~Goddess Venus~

CURRENT MOON about the moon


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I am a very multifaceted person. I have lived in so many situations that I really do not feel discomfort in many places. I am a people person but I prefer to keep to myself. I would rather be secluded with those like me and those I love. I have reasons for this, you must ask to know. I have a lot of hobbies that change as often as the seasons. I love to learn, I am obsessed with learning. Knowledge is my drug and I am an addict. I really admire Hypatia and find she is my muse. I daydream a lot and this facilitates my wild imagination. This also allows me to never grow old. I firmly believe that if you believe in anything, it is. So I prefer to believe that I am a Goddess, that the world is truly a beautiful place, that we are all waking up to a new dawn of humanity and that an age of unconditional love, truth and purity is upon us. If only people could believe like I do. I think they do, they just forgot.

I am a artist by nature. I see things and they tell me what they want to become. I rarely start out with an idea in my head, the idea usually comes when the material calls me to bring it about. Its like an impulse from Isis that says hey, create me into this! I really enjoy painting, writing, digital art , photography and sewing. You can say my writing is an art of words. I just find wings in my expression and I love to fly. I tend to let my art consume my thoughts and like fire, I tend to burn. All too often I run across a person, band, being that somehow I make a connection with without knowing a great deal about them. I am moved by such an impulse to make contact, tell them of my vision and possibly change their world through my artistic impressions and empathy. I feel I have been completely blessed with my gifts of impression and I know not to overlook my ideas. I have showed people things that have brought positive changes to their lives. If I ever contact you, please listen.
I love to cook and really dislike eating out. I am an experimental chef and couldn’t cook the same thing twice if I wanted to. Dinner is always an adventure at my house. I try to eat and live as healthy as I can afford. Sometimes this isn’t too healthy but sometimes, it is wonderfully pure. I prefer organic food, less meat and only meat raised in a nice way. I love animals and feel I want to eat an animal that has been loved, not raised and neglected. I plan to raise my own cows, steer, rabbits, chickens, pigs and such one day very soon. This way I can be assured that my food has been loved, cared for and will have died a good death for the right reasons. I am a very sensitive person and often you will find me holding some acorn in my hand crying because I am dreaming of the tree it will one day be. My husband thinks I have the biggest heart in the world. I sometimes find him staring at me with wonder in his eyes because he catches a glimpse of the things I see when I feel. I am really empathic and often just touching something makes me feel beautiful things. I like to feel so strongly, I couldn’t imagine life without these emotions.

Living in the country is boring on some days, on others a grand adventure. I love the fact that I have deer, foxes, possums, groundhogs, and so many other wild animals right in my back yard. I listen to the birds in the morning and the foxes at night. The moths come in the summer, the birds more so in the winter. I have seen a bald eagle snag a rabbit so close up I saw the blood dripping from the rabbit that was clutched in its talons. I have crows nesting in a tree, spiders spinning elaborate webs on my back porch, and praying mantis that are over four inches tall. I have wild blackberries all over and soon a summer garden. Life in the country is different but beautiful!
I have been modeling for years and though I skip months of shooting, I always return. Modeling is such an art to me. I get to use my body as a form of expression and if a connection with the photographer is made, you can see what I wanted you to see. You feel what I wanted you to feel. It can be very emotional.
I love philosophy yet I tend to keep those thoughts to myself. At least I try to share them only with those who will understand and not shy away from me after they hear my voice. We live in a world where people have not yet realized that we can all have a difference of opinion and still be friends. When I do speak, people tend to listen. I speak from the heart and it shows in my words. I find when people listen, truly listen, they find within themselves the truth of what I say and realize they too have been saying it to themselves all of their life.
I love to research all sorts of things from the societies of the first tribes to current fashion trends. I love survival training stuff, natural building, making shelters from sticks and rocks, the whole “what if” stuff. I think it is better to be prepared for anything than risk it all in a blind moment of fate. I try to keep up to date with things like technology and such but it all changes so fast. One day its micro the next its nano. The world is a crazy place and if I could change it, I think people would be happier. This is why I do everything I can to change the world one heart at a time. I believe in the architecture of Malcolm Wells, the freedom of the first tribes, the culture of the early Romans and Greeks, the future of the Atlantians. I wish everyone would take the time to care. Everyone should take the time to care. Personal responsibility for your actions is so important. When I research I find this one change could make all of the difference in the world.
I guess I just think differently than a lot of people who think their actions do not matter because in 50 more years they will be worm food. I cant stop thinking about my children and their children and other peoples children. I cannot imagine being responsible for a toxic world that could be left for them unless we change our ways. So this is me, passionate, emotional, loving, caring, empathetic, compassionate, hopeful. Artistic, sensual, erotic, verbal, honest, smart, kind. Curious, selfish, giving, silent, shy, outgoing.
I am a dichotomy.
I am happy with that.

I am also "into" the occult, quantum physics, anarchist principles, organic living, self reliance, home grown foods, making love as an art form, love for healing, vintage clothing, recycling, freecycling, visions, meditation, mantras, writing lyrics, egyptology, ancient civilizations, antiquarian books, enlightenment philosophies, poetry, collecting memories in various materials, bone collecting, felting, painting, the arts in general, theater, musicals, peace, the right kind of war, odessa dance, belly dance, tribal dance, african dance, paganism, pantheism, freedom, truth, unconditional love, feminism, nature, cosmos, giving, teaching, listening, massage, tickling, laughing, crying, playing in the bath, blowing bubbles, stoking fires, hiking, camping, exploring, rock climbing, survivalist planning, bug watching, tree hugging, talking to animals, learning from animals, shamanism, voodoo, sacrifice, purging, lucid dreaming, astral, multidimensional lives, holographic universe theory, experimentation, chemistry, botany, biology, history, astrology, ancestry, nudists, evolution, revolution. - and the list goes on.