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I'm tired of being alone

the soul stripped of its flesh knows nothing of sweetness or sour, feels no pain, bends neither its

About Me

I'm going to be in cayce,sc for part of the summer and sanford, nc for the rest. Well what can I say I'm short and fiesty, Very big in to psychology and starting on that degree next spring semester...appearantly I like to argue alot. I have my times when I'm dominate and I have my times when I'm submissive. I enjoy anything that involves pleasure...I'm quite selfish at times to I want everything for myself. I like hott cars,, loud music, walks in the cemetaries, and wild nights at the beach... I really think I'm ugly and I don't fancy myself..I hate liars more the I do cheaters...I like to go fishing, horseback riding, to the river, and to the zoo. I love it when people buy me gifts, and when men go far enough as to buy me roses for no reason.I love to dye my hair, have nice nails, and take baths up to 4 times a day just because it makes me feel better. I have a bad case of anxiety but am undergoing treatment. I like cuts, sharp objects, blood, and candles. Silk sheets and furry blankets. I love my four snakes Calla, isis, kiwi, and(R.I.P.)~~lidia to death they are like my kids. I sleep a lot but it's mainly do to my medication. I used to take Kali and self defense...Learned enough to do some harm.I love fights, and I love fighting. So I will try to start one a lot. I hate fat people...because they know they can loose weight but they choose not too...I've learned that love is a painful thing...and that when it isn't you should hold onto it as long as possible. Romance is beautiful and it shouldn't be abused. If you love someone treat them right don't lie to the or cheat on them, it's pretty much abuse...yes It really DOES hurt that bad,I can be complicated...but I only want what every girl wants...TRUE LOVE!!! I think it's funny how a guy will spend time f*cking a girls head and heart up and then wonder why she's a "Crazy B*tch!" You're a product of your enivormentI guess thats it about me right now... oh yeah and.... And now a random fact about Chuck Norris... Chuck Norris once stared at his computer for so long it got scared, created E-Bay and sold itself before Chuck Norris tracked it down and roundhouse kicked it into space. Moral: Eat your vegetables... Kinkyredrose666found this flowers layout at HOT FreeLayouts.com :: MyHotComments
Name: Maria
Birthdate: April 1st 1988
Birthplace: A hospital
Current Location: new york but going home soon
Eye Color: brown
Hair Color: brown
Height: 5ft
Weight: 100lbs
Piercings: 11
Tatoos: soon
Overused Phraze: ...
FAVORITES
Food: steak
Candy: skittles
Number: 12
Color: black and red
Animal: snake ofcourse
Drink: gatorade
Alcohol Drink: wine
Bagel: I don't like bagels
Letter: x
Body Part on Opposite sex: eyes
This or That
Pepsi or Coke: gatorade... :-)
McDonalds or BurgerKing: neither
Strawberry or Watermelon: watermelon
Hot tea or Ice tea: ice tea
Chocolate or Vanilla chocolate
Hot Chocolate or Coffee: both
Kiss or Hug: both
Dog or Cat: cat
Rap or Punk: a variety
Summer or Winter: summer
Scary Movies or Funny Movies: both
Love or Money: love
YOUR...
Bedtime: whenever
Most Missed Memory: the beach
Best phyiscal feature: eyes, stomach
First Thought Waking Up: I'm alive
Goal for this year: make money in Melaleuca
Best Friends: jamie, steve, victor,adam, james, josh..and a few others
Weakness: love
Fears: being alone
Heritage: scottish, indian
HAVE YOU...
Ever Drank: yes
Ever Smoked: yes sadly
Pot: very sadly yes
Ever been Drunk: yes
Ever been beaten up: no
Ever beaten someone up: yes
Ever Skinny Dipped: yes
IN A GUY/GIRL
Favorite Eye Color: green, blue, brown
Favorite Hair Color: brown red, black..multi...blonde
Short or Long: either I'm not picky
Height: taller then me
Style: any
Looks or Personality: loving, romantic, intelligent, funny. looks don't really matter
Hot or Cute both
Drugs and Alcohol: no, maybe a few drinks
Muscular or Really Skinny: both
RANDOMS
Number of Regrets in the Past: 1
What country do you want to Visit: new zealand
How do you want to Die: in my sleep
Been to the Mall Lately: yes
Do you like Thunderstorms: yes
Get along with your Parents: yes
Health Freak: sometimes
Do you think your Attractive: sometimes
Believe in Yourself: yes
Want to go to College: yes
Do you Smoke: no
Do you Drink: not really
Shower Daily: yes and then some
Been in Love: too many times to count I fall easily
Do you Sing: yes
Want to get Married: really bad
Do you want Children: yes
Have your future kids names planned out: not yet
Age you wanna lose your Virginity: uh....
Hate anyone: a few people
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Schizoid |||||| 22%
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Antisocial |||||||||||||||||||| 86%
Borderline |||||||||||||||||||| 86%
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[adjective]:
Similar to butter in texture and appearance
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You scored as Red. Your heart is red. You are full of anger and hate, possibly even jealousy. You will never be happy until the person(s) that have made you a fuck up get what they deserve. You want revenge, and you feel you'll never be satisfied until you get it. Sometimes it's easier to just let go, but sometimes you'll never give up on getting what you/they deserve.
Red


89%

Blue


89%

Pink


86%

Green


75%

Black


71%

Yellow


71%

Purple


71%

White


64%

Orange


61%
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You scored as Goddess, You are a goddess. Your constantly helping people with their problems, but you never take time for you. You should try to take some alone time. Take a trip far away, where noone knows you. It will be good for you, because you deserve a break.

Shadow Spirit


92%

Goddess


92%

Dragon


75%

Elf


75%

Drow


67%

Zombie


67%

Faerie


67%

Vampyre


67%

Wolf


67%

Sorceress


58%
What ancient breed are you?
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My Interests

graveyards, long nails, anything red or black, velvet, silk, candles, razors, burlesque, tease and fetish, whips, chains, spikes, leather, boots, long hair, pale, handcuffs and blindfolds...

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I like sitting in the sun...taking my snakes to the park...riding the horses... +++FIGHTING WITH STICKS+++ and other things...

What Is Your Battle Cry?


S triding through the terrain, cutting down all who dare stand in the way using a burning branch, cometh Maria Johnston! And she gives a mighty howl:

"I'm going to brutalize you until the laws of physics are violated!"


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Name/username/nickname:
favorite color:
best physical quaility: lips
best personality trait: people person
will you marry your bf/gf that you have now? yes!
when will you get married? June 7, 2020

You scored as A Slave To BDSM. Admit it, you like being tied up and being told you've been very naughty. You like teasing your partner and making them squirm, and not letting them be able to do anything about it. Some people think what you do is sick and disgusting, but you know it's all in good fun.

A Slave To BDSM


95%

Sex God


88%

A Romantic


48%

Virgin


15%
How are you in bed
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I'd like to meet:

someone who won't lie to me or cheat on me...someone who will love me, someone who won't depend on their family...someone who will spoil me wit hattention...someone who's romantic...someone who knows how to treat a girl. someone with a car, and finally someone who will make me the only girl in their life and not be afraid of commitment...can't do it then don't waste my time, I just got my heart torn and I don't intend for it to happen again
How You Are In Love
You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.

You give and take equally in relationships.

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard. How Are You In Love?

The Black Angel
People Iced: Forty One
Car Bombs Planted: Seventeen
Favorite Weapon Rake
Arms Broken: Twenty Seven
Eyes Gouged: Thirty
Tongues Cut Off: Four
Biggest Enemy: The Tooth Puller
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Music:

murderdolls, deadsy, the cruxshadows, nickelback, moonspell, danzig, jimmy buffet, the grateful dead, and I like happy hardcore, marylin manson, nin, system of a down, tool, a perfect circle

Television:

not a big tv fan but I guess spin city, the health discovery channel, animal planet, the planets funniest animal, and americas funniest home videos

Books:

blood and chocolate which I'm so excited to see the movie...the the new serios by stpehen king the dark tower has been my favorite
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Heroes:


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My Blog

what my ex sent me

what i sent himand since you are already signig up on dating sifhts (okcupid.com) delete every single fucking memory comment and picture of me, pack all my shit and I will be there to get it in afew w...
Posted by I'm tired of being alone on Thu, 21 Jun 2007 07:36:00 PST

yeah I'm a bitch and proud

When I stand up for myself and my beliefs, they call me a bitch. When I stand up for those I love, they call me a bitch. When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts, or do things my own way, they call...
Posted by I'm tired of being alone on Fri, 15 Jun 2007 07:57:00 PST

friends

you know it's sad, you think you know who your true friends are. and then bam! they treat you like shit. I'm about tired of it all. I just can't trust anyone with anything anymore. How could you prete...
Posted by I'm tired of being alone on Tue, 05 Jun 2007 04:35:00 PST

hmm I never thought I'd like kelley clarkson until this

"Never Again" I hope the ring you gave to her Turns her finger green I hope when you're in bed with her you think of me I would never wish bad things But I don't wish you well Could you tell By the fl...
Posted by I'm tired of being alone on Tue, 05 Jun 2007 04:47:00 PST

....

..> My conclusion I'm not happy....there are rare times that I'm happy with ryan...but overall 9/10 I'm depressed...and yet I have no real want to leavenothing else to look forwards to if I leave.....
Posted by I'm tired of being alone on Mon, 14 May 2007 03:12:00 PST

I finally truely understand the words to this song...

Through Glass Lyrics I'm looking at you through the glass...  Don't know how much time has passed  Oh god it feels like forever  But no one ever tells you that forever  Feels lik...
Posted by I'm tired of being alone on Mon, 14 May 2007 03:07:00 PST

to my Ryan and anyone else who wants to read

So I'm thinking I'm battling a lost cause here....Ryan I love you with all my heart and soul...... but I really can't take it. it hurts too bad, I can't stop thinking about everything you've done. I w...
Posted by I'm tired of being alone on Sat, 05 May 2007 05:29:00 PST

the email I sent to ryan

ya know...I've been thinking ryan...I just need to go home...be with my friends and family...people who actually care about me.  I don't need you or new york or your bad habits anymore...I have p...
Posted by I'm tired of being alone on Thu, 03 May 2007 10:21:00 PST

hmm a thought I could be embalming you're corpse one day

  I'm thinking of going to school for mortuary science...Isn't that a scary thought? I'm kind of excited about it. it's only a two year though, I was thinking about doing it and then swicthing to...
Posted by I'm tired of being alone on Sun, 22 Apr 2007 07:42:00 PST

I wish some one would shoot me.

people always want to lie to me and hide things from me...I don't know why, but I thought they were better then that and past it, obviously they can't even do that to stay with (yeah they really love/...
Posted by I'm tired of being alone on Sat, 21 Apr 2007 03:16:00 PST