I get a long with a bunch of different people, I may be gothic but I get along with a lot of different types of people. Whoever is nice to me I'll be nice to them. I just don't like smart asses. I'm the only smart ass I like (yes I know that makes me hypocritical and I don't care). My least favorite feeling that I feel is feeling that I don't belong, I hate that so much! Nothing more irritating! I don't like being alone either. But at least I can somewhat stand it. Just not for way too long. Like I said, I spend everyday with my boyfriend and I love it that way. Anything else? Eh I'll put more shit on later. I think this is detailed enough for the time being. If you read this thank you because it means all of my typing was not in vain. Thank you very much.Okay I got more, religion, I don't believe in the christian god that everyone talks about and I never really have. I don't care if you think I'm going to hell for it either. If I do that'll be my fault anyways so don't obsess yourself with it. I really don't know what I believe in really. I am a pagan sometimes cause I get the feeling that several gods are out there. But then sometimes I feel nothing at all and believe in atheism more. I am very confused on the sudjects and I really hate to think about it. I was a witch a few years back (wiccan) But I'm not anymore and haven't been for a long time. I still like reading books about wicca and building up my knowledge on wicca but only for a short time. I also like reading about the gods and goddesses of the Norse Pantheon. I like the stories about the gods because the stories make the gods sound like us. They seem very human like. People call the word "god" as something more superior then humans in every way. But when I really mythology that believe disappears. Of course they are as lot more powerful then us. But still. They have the same emotions that we do and act very similar to us. I know there are gross stories about then having kids with their brothers and sisters and every body who knows that hates that. But think about it. If you were a god and the only other gods were your relatives and you wanted to keep it just as gods and no humans what would you do? Most would say not do it but you're not a god and really wouldn't know what it would be like in that situation. So don't judge the gods for that. But anyways those are my believes on religion.Let's see what else. The way I look is a good one. do have a lot of pictures of me as you can see. But they are all shitty quality. They make my hair look brown when it's really black and I hate that. The only reason why I have black hair is because I dye it every month, it's not my natural color and I don't care who knows it. I'm a natural blond, it sucks ass to be a natural blond, that goodness for hair dye. I like all hair colors but I am really sick of brown so I won't dye it that anymore. I also have green eyes, they are like a dark forest green. I really like the color of them. Also I usually don't like wearing makeup much, I just don't like to. I love wearing black though, big shock huh? Well that's usually how I look.My family is another subject. I have a brother, a sister, a mother, and a father. I'm the youngest of my family. My mom smokes, my brother smokes, my sister is trying to quit and is doing a pretty good job. But I don't smoke and my dad doesn't smoke. My mom smoke when she was pregnant with me and my sister and brother. She never plans to stop. But oh well. My house reeks of smoke and I usually smell like it too. No matter what I do I always smelled like it so people think that I usually smoke. I don't. I can't drink either, it gets me sick real quick, that may make me a pussy but oh well. I don't like alcohol anyways. It tastes like shit and makes you act stupid. I never saw the point in it. But as for my family they all piss me off a lot. But my favorite family member would have to be my father. I'm not no "daddy's little girl" I can assure you that. But I get a long with him really well and we barely argue. He's the only one I wanna keep in contact with when I move. No one else the rest of my family sucks.I'm not a druggie at all I don't like any type of drug. When I don't have full control over my body and emotions I freak out and I don't understand how people can handle it. I like to have full control of everything that has to do with me. I don't like people and things that try to control it. People have considered me controlling in the past because of this. I try my best not to. But sometimes I do it without even noticing it. Anyways I like it when people tell me what I'm doing wrong. Just not every second of the day. I see nothing wrong with improving yourself. And I try to do it. Hmm, I like not having to go to school any more. I graduated early. Since that VT thing school has turned into a hell hole and I'm glad I don't have to deal with it. It means I have to work though. I'm taking a break for now because I got out of a really bad job about a month ago. Don't really wanna get too much into that but lets just say I really HATE managers!!! Good jobs are hard to come by down here. You really have to know good people in order to get a good job. I don't mind working hard but I expect the people I am working with to work hard too. When they don't I get a little lazy. Sucks it takes me a long time to learn shit though. I just try to be patient. I don't plan on going to college, but some tech school would be cool with me. I don't know what I wanna do.