Once upon a time, I was nobody, I was lost. Most days all I felt was loneliness, pain and sadness, I was bitter and angry, my frustration got too much to bare.
Sometime immaturity creates bullies, and bullying creates depression, and I was the test rat. I believed I was nobody, my life was just emptiness, but today I am free, I am loved, I am happy! I could hold on and be angry for those who hurt me, but I’d just feel crappy, those experiences gave me things that I can relate to people with, I can relate to you with, they edified me, so now I can help you in your hard time.
My life is not what I ever expected it to be, but in fact it’s more, I have felt great pain and disappointment, but the direction of my life is greater than what I ever planned in my life. For 4 years I had my whole life planned out in my head, and on the 1st of February 2008, my whole life as I planned it was shattered. But I am so happy and excited to be here doing what I’m doing and being who I am today. To look back at who I used to be, and to think of who I am now, is unbelievable, my life is so great.
I have amazing friends, that love me for who I am, I never thought that I would be loved for who I am, I thought that there was something wrong with me. I have an amazing boyfriend, who loves me, who is there for me, who is lovely, and caring and funny and an awesome friend, and proves my belief that all guys aren’t the same!
I have skills that have grown immensely, and new ones that I didn’t know I had. And I have an amazing God, who knows more about me that anyone including myself, he is there for me, in every circumstance, even when I don’t always agree with what he is doing, he knows where I’m needed and makes sure I’m going in the right direction, and since the change he put in my life, I have never felt more free and like life have a solid direction, in a sense though that I have no idea where I am going, but I’m in Gods hands and he knows exactly where I am going.I design, I take photos, I like to write deep things, I help people, I say inspirational things, I play guitar, I like to sing, I want to learn how to skate, I want to change lives, I want to bring people to God, I like to have deep conversations, I smile, I cry, I read, I listen, I am wise, I know, I don’t know, I love life, I inspire, I am inspired, I love, I am loved, I am happy, I am sure, I am FREE!I am Mel, I am 18
