my three sons.. andWhen I was a little girl my best friend was a horse named spunky..we lived out in the country and I used to ride him everywhere kid couldn't go today..all over the coal mines of kentucky...those were the best days.....those were the days I was a preacher's kid who couldn't wait to go to church and see my friends ....I was a lucky kid....life got hard as you can read in my following testimony...but the Good Lord was there with me as a child..through the bad and the good.....I kinda think He likes horses too...gonna return on a glorious white one.... ... .. ..
Hello and thanks for stopping by my page....I am an unconditional friend and believer in Christ. My life has a testimony like so many other great ones I have read on Myspace..My first concern is for people with mental illness or suicide survivors...I am one and it is a long hard road....I also come from a famly where mental illness plays a part in everyday of our life...my mom is bypolar and I have seen her attemp and talk about suicide many times...I myself attempted suicide more than once...but God had plans for me and He does you too!!! Satan wants us to feel like we are worthless...that is his job...but we are much more and he can't stand it...we are princess's and princes'..warriors...we have a Father who has a purpose for us now and through eternity...if you are feeling low and down...mail me..let me share more with you..lets piss satan off together...his days are numbered...ours are eternal...!!!!!
..I have been in abusive marriages..over and over...molested as a child....watched my mother cry from being abused and raped by a preacher....etc...I drifted from God when my parents divorced...I tried to do things my way..for that God put me through a boot camp if you will....I was miserable, on drugs, anorexic, had abortions, spent a weekend in jail for shoplifting while on crank...this was while I was a teacher..I found myself in and out of marriages with unbelivers..was hit, bit, kicked, stabed with my own shoe, and cheated on..but I thought I deserved it..I had so many secrets I thought branded me from being worthy for anything or anybody good,,I had a son I coudn't find, hadn't seen him since he was 2, I didn't feel good enough to raise him, so his dad had him,,,and hid him from me for years (God brought us together, the most precious gift...),But God pulled me out of it when He knew I was ready to do his will....my life has never been the same....I look for Christ in everything...from pennies to sunsets.....All my hearts desires, He continues to fill,,,It is so amazing....Today, even though it took me several years to believe my husband would really want someone like me..after all ,,he had never been married and had lived a perfect life..this made for some hard days those first years of marriage ... I am the proud mother of 6 wonderful children...ages 4 to 21...with 2 grandaughters Lilly and Phoenix...both 1 year old. My husband is in the US Army as well as my second oldest son, Jesse. Paul will retire in 5 years and is an E-7. He will join the National Guard after he retires as a Chaplin...and an officer. I stay at home but write and love working on this old house....an 1886 victorian farmhouse......we have chickens, horses, cats, a dog, two birds and a couple fish!!! and two grandparents next door....papaw rabbit our gardener and grandma brown...
would love to have you stop and visit....we continue to grow in the Lord,,,we still have hard days...as long as anyone is on this old earth..there will be hard days for a Christian.....hang in there....you wont believe the supernatural blessings that will come your way if you just look for Jesus in everything around you...He is waiting...and yes it is that easy...
love all us at the old Smith house................1 Therefore, since we have so great a cloud of witnesses surrounding us, let us also lay aside every encumbrance and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us,2 fixing our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.3 For consider Him who has endured such hostility by sinners against Himself, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart. Heb 12:1-3 (NASB)My beautiful brother, our last Thanksgiving together..
He committed suicide March 27, 2006...see you soon...my friend...the next picture is of his gravesight...if you look closely you can see the reflection of someone in white...there was no one there when I took the picture from a distance and zoomed in...I thought that was awesome...like they were sitting there looking at it too...kinda looks like an angel!!! They probably do wonder about death like they do our relationship with Christ whom we have never seen....also my brother drew the picture engraved on the tombstone of Jesus on the cross...that is neat how they can copy it directly on there like that....
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