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Conscience (Ben) **EVOATL**

Free at last...

About Me

Everything you need to know about someone, you can tell by what they believe.

I believe in honor and chivalry; love at first sight and the sanctity of high school football. I believe that if there is a God, then God has better things to do than worry about gay marriage or whether the ten commandments are posted in an Alabama courthouse.

I believe that God loves all of us, except for (possibly) southern Baptists.

I believe in good and evil, right and wrong, karma and destiny. I believe that patriotism is not blindly accepting what the government tells you, but having the courage to question authority and the status quo.

I believe in butterflies and poetry. I believe that the pen is mightier than the sword. I believe in Santa Claus.

I believe in heroes and villains. I believe in Spider-Man. I believe in the power of electronic music to take me to another world.

I believe in Holden Caulfield and The Great Santini, Joe Kavalier and Johnny Rico, Jubal Harshaw and Scout Finch. I believe that if you know what books all these characters come from, you might be my soulmate.

I believe that jam bands suck, breakbeats rock, and Counting Crows are the greatest band ever. I believe that psychedelic drugs can open up gateways to the soul. I believe that fire burns, knives cut, and I cant fly, even if at some point in my life, I lost track of these essential rules of life.

I believe in my instincts and my dreams. I believe that there is nothing wrong with sleeping with a stuffed animal, even if youre twenty-six.

I believe in my family, both those I was born with and the friends that have become family through the things we've overcome together.

I believe in giving a hand up, but not a hand out. I believe in helping others. I believe in random acts of kindness. I believe that willful ignorance should be met with deadly force.

I believe that writing is the only thing that keeps me sane.

I believe that the Philadelphia Eagles will win a Super Bowl in my lifetime, and Ill die happy.

I believe that Canada may be the root of all evil. I believe that there is no more beautiful place than Asheville, North Carolina. I believe that snowball fights are good for the soul.

I believe that Jagermeister is a wonderful thing, but that I should probably be locked in a padded room when I drink it.

I believe that if I could communicate with the world entirely in haiku, I might be more coherent. I believe in the primal power of a bonfire. I believe in kandi.

I believe that if I was in a situation where I had to lay down my life to save the life of another, I would not hesitate.

I believe that life is too short to drink cheap beer. I believe in boobies. I believe in the concept of peace. I believe that some things are worth fighting for. I believe that puppies, butterflies, and little girls exist to be beautiful.

I believe that we all hold within us the power to create beauty somehow. I believe that art is more important than anything else, because it is a creation that can transcend even our own lives, our own civilization.

I believe in the dream of someone reading something I wrote a century from now, and feeling then what I felt when I wrote it.

I believe that love is all that matters. I believe in banana pudding. I believe that we were all meant to shine.

I believe in you.


.. You scored as agnosticism. You are an agnostic. Though it is generally taken that agnostics neither believe nor disbelieve in God, it is possible to be a theist or atheist in addition to an agnostic. Agnostics don't believe it is possible to prove the existence of God (nor lack thereof).Agnosticism is a philosophy that God's existence cannot be proven. Some say it is possible to be agnostic and follow a religion; however, one cannot be a devout believer if he or she does not truly believe.

agnosticism


83%

Satanism


75%

Paganism


58%

Hinduism


58%

atheism


50%

Islam


50%

Buddhism


46%

Christianity


33%

Judaism


29%
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My Interests

*Writing (poetry, fiction)
*electronic music and the "rave" subculture
*the fetish subculture
*alternative rock
*science fiction
*football
*My friends, who are the greatest in the world even if we are a very dysfunctional family

.

I'd like to meet:

*Hunter S Thompson
*Pat Conroy
*Adam Duritz
*Bettie Page
*Claire Danes
*Cormac McCarthy
*Douglas Coupland
*Gwen Stefani before she left No Doubt and became a pop princess
*Katee Sackhoff
*Grace Park

Music:

My entire life centers around music. I love to discover new artists and turn people on to good music they may not have heard before. I do NOT like most pop music.I love being the first person I know to discover something new and amazing.

BANDS:


*Counting Crows
*Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
* Thursday
*Panic! at the Disco
*Sick Puppies
*Sufjan Stevens
*Matchbox 20
* Flogging Molly
* Our Lady Peace
*Local H
*Stabbing Westward
*Cracker/Kamper van Beethoven
*Tonic
*Third eye Blind
*Something Corporate
*U2
*Collective Soul
*Dave Middleton and whatever band he is in this month
*Nirvana
* Nine Inch Nails
*Black Lab
*Toad the Wet Sprocket
* 65 Days of Static
*Jump Little Children

I prefer bands that tell stories with their music. My spirtual home is with mid-90's alternative.

DJS/ELECTRONICA PRODUCERS

* Hybrid
*Starecase
*Way Out West
* Deepsky
*Summer Channel
*Trona
*Aquasky
*Autobots
*LTJ Bukem
*Roni Size
*Sasha
*Infiniti
*Paul vanDyk
*Hyper
* High Contrast
*DB
*Infusion

If it's progressive breaks or progressive/intelligent DnB, I probably like it.

Movies:

*Braveheart
*Sin City
*Secretary
*Good Will Hunting
*Star Wars (OK, so I'm a stealth geek)
*Any Given Sunday
*Any Quentin Tarantino movie ever made
*The Lord Of the Rings trilogy
*Kevin Smith movies.
*Domino

Television:

TV sucks. Except for...

*Dead Like Me
*Battlestar Galactica
*Family Guy.
*Daily Show

Books:

Anything by...

*Cormac McCarthy
*Pat Conroy
*Hunter S. Thompson
*Kurt Vonnegut
*Robert A. Heinlein
*Laura Antoniou
*Anne Rice
*Orson Scott Card
*David Weber
*John Ringo
*Charles Stross
*Douglas Coupland

Top 5 all-time!:
1. To Kill A Mockingbird by Harper Lee
2. Catcher in the Rye by J.D. Salinger
3. Beach Music by Pat Conroy
4. Stranger In a Strange Land by Robert A. Heinlein
5. Accelerando by Charles Stross

Heroes:

My father...

My Blog

Great moments at work...

So we're remodeling a store up on the northside this week (names of people and locations withheld to protect the somewhat less than innocent) and I happen to know the lead assistant manager (called 1A...
Posted by Conscience (Ben) on Wed, 07 Feb 2007 05:41:00 PST

Snow Globes

It's been a while since I've posted anything in here of my writing or that's unrelated to my ex, so here is a short story I wrote a while back and did some editing to recently. I've started writi...
Posted by Conscience (Ben) on Sun, 04 Feb 2007 04:43:00 PST

Goodbye 2006

And good riddance. This year almost broke me. But I'm stronger now for the experience, and 2007 will be a great year. I'm putting it all behind me. I'm happier now than I've been for a long time. I'm ...
Posted by Conscience (Ben) on Mon, 01 Jan 2007 05:36:00 PST

Letting go...

A fragment of 'Treason', the poem I'm currently working on.   The only word that comes to mind is treason, there is no reason to treat me with your hate and discontent. All I've asked is fairness...
Posted by Conscience (Ben) on Thu, 28 Dec 2006 07:06:00 PST

Falling

It's amazing how just one moment, one hour, one week, can completely change everything. Completely change my outlook and my future. I've been so lost for so long, so confused, so broken and so destroy...
Posted by Conscience (Ben) on Thu, 30 Nov 2006 07:05:00 PST

the search for home...

In the midst of the collapse of everything I believed was true, everything that I loved fading away, my lack of stability has kept me from establishing any sort f new roots, of being able to deal with...
Posted by Conscience (Ben) on Tue, 31 Oct 2006 11:49:00 PST

*shatter*my*soul*

I'm exhausted and emotionally drained. I am broken and unsure, shattered and silent. I do not know if all my words are with me on this darkened, faded night, so forgive me if this is short and disjoin...
Posted by Conscience (Ben) on Thu, 05 Oct 2006 11:33:00 PST

Wounded

I don't know how much longer this can go on. I'm so close to broken, so close to done. I am minutes away from the longest hours of my life, and I want things to work out, but I just don't know if I'll...
Posted by Conscience (Ben) on Sun, 24 Sep 2006 10:06:00 PST

Five years ago today...

Five years ago today, I thought my father was dead. He's a Coast Guard officer, and at the time was attached to the NSC (National Security Council) as a military analyst in Washington, D.C. I had last...
Posted by Conscience (Ben) on Mon, 11 Sep 2006 02:25:00 PST

The nightmare nears its end.

Monday morning, it will be over. Almost exactly a year to the day after we lost Brett, the second of the two murderers who stole him from our world will be sentenced. Maybe then I can find some closur...
Posted by Conscience (Ben) on Sat, 29 Jul 2006 01:36:00 PST