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FionaHelmsley

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About Me

My profile quote is by Charles Manson. Theres a lot to be said in support of love and garbage dumps. I discovered in August of 2005 that I make beautiful children. And what they say about labor is all true. But it is also completely worth it, which alot of people also say. .... "People who live in society have learned to see themselves in mirrors as they appear to their friends. Is that why my flesh is naked? You might say - yes you might say, nature without humanity… Things are bad! Things are very bad: I have it, the filth, the Nausea.."- Jean Paul SartreBuying Drugs
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My Interests

True Crime. Thought processes and behavior patterns. Old English words on the verge of instinction. Notebook pages dirty with memories, at one time we thought this would all mean something. Scars as accessories. Because you're never fully dressed without a scar.

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Pedotrophy. Raising Riley Emerson Saunders-Haworth which I imagine is similar to domesticating a wild animal, only with more toys, nap time and a both parent represent last name. Sesame Street. Swimming. Listening. Interrupting. Asking a million and one questions. Knowing all the details. Inspiration without pretention. Dressing up. Mental murder. Because if I keep it all in my head, then I'm the better person. Wraiths. Passion. Mordant humor. Gossip. Shared madness. Folie a deux. Celebrity sex tapes.
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I'd like to meet:

cookie mueller, julius and ethel rosenberg, henry and june, frank discussion, courtney love, jean-paul sartre, eric at the Q train station in five minutes or just enough time to put on some lipstick and a pretty outfit.

Music:

shane macgowan, the pogues, the nips, the popes, the dubliners, the libertines, johnny thunders, lydia lunch, nirvana, johnny cash, violent femmes, jayne county, courtney love, thin lizzy, queen, sonic youth, the new york dolls the feederz, amy winehouse,iggy pop, richard hell, suicide, television, lou reed, the velvet underground, bob dylan, bikini kill, le tigre, pj harvey.

Movies:

My Nightmare, by Richard Kern
midnight cowboy, welcome to the dollhouse, slums of beverley hills, the diane linkletter story, breaking the waves, pink flamingos, dog day afternoon, panic in needle park, looking for mr.goodbar, i shot andy warhol, the assorted works of craig flipy, any andy warhol, russ meyer, gus van sant, john waters or richard kern. most nick zedd.

Television:

the real world, PROJECT RUNWAY, the surreal life, america's next top model, nip/tuck, survivor, vh1 list shows, court tv, father ted, tabloid wars, the view- even before rosie o'donnell (who was genius), meredith viera used to make me cry when I would feel homesick in Brooklyn. What can I say. When it comes to television, I embrace the cheese. All the shows I watch involve a minimal commitment.

Books:

"The tragedy of it is that nobody sees the look of desperation on my face. Thousands and thousands of us- and we're passing one another without a look of recognition."- Henry Miller. Books: Me talk pretty one day, Smashed, Wasted, Indecent:How I Make it and Fake It as A Girl for Hire, Walking Through Clear Water on A Pool Painted Black, Permanent Midnight (Jerry Stahl is on the cover of my personal Tiger Beat), Confederacy Of Dunces, Soul on Ice, Edie, Music For Chameleons (all Capote), Drugs Are Nice, Close to the Knives, Dry, Helter Skelter.Most woe filled, 'there and back' tales with a sprinkle of redemption thrown in for good measure.

Heroes:

amberific,emmett grogan and the diggers, anne boleyn, courtney love, truman capote, jean paul sartre, kathleen hanna, miranda july, david wojnarowicz, abbie hoffman, margaret cho, lydia lunch, the black panthers, warhol superstars, jerry stahl, shane macgowan, john waters, cookie mueller, viva fidel, lisa suckdog, friends you can trust with your truth who won't use it later to hurt you.

My Blog

amber and jason

amber and jason, probably around 1992-93 in the art room at OSHS i have many more pictures, but i think ms. todaro may have other ideas about their fit-ness for public consumption. suddenly, i can't ...
Posted by FionaHelmsley on Fri, 22 Feb 2008 05:23:00 PST

smoking struggles

I smoked my first cigarette the same night Guns N' Roses debuted their video for Paradise City on MTV. I was spending the night at my friend Angie Caravello's house. We opened her bedroom window to bl...
Posted by FionaHelmsley on Thu, 21 Feb 2008 05:45:00 PST

things that please me

Chihuhuas. Eric's work stories, like the one about cleaning the bathroom at Penn Station with the guy who called "fecal matter" "fetus matter." All Eric's stories in general. Eric in general. Clo...
Posted by FionaHelmsley on Wed, 20 Feb 2008 05:42:00 PST

Fidel Castro resigns

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/fidel_castro;_ylt=AsrZ5GDeSxKfYfI WMGsNIm5H2ocA
Posted by FionaHelmsley on Tue, 19 Feb 2008 07:46:00 PST

young americans

(In a perfect world, this would be illustrated with my high school yearbook picture, which is me on my knees begging a seemingly pissed off looking Amber's forgiveness, while she looks ...
Posted by FionaHelmsley on Tue, 19 Feb 2008 05:18:00 PST

.......

  The service is done now, but shes still all that I am thinking about and I'm not ready to let go. I'm not ready to stop talking about her and thinking about her and I don't ...
Posted by FionaHelmsley on Mon, 18 Feb 2008 05:57:00 PST

Ambers obituary from the Hartford Courant

..> ..> Amber Todaro-Haggerty TODARO-HAGGERTY, Amber Amber Todaro-Haggerty of Hartford died unexpectedly on Wednesday (February 13, 2008). Amber is survived by her husband Billy Haggerty and her b...
Posted by FionaHelmsley on Sat, 16 Feb 2008 05:18:00 PST

Margaret Cho

This is from her newest blog, on Freeganism, just to lighten the mood a bit- its hilarious. Shes in my top friends if your looking for a link:    I suppose I am suspicious of garbage be...
Posted by FionaHelmsley on Thu, 14 Feb 2008 05:44:00 PST

I know

You wouldn't of wanted this. Wherever you are, you are so mad at yourself. god, hun you gave us all so much and you know just as much as anyone how i feel about being corny but that was one of th...
Posted by FionaHelmsley on Thu, 14 Feb 2008 04:27:00 PST

Amber "Anarchy" Todaro 1977-2008

Died this morning. Words cannot describe the loss. We were just talking tonight- me, Siobhan and Billy how Amber was like "The Great Unifier." She had so many different friends and because of&nbs...
Posted by FionaHelmsley on Thu, 14 Feb 2008 04:46:00 PST