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Over the past summertime, I helped with the production filming of a movie entitled Population 436, starring Fred Durst (of LimpBizkit) and Jeremy Sisto (of Six Feet Under). I was an Assistant Director on the entire shoot. The filming was brutally hard because of the many rainstorms and mosquitos, aside from the sweltering humid heat and sunburns. We filmed outside most of the time. I loved the experience and made friends with both Durst. He made a lasting impression on me. Fred, is a very special friend whom I absolutely adore. He's astoundingly gifted and extremely down-to-earth as displayed by his Southern humbleness, sincerity, and is definitely a wonderful human being. He's my F-Dizzle, yo! Fo shizzo! :)
I'm currently in the works to write a script for a drug/gangwarfare feature film. I'm aiming to go-to-camera within two years and a half. There's going to be drugs, Asian gangs, sex, nudity, guns, blood, special FX, and a few moral lessons thrown in as well. I am the co-Director, co-Producer, co-Writer, and Lead Actor. I have a great Director of Photography I have in mind for the project. I've worked with him before and deeply admire his professionalism. He's on the "Academy-Award" level of intensity. I deeply adore his work ethics. Anyway, I'm freaking out at the moment because of the huge responsibilities involved with this amount of investment capital. My producing partners are teaching me the nuts and bolts of how to start up and run a fully functioning movie production, from the ground up. The legalities and the paper work is what really frightens me, but I'm up for the challenge. This project is MY BABY. We're mixing many styles into this action/drama genre. The fighting sequence for a lot of the scenes will be deeply inspired by Japanese anime choreographed fighting, but they'll be shot in real action though, instead of drawn animation. The fight choreography that I have in mind will be SSSSICK, yo. You'll like it, I'm sure. The recipe I have in mind for the film will be cooked up with a lot of TLC and a whole lotta hard work. It's going to be special. I'm aiming high for what this film is capable of achieving.
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I'm an intellectual who is as introspective as I am gregarious. I am in touch with my soul as well as I am with my life. I've finally found my life passion through my work.
I'm not an average person whom you would ever meet...
Please let me introduce myself. My name is Tri. I'm a Canadian raised Vietnamese Actor/FilmMaker/Director residing in Canada. In my Blog you'll find the meaning behind my name. I love my name by the way, even though it sounds like "tree" in North America :) LOL :) I was teased relentlessly through my childhood. Damn...it was brutal, I tell ya. But I wouldn't trade this name in for a 'white' name like Bob, Dick, or Harry. I'm proud of my cultural heritage and my Asian blood. This profile information section will most likely be repeated again in my personal website soon [www.tricao.com], just so you know. Anyway, I'm in the film industry and am in the midst of exploring my options at this point in my Life.
Here's the full scoop on my personal history if you're curious to know more about me...
Looking back, I've gone through so many years of University education and have switched faculties about 5 times during my academic life. I had a very dark history and past that I won't go into. That aspect of my personal life is reserved for more intimate and closely held friends. Anyway, scholastically I was basically treading water and not going anywhere with my studies in that vast sea of academia. I spent close to a decade in university studying almost every subject and enrolled in countless courses. I simply did not know what I wanted to do with my life because I had interests in many faculties and professions. My problem that I found out later was that I fell under the category of being afraid of success and being afraid of working hard to achieve success. In my mind I was thinking that once I decide to forge ahead in that so-called chosen career choice, then I would be stuck FOREVER in that field of work. And so, I opted to switch faculties again and again ...and again, just so that I could check out the other potential career choices. In the end, I spent a ton of money on tuition and earned a Science degree that I'm not even using. Ugghh. The only silver-lining to my experience is that I'm extremely educated and well versed in a broad range of academic knowledge. I have a universal understanding of how and why things work as I've got a pretty good idea of what is on God's Mind. I understand and know how He designed the Universe, more or less.
My knowledge and education in quantum physics, as well as dabbled in the readings on particle and wave theory, studied biochemistry (ad naseum), genetic modification, virology, inorganic and analytical chemistry, human physiology and even astronomy 101 made me look like a smarty-pants trying to show off when I began to insert trivial science facts that related to the mundane artificial conversations I had with average office monkeys back in the days when I used to work at those mind-numbing, politically corrected, gender-sterile 9to5 jobs such as that dead-end job at Comcast ISP, as an internet tech-support geek (due to the fact that I didn't know what I wanted to do with my life as I held a Science Degree folded in my backpocket, and so I opted for those IQ-depleting types of jobs, to the quiet disappointment of my parents). Those situations of pedagogical engagements with my fellow workers made me look like I was starving for attention, showing off, and in need of ego-boosting. But actually, NO. It's my inner science geek wanting to express himself ; Wanting to break out of the conformity and uninspiring mold of the stereotypical workforce that I inadvertently placed myself into. If you happen to work at these dead-end jobs, I'm sorry if I seem to put your position down. Personally, I see these jobs as stepping stones to something bigger, better, and beyond what is in the Present. It's always healthy to aim higher. That's my point.
Just to share with you, I took astronomy 101 because I figured that I could be romantic with my dates as we'd lay there on the blanket at night as I would point out the constellations of the Milky Way before I lean in for a kiss [as you are rolling your eyes while you read this paragraph] ...but apparently I didn't realize at the time that I needed to land the dates first! Wow...looking back, I'm actually embarrassed to know that I was such a dork. I wore an "L" on my forehead. "Me and women" ...*cringing* ...gawwwd ...I won't even touch upon the topic of my Virginity during those early years. I don't know why I'm sharing this with y'all, but ...whatever. (Moving along....) All of my academic fortitudes put me in the category of Nerds and Geeks or which ever category that best describes my ilk. Hey, don't laugh!! Some women actually find this as a sexy quality in a guy. But mind you, I tend to be attracted to smart intellectual beautiful women. I would also feel comfortable with a room full of guys wearing pocket protectors and would have a great time discussing why it isn't possible to create an eternally self-perpetuating engine because of the need to recycle energy forms that tend to increase entropy after the energy form is converted. The theories of Thermodynamics is the main factor. That's another topic to discuss ...but I'm diverging. Anyway, I'm actually a closet computer nerd who takes comfort in knowing that smart men are considered sexy by a lot of women out there. GQ goodlooks aren't the only qualifications to get laid. lol :) I still have a chance yet! :) But really, I have no interest in chasing after women, especially the ones that I can't have. It's pointless and a huge waste of my time because they are either taken or don't have interest in me. And even if I do attract the women that I want, there will always be the risk of them cheating on me with someone else, or using me for whatever personal gain they have in mind. I'm not an idiot. But ironically, i ALWAYS find the ones who cheat on me. Why?? My mother taught me that the more gorgeous the woman is, the more likely she would be wanted by many, thus the more opportunities she would have to trade-up for a better hand (at this game we call "love") because there will ALWAYS be someone who is better, more rich, more attractive, more ANYTHING than I am. It's a sobering fact and very humbling to accept. My mother was being realistic with me because she didn't want her boy to have his heart broken by cunning foxes out there. Not all of them are warm, loving, and supportive. Some are worth pursuing, while others are worth avoiding. She was warning me about my self-induced human bondage to the lusts and pleasures of the flesh. It has to do with Buddhist philosophies [mentioned later on in this bio]. It's rare to find someone who has the moral backbone to stick by her man even if the temptation is there. The risk of having my heart broken significantly increases when I chase after and try to capture the hearts of Playboy Playmate-esque Amazonian women. But I think I know my problem. My problem lies within my choices and preferences when it comes to dating ultra hot women. Especially the types who aren't very honest with what they're after. They know their personal value in whichever category that makes them "hot" and will play the game to their advantage as best they can. One may argue that it has to do with socio-biological evolution in terms of survival. I call BULLSHIT on that. Each of us has a choice to be truthful and honest with our lovers and soulmate, or we can be fucken mofo's who use and abuse others for our personal and selfish gains in life. It's all about choices and decisions in how a life is lived. I keep asking myself why do I always fall for the hot ones who aren't healthy for me? Well... anyway, I've learned from my mistakes. I'm smarter and more wise from my experiences, now, when it comes to dating women. Mind you, I can hold my own when it comes to offering myself as a 'total package'. At least I think I'm balanced in my life. I just don't like the fact that in this day and age some people can change their minds more quick than they change TV channels when it comes to relationships; They trade-in their good used Honda Civics for a faster, more sexy model. Perhaps they'll trade up for an enviable supercar like a Ferrari Enzo. You catch my drift. To over generalize about gorgeous women, they are like fast sports cars because they cost a lot of money in maintenance and are expensive to fix if you come into problems with them. Ironically enough, if I were to surrendipitously find a gorgeous woman in my life, she would have to work harder to prove herself to me in terms of earning my trust and respect. Good looks can go so far, the rest has to be earned like everything else in life. Trust and respect are my two most valuable gifts to offer someone.
In contrast, my "LOVE" is my WORK ; The more hours I put into her, the more fruitful the reward and the more personally gratifying the consequence ...without any downsides like the bitter aftertaste of a breakup, or perhaps turning her into a stalking psycho who prank calls me at 3am in the morning. It would actually take a lot to convince me to open up my heart to someone who would actually grab my attention on many levels. I have very high standards when it comes to looks, personality, and intellect in a woman. But when I'm into someone who is special to my heart, I become the last of my kind ; A true chivalrous romantic who takes pleasure in the courtship of love, in public as well as behind closed doors. Aromatic candles, relaxing deep-tissue fullbody oil massages, bubble baths with Chopin orchestral music to infuse into the dimly lit room, with our champagne glasses filled with Dom Perignon (bottled in 1975) are typical displays of my romanticism. I've had no complaints so far, so I must be doing something right :)
It's funny how I studied so many years in the Science faculty, only to end up choosing an Arts related career. I never realized that my erstwhile nerdy life would end up having me deal with auditions, camera angles, movie Directors, and Red Carpets. The two unrelated worlds don't really make sense in terms of transitioning from one to the other, at all! But nonetheless, I'm an Actor who has found satisfaction and happiness ....FINALLY. It took me so many years to find what I truly wanted to do. I fell in love with Acting and am realizing now that I can mix together my life experiences (of heartache, personal pains, and many utterly devastating failures) to help layer and develop my character roles on film. And also, my beloved military combat art of Jiu-Jitsu adds to my repertoire of skill sets for Acting and Directing. To share a tidbit of my background in martial arts, I began my training in various arts starting at the age of 10 when I had my first experience of an elementary schoolyard fight. I was bullied because of my innocent demeanor. My parents enrolled me into the martial arts. I received my Black Belt in TaeKwonDo by the age of 15. Eventually, my late grandfather presented me with my, now, lifelong precious gift. He hand-made a pair of Nunchakus and wished me success with them. They are my heirloom and my symbolic key to the future. These Nunchakus are also my personal eternal bond to my grandfather. They are special to me. Anyway, ever since then, the martial arts has become my salvation and personal connection to my childhood. My martial arts developed from being a personal 'insurance policy' of protection, to physical enjoyment of turning my body into a precision instrument of lethality, and then to becoming a career-building arsenal in my toolkit. But the secret to my success thus far lies not in my personal skills nor through my connections in the film industry. The secret to my success has and will always be my beautiful Mom and my wonderful Dad. If what you've read so far about me sounds interesting, then you haven't had the pleasure of talking to my parents about THEIR lives. I won't go into full detail about how our family arrived in Canada since it is rather private. All I can say is that our family risked life and death over dangerous high seas during the post Vietnamese War when the government fell to communist rule. There were guns, sharks, sea-pirates, gold, maps, sea-sickness, grenades, warships, immigration camps, risks of malarial disease, and refugee imprisonment challenging our family around every corner during my formative years. Our family wasn't privileged as most suburbanites were in North America enjoying their MTV and comparing their superficial lives with the Jones' next-door. Our lives were always in constant struggle. But through our struggles together, it was probably what gave our family strength and pride. My family is my foundation and my base to build my future on. I'll just say that. The rest of my family life I'll keep private.
Anyway, to share with you, if you care to read this, I actually sort of "fell into" Acting because initially I was hesitant not knowing if I have the qualifications and the talent/gift or even goodlooks for this type of industry. My friends believed in me so much that they even paid for my headshots and photos to be shot. This isn't normal. Typically, one would pay for one's own headshots. There was something about me that people saw in me. I had "the look" they said. Yup, I was actually encouraged and gently nudged in this direction. So I decided to check it out. My film life has been snowballing ever since. I've been meeting important individuals related to my path and am delving further and further into my career as predicted and forecasted. It took the psychic predictions of an old sage (who is one of my closest friends) to open my eyes to what has been laid before me. My friend is a psychic medium. She is a senior lady in her golden years who is deeply spiritual. She's a psychic to many of Hollywood's movie stars by the way (while respectfully not naming any names in particular) and she is world renown for her divine gift. There will always be naysayers and doubters reading this paragraph due to their ignorance or personal beliefs, but I really don't care. All that matters is that she's made a believer out of me. I've grown a stronger connection to Heaven because of her. This wonderful lady is the real deal. It's probably why she has an extensive clientele base that reaches into government as well as Hollywood's red-carpet elite. She described my upward climb as well as my life's journey, every step of the way. She's described my chosen career path to me. My path is open for me to walk down upon, as long as I earn my place among the Stars. I was shown the door to walk through but was not led by the hand. I chose to walk down this path, even though there are a few choices along my life journey that were options to choose from, as spiritual destinies. I chose the path of an Acting career.
So yeah, here I am, recently back from an international film festival in Europe in which I attended my World Premiere of my film that I was casted into. It was a Red Carpet affair that was an out-of-body-experience, totally surreal, and very much unforgettably life changing. The adjectives I've used are succinct and true to how the moment felt for me personally. This is my first hand experience as a new acting talent. I'm not trying to brag about it, but rather, just sharing a part of myself with you all. ...It was classic and very much "Hollywood" as you can imagine. I rubbed shoulders with Hollywood's A-List Directors and Actors over private dinners and had coffee with a few of them at the 5star Excelsior Hotel's Blue Room a few days after my arrival, and even generated my own little Italian fanbase (the guys were funny as the girls were sweet and warmly pleasant), while gaining half a dozen Romanian, Czech, and Italian runway model girlfriends who fawned over me. I felt like a movie star. I felt like I belonged there. I felt like I had a front-row seat reserved especially for me. All of that was fun and memorable, as I witnessed the whole 'event' unfold in front of me. But I saw beyond that, beyond the glitz and glamour. The trip was an eye opener of what is going to be in store for me as someone who wants to make a difference in the world through the work of Film. Humbly speaking, I REALLY want to contribute to society and make a lasting and inspiring indelible mark on humanity as I would hold a proverbial mirror up to our society and showing our human condition in all its ugliness, as well as its beauty. Perhaps I will be able to inspire and affect a soul or two, or perhaps make a difference in this world through my work as an Actor and a new-coming Filmmaker. Anyway, yeah.... I'd like to live out a dream that will affect others in a positive way.
[For sure, I'll post photos of my whirlwind trip on my personal website to share later on this month]
It's funny how life threw me curve balls of personal failures in the past, only to give me the opportunities to hit Home Runs. I've struck out countless many times before, to the dismay of my parents who have cheered me on while I was up to bat. My strike-outs and failures in the past were entirely my fault. I'm taking ownership of my personal failures. I've fully accepted, come to terms, and healed from the times I've crashed and burned, which wasted both time, energy, and hard earned money. But that trip overseas was definitely a Home Run. I'm content with my pathway in life with what I am trying to strive for and to achieve. I'm proud of myself but at the same time, I am humble as I am insignificant in this vast Universe as earnestly find my way.
I'm Buddhist in my upbringing. I have my Buddhist beliefs meld together with my spiritual beliefs. My soul is very spiritual. This is obvious and transparent in how I've written this profile for you to read. Briefly, I'd like to put this out to anyone who is reading this: Everywhere around the world you've not read a modicum ounce of information about any terrorist acts committed by Buddhists nor have you read in history books anywhere on the planet about Buddhist "crusades" to convert peoples from distant lands. It's a peaceful religion that does not seek people to join. But lets people seek their own happiness, by seeking Buddhism. This religion has no vested interest in building congregations. The path is about finding one's one enlightenment beyond the flesh and bones of our mortality. It's about happiness beyond Life itself, after we exhale our last breath in this World. Also, ...think about this ...some religions don't believe in reincarnation ...but in Buddhism we do, because ...well ...do you really think that you can experience the exponential number of experiences of LIFE such as love, hate, infidelity, murder, addiction, sexual abuse, how it feels like being an amputee, being arrested on fraud charges, feeling the warm breeze of the Amazon River as you take a guided tour alongside the rainforest, attempting to climb Everest but halfway up you had to make an emergency descent due to your failure to acclimatize properly, being overdosed on painkillers because of deep personal issues over the loss of loved ones killed by gangsters from a neighboring street on Compton, serendipitously finding true love while on a river-taxi boat ride with someone who is also on vacation in Cambodia, being shot in the neck by a sniper while on tour of duty fighting another man's war overseas over oil, having won the Pulitzer Prize for writing a book on the private life of Pope John Paul II before and during his papacy, being one of the fortunate Boat People who risked life and death sailing across the South Sea of China escaping as a refugee from Vietnamese communist rule after The War ended, etc, etc, etc, etc, when you only have a limited number of years on Earth? Think about it. Many people agree that life is about experiencing moments with loved ones and learning life's many lessons. If this is the consensus of many people across society, then most likely the average lifespan is not long enough to experience what life has to offer. The average human being lives for about 78 years in which we all spend about a third of our lives sleeping, the other third is spent in school and (or) working 9to5 to sustain our lives, and the last third waiting for Death to knock on our door while we sit in that wheelchair at the nursing home. Even if in one lifetime, we may experience many aspects of the human condition, there still is not enough human years to experience them all. So yeah, we would (and should) be reincarnated with a different face and body in the next lifetime (with the idea that some people are born into average bodies, while some have genetic gifts of gorgeous supermodel body frames), depending on what is necessary for our spiritual growth and what is intended for that lifetime, specific to the lessons to be learned. I believe that in each reincarnation we would be born into either male or female bodies. It gives a great opportunity for the guys to know how it feels to deliver a child or having to deal with monthly cramps. Switching back and forth between sexes during each reincarnation also gives a great opportunity for the women to understand why us men have this incredible fascination with your breasts :) Yayyy to boobies, I say! :) lol Anyway, I believe that each of us would need to be reincarnated many thousands of times to actually have a firm grasp of the wisdom gained and the enlightenment that would mature our souls and develop our spirits within. I'm confident that there is a divine system in place that is sure to be fair and worthwhile to those who wish to earn their entry into Heaven once we exit our body for the last time on this planet.
Mind you, I'm not trying to convert you to Buddhism. I would like to share the idea that .....of the many religions and spiritualities that souls are born into, during that reincarnation, that specific path of spirituality (of any named religion) is appropriate for that specific soul. In other words, ALL religions and ALL spiritual paths are CORRECT for that specific soul during their incarnate existence. Whichever spiritual path that they've pre-chosen is correct for that specific journey. It's all about the personal and soulful growth. So yeah, every God from every religion is actually the same 'energy', the same 'loving force' that we all have given names to our "God". He/She/It/They/Them ...is the same God, but just in a different form for different people. Do you get what I mean? This is the problem in our current time continuum where a lot of misguided souls *cough*ExtremistMuslims*cough* are causing wars and inflicting terrorist acts on other people because they think that THEIR religion is the true religion, when in fact their religion has equal say as compared to other people's spiritual paths. Sad to say, but honestly saying to you, I think many fundamental followers are under-developed spiritually. They do not know the path of Allah when they think that killing innocent lives will give them entry into Heaven and that 72 fertile virgins await for them. They have misread the Koran and have blasphemed Allah, yet they see their actions as righteous and true. Their misguidance affects us all. We, as humanity, are interconnected, and are the same, in the end, as a human family. Hence, there is suffering and unneccessary pain inflicted upon our fellow brothers and sisters. I'm sad for all of us. But ...I have faith in our collective conscious. Collectively, the world will realize the errors of misguided "martyrs" and will self correct in some profound way, painful or not in the process of self correction. There is so much potential in Humanity. I have faith in Humankind. We will all achieve our destined Christ Consciousness. Nirvanic Enlightenment. Every one of us. It just takes time.
We, as souls, are on our personal journey through life, to experience and to remember WHO WE ARE and WHY WE ARE doing the things we are doing ...and it is to ultimately achieve a state of Christ Consciousness, or "Nirvana" in Buddhist terminology. Christ Consciousness is a state of soulful perfection such that we are with God/Allah/Buddha/Shiva/Zeus/AnyNamedGod/etc ...that we come back to The Source. The Source is of the energy of Love and Truth. We BECOME it. Our souls would have eternal wisdom and the light that shines within us is the light of GOD. Ultimately we wouldn't have to (if we didn't want to) come back to Earth. We, as souls, have the will of choice. This is the core reason of why we exist and are 'individuals'. Anyway, I believe that once we would master the art of living we then have a choice of staying or leaving this World. [This gives reason as to why ghosts and spirits haunt buildings, they dont have to leave if they don't want to. God gave them the gift of will to decide to stay or "follow the light at the end of the tunnel". This is another topic] But with the Love that our souls would achieve during the state of Christ Consciousness we would be able to guide and help loved ones such as family members, or lost earthly souls that need our assistance. We could come back as reincarnations to help humanity. Think of Einstein, or Kant, or Freud, or Mozart, or Confucius, or Buddha, or Elvis Presley, or even Bruce Lee. They are MASTERS who have come back to Earth to inspire us and to give the gift of Truth and Love to Humankind. Their musical, written, or visual works that they left behind are historical treasures that are ubiquitous throughout the World. We all are capable of becoming MASTERS of living life when we personally achieve our state of Christ Consciousness (ie "Nirvana" or "Buddhist Enlightenment").
I've always imagined the soulful transitioning from Life to Death much like that last scene in the movie "Ghost" starring Patrick Swayze and Demi Moore where 'Sam' just slowly blends into the bright white light and forever disappears into Heaven. **That scene was a tear-jerker. I went through a box of kleenex that night** The ideology that reincarnation exists would allow our souls to grow and develop in order to mature spiritually is actually convincing if you sit and think. I might stir some controversy and make enemies with the people reading this, or they might not give a fuck because they're either atheist, most likely ignorant, complacent, or agnostic ...or they are on their own spiritual path that they are comfortable with, either born into, or self chosen during their life. I have no intentions of disturbing their path. To each their own, figuratively and literally. But at least I made some people ponder this possibility. So yeah, do you feel me so far? I hope I'm connecting with you.
This path in life that I chose is not about making truckloads of money, or hooking up with breast-enhanced hot blondes, or driving fast muscle cars, nor owning material objects like big houses. They are by-products of success. True success is happiness from within. I wont insult your intelligence with contrite phrases, but to be succinct I do not NEED money and celebrity fame to be content. To some people the aforementioned goals are fine and great, but I'm aiming my goals above that. Money will not enlighten you and give you wisdom. Unspeakably breathtaking gorgeous models will eventually age and get wrinkles as their boobs sag. Sexy new pimped-out import cars will rust, eventually break down, or become last year's model. Multi-million dollar homes will eventually need renovations and repairs. I'm aiming beyond those worldly goals and pursuits. I actually have a life mission and an altruistic purpose; "un raison d'etre". My goals are meant to be shared between myself and the universal energy of love we all call 'God' or 'Buddha'. But I would love to share my life's work with the world and offer some inspiration to those in need of encouragement. My body and my soul belongs to Christ and Buddha and to the World, in terms of what I am capable of sharing in films that I plan to Direct or Act in. I'm a Pisces and so I'm definitely an optimist and a dreamer. This can be inspiring because you can never tell what kind of magic can be generated through the dreams of one person. Yet at the same time, I sometimes do not know my limitations. As well, I'm quite confident to realize that I'm not delusional to think that I'll become some bigshot HOLLYWOOD MOVIE STAR. Only I, myself, can find out what I can or cannot do with what I intend to do. It's a selfless act from within me, so I have nothing to lose even if I may fail in my attempts. The point is that i TRIED. My mere attempt and effort is probably a blessing in disguise, because life is about personal evolution of the soul. The blessing is that I grow spiritually and soulfully through these experiences, either through the type of work I've chosen to delve into, or the people whom I associate with as I journey through life. Everyone whom I cross paths with during my journey, has a purpose to my life as I have a purpose to their's as well ...I hope that this is the case for you and I, in some direct or indirect way. It's a divine natural flow of the purpose and essence of Life ; To affect one another in a Yin-Yang harmonious way through words, emotions, and actions. I hope the aforementioned paragraphs of my profile may be a positive influence upon you.
I love the fact that life is so cruel and unfair at times, because it matures the soul, builds personal character, and enlightens the spirit. I like the fact that it is hard to achieve the goals in life, because it makes us appreciate the fruits of our labor. The fruit is more sweeter in taste because it has ripened and well earned. The poetic texture of the experience when you taste your fruit is very personal and will carry a deeper meaning to you.
And just to iterate, I am not entirely a highly spiritual, grounded, science geek who has found his niche in life ...I'm also an adventurer who takes calculated risks and I know when to cut loose to enjoy life at its finest. When I party, I party hard. When I take on adventures, they're the types that are white-knuckled, pee yer pants, sensory-overloading extreme rides that would leave you gasping for a quick breath. You'd need an asthma inhaler. I'm crazier than an untamed Arabian horse when it comes to fun and games. I live my life as if I would die tomorrow. My SkyDiving and WhiteWater Rafting adventures in the past were definitely testaments to my belief of this :) Every person whom I meet, every experience that I encounter, it is for a reason that I appreciate. I give thanks and bless the moment. Everything I receive, I appreciate. You might think that I'm a bit of an egocentric individual, writing this lengthy autobiography which seems more like a rant. You've concluded wrong. I'm very transparent with my life and what I think. I'm a communicator. I'm gregarious that way. I express how and what I feel without fear of judgement from others. I care not what others think of me, their judgement means nothing to me unless it is from God or Family. So yeah, this autobiography also gives me the chance to engage myself with those special individuals whom I care about to better understand the person who I am inside. I don't expect you to agree that I'm humble yet sweet, fun yet hardworking, lovable yet dorky, and engaging yet introspective, because we're dealing with communication via the internet. But this is who I am in person. I'm just Me :)
I'm also a human being ; I'm entitled to FUCK UP in a very major way, a few times here and there, now and then.
Anyway, let's just say that I'm on a road that few understand me. Oxymoronically, I'm simply complex.
I'm currently learning about the craft of filmmaking as I am formulating some film scripts and storylines. I'm still going to focus on my acting but I'd like to keep my doors open for my years down the line when my interests change. Recently, I shot my first official roll of film with an industry movie camera. I'm hooked! Life is full of addictions, good and bad. I'm very fortunate that I have healthy vices to keep me out of trouble. I'll keep you posted and updated with my humble life via my personal website when it's up.
So yeah, this is me. I'm not just the photos that you see on this profile, but I am someone who knows what he wants out of Life. I am confident with who I am as I seek my happiness, but I'm also humble and grateful for what is given to me. If you've read this far, then I'm sure that you're actually interested in knowing and understanding me on a deeper level. I'm sincerely thankful for your interest. THANK YOU.
May your Buddha Nature blossom to its fullest glory. And may your Karma lead you to Enlightenment on whichever path you choose to journey upon.
Always,
[ Tri ]
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