Neelanjana - ProfilesArchive

About Me

I feel like I am in a transition period. I want to grow up. I feel like I'm always going to be a precocious, awkward 13-year-old with big tits. My Saturn Returns is arriving, returning and I'm a little worried. I like whiskey. I'm cheesey because I like art that has hearts in it, so when San Francisco had that public art project with all the painted hearts everywhere, like the really dismal graf heart on Dolores, it made me happy but then I heard some cool punk-rock kids talking about how much they hated the hearts and I felt dumb. That's me. But I bought some cool Mexican tin heart art from a man and his son in a market in Oaxaca and I love it. I want to put it on my door underneath the photo of the woman pulling all the money into her crotch. I love photographs. I love typewriters. I love movies. I love that my family has transformed into such amazing human beings in the last five years of heartbreak. I love a man who speaks the language of drums. I am desparate to figure things out. To understand why I do the things I do and change my neural pathways and astrally travel and multiple orgasm and cook really good food. I want to wear high heels everywhere and flirt with everyone and dance a lot and I wish my butt was bigger because one time someone asked me if I left my ass at home and I've been really self-conscious ever since. I like when people are sarcastic and witty but really I love people who are simple and good, I think. I just like to play with the people who are mean and sarcastic. I like to play. I like when people rub my head and pull my hair and sometimes I like bruises.

My Interests

Writing, reading, learning, laughing, kissing, looking, stretching, breathing, sneezing, wondering.

I'd like to meet:

I'd like to meet some of my boyfriends from back in elementary school in Miamisburg, Ohio because I was one confused little kid. I'd like to meet Indian strippers because I am fascinated by them. I'd like to meet Camalo somewhere slightly loud where we would have a good vantage point and comfortable seats and talk for hours while occasionally looking at other people. I'd like to meet Dana on a porch somewhere in summer with lots of cold beer and some weed and stay there for a week. I'd like to meet Erica somewhere warm with water and smile. I'd like to meet Anais Nin and ask her about Henry Miller. I'd like to meet Billie Holiday and give her a hug. I'd like to meet someone who could give me lots of money to travel and write.

Music:

Chris Issack, Fiona Apple, Billie Holiday, Astrud Gilberto, Asian Massive, The Flaming Lips, Micropixie, Robin Sukhadia, Asha Bosle, Sarah Vaughan, Air, Atmosphere, Johnny Cash, any atmospheric drum&bass, Neko Case, RJD2, Living Legends, DJ Illigan.

Movies:

David Lynch, Y Tu Mama Tambien, Jean-Pierre Jeunet, Satyajit Ray, John Sayles, City of God, Dirty Pretty Things, Wes Anderson, movies in which Vince Vaughn appears and makes me laugh.

Television:

I watch TV all the time but have still not managed to getover being embarrassed about it so I'm not going to tell what I watch, but most of it centers around whatever is one MTV or the Food Network when I am feeling tried and cranky. Six Feet Under, which I watched on my friend's TIVO, was a damn good show though.

Heroes:

Mohammed Ali, Asra Nomani, Chitra Divakruni, my mom, Robin, Erica, Carrie Bradshaw.