square one. |
yet again i lie awake in the night spinning daydreams of ordinary madness. one moment surrenders to the next all too quickly, and i fear the rage of the morning. with the passing of each s...
Posted by matthew on Thu, 30 Aug 2007 12:18:00 PST |
FYI |
many of you are getting hung up on the emotional content of my blogs. what i share here is NOT intended to communicate my current state of emotional well-being (or unrest, as it may be) - unless...
Posted by matthew on Sat, 11 Aug 2007 05:20:00 PST |
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tyler is gone.. and i'm left in the chaos of his wake. i am compromised somehow by the loss, weakened and frail, soft: like ancient wood raped by the sea. i am the shadow of that pre...
Posted by matthew on Fri, 10 Aug 2007 04:15:00 PST |
scream |
like snowflakes, packages, pictures, and salad dressing..fear not oil, though you sink beneath the water:for it is i, the spinner of culture and cornflakes,glowing in the waking dream of your destruct...
Posted by matthew on Fri, 03 Aug 2007 09:41:00 PST |
city of god, and thoughts on perspective |
last night i watched a movie called 'city of god', or 'cidade de deus' - O2 films, brazil (2002). the film is in portuguesee with english subtitles, and all of the actors were recruited from slu...
Posted by matthew on Sat, 21 Jul 2007 04:36:00 PST |
the precipice.. |
..consumes me.i can see nothing but its depths,and can know nothing but its promise of misery..bound and gagged, choking on my own stale breath.fear.the mind-killer.that which feeds on hopes and dream...
Posted by matthew on Thu, 19 Jul 2007 09:09:00 PST |
the straw |
it wasn't especially heavy, or particularly sharp. this implement of destruction splintered and pierced, brittle as it was, and paved the warm green earth black and blue. where it ca...
Posted by matthew on Tue, 10 Jul 2007 01:57:00 PST |
breaking out, breaking in |
limbo.. again. confined in the place between places. this broken fix.. this bitter confection, i ache to create and yearn to destroy. but instead, there is only the nothing - w...
Posted by matthew on Wed, 27 Jun 2007 11:36:00 PST |
nitelight wakes me into shape.. |
i must have been asleep for weeks.* * *the days start grey, somewhat dismal.. the sun may be cold or hellfire but warmth comes only indirectly, through the food chain and by way of manufacture, coursi...
Posted by matthew on Sat, 02 Jun 2007 11:06:00 PST |
the edge, the mist |
and so i stand here, watching. as if i am behind glass, i cannot reach into your world, your perception - for you are all strangers to me, though you are certainly also variations on a theme, th...
Posted by matthew on Thu, 26 Apr 2007 09:37:00 PST |
