Lila

thoughtful, mischievous, creative, bright, loyal, sensitive, happyish, generous, adventurous... indoorsy, outdoorsy, forgetful... disturbingly unmaterialistic, hideously disorganised...a bit wild sometimes, lazy other times, but I always try to be kind....xxxI love the sound of thunder, the sound of rain and strangely, the sound of distant traffic. The piano almost brings me to my knees and the sound of waves crashing onto a shore is just about the most satisfying thing i could ever hear. I loved being homeless. Im still essentially homeless but I'm no longer living in a car park in Antibes, sleeping rough in the Pyrenees, or on a sofa beside the Medditeranean(thankyou Filip). I love to wander. Adventure, especially when there is a risk involved...routine makes me sad and restless. This song on my profile (Halleluljah, Jeff Buckley) ..it makes me cry whenever I hear it. Love is hard huh? I went sailing around the Caribbean earlier this year and while everyone else was ashore I loved to sit on the bow at night with my legs dangling overboard. Nothing but the Caribbean Sea, stars, and lights from a distant island in view...boat swaying gently and Jeff Buckley on my ipod. I dont need much out of life, though I cant say I feel fulfilled with what I have now. Happiness..full and complete!! I guess there is something more I need but I'm not yet sure what it is. Makes it hard to go for when you dont know where to look. I think its better that way though. I would hate a life that was all mapped out from the beginning. People who work to pay for the clothes they wear to work, the car they drive to work, the drinks they have after work and the house they spend time in when they are not at work, really confuse me. I don't any disrespect to this lifestyle choice but I know now that it isn't for me. I nearly had that life once but I ran away, literally with nothing but a suitcase. Was the best thing I ever did. I dont have aspirations for houses and cars and clothes and things really at all. Of course I like to look nice, I do spend some money on clothes and stuff ...I'm not a communist and I'm certainly no saint;) I love the taste of mangoes, shellfish, peaches, pizza, passionfruit, pasta, hommous, Nutella, French bread with English butter, mashed potatoes, vine ripened tomatoes (from Tesco grrr), creme caramel and salty skin after a dip in the sea. I like nothing better than lying under the stars on a warm evening and sleeping in on Sundays when it's cold...ah, there is one thing I like better, but Im not giving everything away on here! I love sleeping close to someone special.RIGHT! Im not cynical or generally negative but it seems appropriate to balance the 'I love..' section with an 'I hate..' one. Makes me appear a more balanced individual I think. So here goes..I hate YOGHURT, with a passion. And goats' cheese. A food writer once commented that if he ever had the misfortune of being forced to lick the bottom of a pig's pen, that he was sure it would taste like goats' cheese. I hate wanky food. I hate the high street, any high street. I hate Tesco but I shop there sometimes (for my favourite tomatoes). I hate the fact that I have to shop in Tesco sometimes. Actually I hate shopping. If I had a boyfriend I would never drag him to the shops or ask him, 'does my bum look big in this?' Obvious things like cruelty and bigotry and stupid people. Violence too, how can it ever be the answer to a conflict? I hate picky eaters (and disliking yoghurt doesnt make me picky). I hate package holidays, the Daily Mail and all the red-necks who read it. I hate the business district and all the sad fuc*s who wear suits and devote their lives to it. I hate that I dont live by the ocean anymore. I hate it when people type 'lol'..and David Hasselhoff irony. I cant bear noisy eaters AND I HATE the Congestion Zone..Don't get me wrong...Im all for reducing congestion and pollution but this is a blatent and obvious money spinner...KL should be ashamed of himself..talk about rob from the poor to give to the rich!!! I hate the world sometimes actually. Some days I would love to just fall off it and land in some harmonious ocean devoid of jobs and traffic and goats' cheese. One ex-boyfriend, I hate him too. I am a lovely person though. Did i mention Tatler?? Don't like that either!!