Let LOVE Rule

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Having to sit back and take a look at yourself and describe what other people should see without really knowing you or speaking to you is a very tough thing for me to do. I guess I am just usually pre-judged, and or mis-judged most of the time. My outter is but a meer fraction of the whole picture. My ethnicity is half Mexican and half Native American Indian. My father was full Mexican that barely had a gray hair on his head as he layed to rest. And, my mother who was full Delaware/Mohawk indian that had gorgeous skin, in spite of the roads she traveled. She has also gone to the next life. The best of both worlds. The best of two amazing people. And they gave me a playmate for life, my twin sister Angelica!I have definately come a long way in my life and can finally up to this point give myself the true credit I deserve. I truly feel I am where I need to be, at this moment. The things that I could've only thought of in my own imagination as a child has come to life for me, but only because I let it. It may not seem a lot to the rest of you but it is an amazing step in my life. It took me a while to see where and what I wanted to do in my life and my sister was probably the main encouragement in my decision making. I finally decided my heart was in Makeup. As an artist. I'd gotten so good at it but didn't realize what I had. It was something that fascinated me as a little girl watching my mother transform her already beautiful Native American Indian face with a wonderfully meticulous bone structure, into an exquisite piece of art. She used the most available over the counter products, but used them well. Well, in my eyes of course. So, then I started to experiment, hmm... well a little to early with makeup myself. And, through trial and error...many trial and error, I started to expand and grow. But, I knew it was because I had this passion inside that had been growing for so long. And then finally, I accepted it and let it come out. I started modeling when I was about 19, and also couldn't believe what was coming through the other side of the photographers lens. This would be one of those times where I was happy to say the camera doesn't lie. I had seen something I don't think I ever realized either. I tried so hard to cover up the person I really was inside into being so hard and cold and angry, that when I put all of those emotions aside for an instant I really shined. Having so much inner strength inside and finally knowing how to use it in the better of your life is utterly undescribeable. Plus I had an amazing little boy, c'mon I was on top of the world, rather, am on top of the world. I love how I make it sound like it was a piece of cake and everything just fell all together. But, it didn't. You wouldn't believe the stories if I wrote them. The point of this is, there is still so much I have dreamed in my heart that is at arms reach, but I just have to go through some more untold stories of struggle and determination to be able to talk about them in five years from now. I have done everything I set out to do, it is possible no matter what. And I will continue to still live my life, undefeated....