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Rebecca

I was looking for a decent boy

About Me

-- Spontanious - Thinker - Sensitive - Flirt - Insomniac - Dreamer - Confident - Shy - Loner - Virgin - Whore - Messy - Perfectionist - Walking Contradiction -- I'll think too much or too little. Peace of mind is everything to me. Symmetry excites me. I don't paticularly like lesbians, which poses a problem considering I am one! I can be deep & I can be shallow. Smudged eyeliner is constant. Always think I can do cartwheels then I fail miserably. I'm at a loss for words often. I lose myself with directions. I amuse myself. I depress myself & I adore myself... I live for hope & hope to love & be loved. Correction, I expect to love & be loved. Three essential items I can't live without include air, water & eyeliner. I like to people watch, get high, sneeze, laugh until it hurts & sleep naked. Tearing my nail too low is my definition of peverse. Garry Glitter is also my definition of peverse. I discovered something at the age of 16, everybody is fucked up in their own special way. If I was king I would ban celary & olives, then I'd spend my riches on heavy crowns & chocolate. Once I dressed my dog in shorts & a wife beater then guilt consumed me. I can't drive, but secretly think I can. Dancing in my room with a hairbrush is still something I find myself doing. Yes, I know I am 24. Alcohol is my worst enemy & my best friend. It's just a matter of perspective. I change my myspace layout too often, boredom has a habit of making me do it. I love tattoos but I'm scared of them. I don't like the commitment. I crave freedom. I constantly try to escape reality, make of that what you will. I'd travel the world until the day I died if I could. I love life but don't fear death I fear lonliness. How can anyone be a vegetarian? I'm a natural born liar. Ignore me I'm just messing with you, or am I? I love to share my feelings. I wish I was religious and I wish I had wings. I want the best of both worlds. I want to have my cake & eat it, shame being fat is so bad for you. America's Next Top Model is addictive. I like the idea of marriage & want children. Have a 'thing' for people in authority. Sometimes I fancy boys and then I realise it's not attraction it's fascination. You see I'd quite like to be one. I want everything right now. Patience is not my strong point. I could make the about me section three times as long. I have to control my urge not to do that. If I was a rock star I'd be a drug addict. Overall I'm a bit like an onion because I have lots of layers. Not of clothing, but then again it depends on the weather. ..

My Interests

Wake up, press snooze ten times, roll out of bed, moan about the cold, get dressed, light a cig, stumble to work, finish work and breathe a sigh of relief, light a cig, get to the nearest pub for a vodka n coke, drink ten, light another cig then fall asleep in the nearest bush! Wake up, press snooze ten times...
My turn offs include: Not having a seat on the bus, cats, crying babies, bird crap, streetside fundraisers (but I've met someone who has changed my view a little), arrogance, christmas cake, high maintenance people, neediness, spitters, window shopping, driving tests, forgetting the night before, balloons, Paul McKenna, ugly news presenters, working, sun burn, celary, England flags, banks, window shopping, having no money & crushing snails!My turn ons include: Yo Sushi, retro trainers, girls wearing eyeliner, finding money, getting high, sleeping, sex dreams, vodka, sunshine, piercings, tattoos, noses, Winona Ryder, dancing to music, black rimmed glasses, freckles, Katharine McPhee, Primark knickers, accents, my iPod, old VW Beetles, manners, peanut butter Kit Kat Chunky's, singing (badly) and writing lyrics. Quote Of The Day - 'Life is a constant withering of possibilities. Some are stolen with the lives of people you love. Others are let go, with regret and reluctance and deep, deep sorrow. But there is compensation for lives unlived in the intoxixating joy of knowing that the life you have - right here, right now - is the one you have chosen. There is power in that, and hope.' Emily Maguire. My Dreams - Move to New York or L.A, travel the world, eat lobster, milk a cow, own an ugly dog, learn to play guitar, have some money, learn to drive, break my arm (I want a cast) and go to Glastonbury. My Confessions - Stole a Creme Egg *update: stole a bottle of fanta the other day to see if I could get away with it, gave away my Mums cat, worked in McDonald..s for two whole years, watched every series of Big Brother, crashed a computer at work and someone else got the blame, I've had about 20 jobs and always walked out and killed a hamster (by mistake). My Pros - Easy to get along with, funny, empathetic, generous, forgiving, not remotely violent, friendly, considerate, good kisser, caring, thoughtful, always make people feel good, great listener & I don't snore. My Cons - Unreliable, when I can't have someone I want them even more, lazy, procrastinator, insomniac, smoker, sometimes selfish, sometimes stubborn, sometimes moody, money waster, quitter, flirt, nail biter, perfectionist, not very strong willed & easily bored. Lyrics Of The Day - 'Indecision is a curious thing, It can turn your charity into sin. Hesitation or the blink of an eye, Can make your truth feel just like a lie. Repetition as a way of life, It's a safe way out, But a long hard fight. Isolation is a means to an end, It's amazing how fast you'll forget your friends... Bluetones - Ames

I'd like to meet:

Freddie Mercury and Jeff Buckley..

Music:

I love all music great and small! Like - Skunk Anansie, Klaxons, RHCP, U2, Pixies, Distillers, The Killers, Aimee Mann, Stevie Wonder, Paul Weller, Ben Harper, Alanis Morissette, Shed 7, Placebo, Radiohead, Arcade Fire, Athlete, The Strokes, Embrace, Auf Der Maur, Basement Jaxx, Foo's, The Beatles, John Frusciante, Kasabian, Blondie, Yeah Yeah Yeah's, Bluetones, Carpenters, The White Stripes, Cranberries, Green Day, Incubus, The Cure, The Dears, Jeff Buckley, Morrissey, The Distillers, Sleater-Kinney, Faithless, Tenacious D, Scissor Sisters, Jim Croce, The Kooks, The Kinks, SOAD, Kylie, Pretenders, Tegan & Sara, Shiseido Red, KT Tunstall, Rolling Stones, Libertines, Baby Shambles, Magic Numbers, Peggy Sue & The Pirates, Kate Nash, Ben Harper, James, R.E.M, Morrissey, Missy Higgins, Blood Red Shoes, The Smiths, Nirvana, Pulp, Queen, Razorlight, The Zutons, Rooney, Semisonic. Too many to list.

Movies:

Pulp Fiction and Casino are easily in my top 5. I really don't like scary films. Ever since a traumatic experience watching Nightmare on Elm St years ago brrr I still get shivers. Started to watch Saw, but spent the first 10 minutes behind a cushion then I had to walk out. I am such a wimp!

Television:

L Word deserves a mention... God I am such a lesbian.

Books:

Road Less Travelled, M. Scott Peck

Heroes:

SuperGirl and Cat Woman

My Blog

She

She came to soothe my aches and painsAnd she disturbed my winter bleaknessShe came with warmth and a friendly smileAnd she rid my heart of maliceAnd I remember when she cameI can just recall that day...
Posted by Rebecca on Fri, 11 Jul 2008 02:19:00 PST

The Spill Canvas - Lullaby

Every word for you... ...
Posted by Rebecca on Tue, 27 May 2008 09:03:00 PST

December Shadows

She just stormed in Forefront of my eyesAnd I didnt deny herI didnt disguiseI just opened my chestSo she was able to seeThat my heart beat for her ContinuouslyCause she was just like p...
Posted by Rebecca on Thu, 15 May 2008 05:42:00 PST

Is It You?

January 2007i can feel something closing inbreathing down my neckreminiscent of a nightmareunable to quicken my stepso i askis it you that is calling my name,or the rattle of silence within my he...
Posted by Rebecca on Thu, 08 May 2008 08:02:00 PST

Us Against The World

Baby, I simply could not resist...x... ...
Posted by Rebecca on Tue, 11 Mar 2008 02:36:00 PST

How Very Appropriate

I never thought Id miss you, half as much as I doAnd I never thought Id feel this way, the way I feel, about youAs soon as I wake up, every night, every dayI know that its you I need to take...
Posted by Rebecca on Mon, 11 Feb 2008 01:58:00 PST

Dedication

It felt like minutes, but hours passedMaybe time stood still?That night my heart thumped in my chestI hoped it would wake youRaise you from your restInstead you lay there beside me, obliviousAs distan...
Posted by Rebecca on Thu, 10 Jan 2008 02:24:00 PST

My New Favourite Artist

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Posted by Rebecca on Fri, 21 Dec 2007 02:21:00 PST

Sweet Tooth

Do you remember when we started?I was still broken heartedBut you hammered and nailed my chestYou disguised that holeThe heart shaped oneThat she created when she leftYou erased dark memoriesCleansed...
Posted by Rebecca on Sat, 15 Dec 2007 04:23:00 PST

So Sorry

You sold me a dreamOf limitless skiesSo I confessed I needed salvationBut you reeled me in just to spit me outIt's eternal repetitionYour accusations were so hollowStill they knocked me off my feetAn...
Posted by Rebecca on Mon, 10 Dec 2007 12:45:00 PST