Updated: 05-30-2007 Party and cookout in honor of Amanda Bryant
Where:
Fisher's residence
3339 Summer Breeze Circle
Indianapolis, Indiana 46239
When:
Saturday June 2, 2007 from 3pm-1am.
Please everybody try and make it. There will be a cookout followed by the party.
Info on Visitation of Amanda Bryant: UpDated: 05-09-07 Finalized
Where:
Flinn Mcquire
2898 N. Morton St. (US31)
Franklin, Indiana
When:
Visitation is going to be on Fri. 5-11-07 from 4-6pm and the Funeral starting at 6pm.
Please all of her friends try to go, i will update this and keep everyone informed
BRUTALMIX©
WEB AND GRAPHIC DESIGN
© 2000-2007
MY WEBSITE:
my current imood:
a tormented girl starving artist. my journal: brutalmix.livejournal.com
wishlists: fetish factory | amazon.com
current hair color: brown
eye color: green
tattoos: seal of solomon, eye of horus, pentegram, flamel cross, and chaos star
piercings: nose, labret, nipples, belly, 3 in each ear
some of my paintings:
oil "unlovable" and acrylic "love's despair"
acrylic "this night" and oil "forgotten" FOR SALE!!
above is one of my oil paintings that i gave to my friend thorn . the painting is called "unlovable" i was listening to the smiths song "unlovable" on repeat while painting it. the woman represents myself; her legs are closed symbolizing purity yet her arms are outstretched in longing. the man is reaching upward but is unable to grasp her; she remains alone on a level of her own without anyone able to understand her, to love or care for her. consequently she is alone. sadly she is me. the motion of the lines seem to be pushing them together yet drawing them apart and was meant to symbolize my struggle in trying to find someone who i can communicate with; the ones bringing together are the uncompleted circles (lesser levels of empathy, consciousness, awareness, and appreciation) the larger circles are the more important aspects i long to convey which only isolate me from interaction with others further. the biggest of the circles beginning above the male figure's head thus, above his ability to conceive.
my photography:
pics from the museum of transportation where i ocassionally volunteer with jake stage
pics from the indianapolis zoo
no matter how well i do something, i always see the flaws in it and how it could be improved. often i will simply refuse to attempt something because i feel i cannot meet my own high standards. this is the double edged sword of my creativity and passion for perfection. i have a tendency to be overly self-critical. i am rather quiet or shy, usually content to be in the background or to serve as an assistant, in the supporting role rather than in the lead. envy is my sin, i have a gift for seeing the best in others and berate myself for not having the same qualities. i have an unhealthy habbit of putting the needs of others before my own.
i need lots of reassurances before i can trust someone but when i finally do i give my love and friendship unconditionaly. i am very loyal and intuitive. i'm a lover of the arts. i have many creative outlets used to combat and overcome my pain. i'm easily hurt but i recover easily. i do not control my emotions, in fact i'm ruled by them. most my intelligence comes from my emotions as well as my intuition.
i am very self aware and know exactly what i want in another person. i'd rather spare someone's emotions than get envolved with them if they don't have the potential to be my soulmate. i am perfectly happy being celebate as my attraction is more that merely physical. i'm a hopeless romantic. i'm not afraid to express how i feel; i'm pretty much an open book.
i am comorbid. i suffer from post tramatic stress disorder. most people get off while watching porn i get excited reading scientific studies about gamma-aminobutyric acid neurotransmitter!! go ahead call me a dork but that's what really gets me hot!!!!!!!!!!!
me as frank in 2001 rocky horror orlando convention:
i am currently without a cast but i played frank for ten years. i made my own costume. i love to make costumes. i have costumes for several rhps characters, anime characters, and from past shakespeare plays i was in. i've also played columbia and magenta. the highlight of my rhps years was getting to play frank in the 2001 rhps convention in orlando, florida.
come lay next to me, know why? you and me are one!
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"And I want to scream out that it all is nonsense.
All your lives one track, can't you see it's pointless?
But then, my knees give under me. My head feels weak and
suddenly it is clear to see that it is not them but me, who has lost my self-identity.
As I hide behind these books I read, while scribbling my poetry,
like art could save a wretch like me, with some ideal ideology that no one can hope to achieve.
And I am never real; it is just a sketch of me.
And everything I made is trite and cheap and a waste of paint, of tape, of time."
