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About Me

This doll wasn't meant to be taken out of her box.
This doll has been played with too much.
This doll has been mutilated and bathed in dirt.
This doll has been shaped to look like the American dream.
This doll's porcelain face has been broken.
This doll has learned to love herself despite all that.
"A doll is a child's toy that represents a baby or other human being , but includes likenesses of animals and imaginary creatures.
Dolls have been around since the dawn of human civilization. In ancient times, dolls were used as representations of a deity, and played a central role in religious ceremonies and rituals.
L i f e l i k e or anatomically correct dolls are used by health professionals, medical schools and social workers to train doctors and nurses in various health procedures or investigate cases of sexual abuse of children.
It was common to find them in the graves of children."
a. a pretty but expressionless or unintelligent woman. n.
1. A child's usually small toy having the likeness of a human.
2. A pretty child.
3. Slang
a. An attractive person.
b. A woman.
c. A sweetheart or darling.
d. A helpful or obliging person.
Transferred back to living beings 1778 in sense of "pretty, silly woman"
a small replica of a person; used as a toy
But you can call me Chessna, if you wish.
Facts about me:

I am a photographer. I don't consider myself a model.

I am a vegetarian. I like animals more than I like most people.

I am in love. I try to be a nice person. =]
Deviant art

My Interests

L i k e s
art: painting. drawing. sewing. fashion design. photography. special effects makeup.
anime.
medical things.
lunchboxes.
music.
The colour grey.
The number 0.
fruit.
apples.
Harajuku.
loli clothing.
gurololi(grotesque lolita) fashion.
cosplay.
nice people.
intelligent people.
respectful people.
poetry.
positive attention.
honesty.
kinderwhore (but not Courtney Love!).
broken electronics/breaking electronics.
"strange" photography/art.
things that make you think.
dancing when no one is around.
opera.
bright make-up.
platforms.
finding beauty in everything.
being happy.
living without hate.
uniforms.
animals.
Halloween!
ghosts.
vampires.
cookies.
bats.
zebras!
bumblebees.
balloons.
fantasy.
science fiction.
Alice in Wonderland!
the supernatural.

D i s l i k e s
disrespect.
liars.
cheaters.
skin rashes.
elitists.
mean people.
judgmental people.
religion.
war.
wars in the name of religion.
gender roles.
stereotypes.
bad posture.
bad manners.
fakes.
ignorance.
abuse.
labels.
chronic depression.
jerks.
thieves!
having to take pills.
foot fetishists (i have my reasons!)
perverts.
creeps.
people who: use people. talk shit, esp. when they don't even know the person. act like whores. can't/don't think for themselves. take things too far. underestimate me/don't take me seriously. steal other peoples' ideas because they aren't creative enough to think of their own. copy others. refuse to see the truth. speak without thinking. cry over everything. resort to violence without looking for an alternative.

I'd like to meet:

Anyone dedicated to the betterment and progression of society.

My role models, inspirations, and favorite bands.

People who are not going to talk about me behind my back.

Artists of all kinds. Photographers. Models. Muses.

Everyone in my 'heroes' section.

"Americans talk so much about being individualistic, but they don't want you to be an individual because if you think for yourself then you're not going to be a part of any trend that they want you to be a part of. They don't want you to think for yourself. They tell you they do so that you're happy and you're stupid and you're sheep."

Music:

I'll just list my favorites for now.
local bands Plecostomus! Army of In Between SideWise Truth in Ruin Dirtfedd Beyond Immortality Gravestorm Malcavian Sepulcro Facecage Moire Narcotic Self Paria Others

Non-local bands AFI Marilyn Manson Nirvana Sopor Aeternus The Dresden Dolls David Bowie Radiohead The Cure Blaqk Audio Velvet Acid Christ Psyclon nine columbine. Soft Cell Depeche Mode Nine Inch Nails Gorgoroth The Violent Femmes No Doubt Sublime A Perfect Circle Cradle of Filth Malice Mizer Moi dix Mois Babes in Toyland Veruca Salt Genitorturers Nightwish Dead Kennedys Sex Pistols Garbage Leonard Cohen Black Tape for a Blue Girl Stutterfly Glenn Miller Dinah Shore The Misfits Bauhaus The Cruxshadows The Used Godhead Smashing Pumpkins Bloodbath Belphegor Dark Funeral Old Man's Child Switchblade Symphony Deathstars Others

Movies:

some favorites Party Monster The Craft V for Vendetta Labyrinth Edward Scissorhands House of 1000 Corpses Silent Hill Zoolander

some genres horror, especially gore ♥ Japanese, Korean, and Chinese horror cinema some comedy some drama documentaries old, black/white movies, especially silent ones 1940s movies

Television:

Books:

Many.

Heroes:

These people I consider to be my influences:
Kurt Cobain Mana-sama Anna-Varney Marilyn Manson Amanda Palmer Shirley Manson Batman
The flappers of the 1920s ♥ Theda Bara Colleen Moore Louise Brooks Brigitte Helm The hardworking, beautiful women of the 1940's Distinctive individuals who make themselves known to many.

My Blog

Not on a Tuesday.

I realized today what unconditional love is. I never believed it before, never felt it before. But today I realized. I know what it really means. I know it exists.Love is not an emotion only for the w...
Posted by dθll on Wed, 07 May 2008 06:11:00 PST

Emptier than 0.

I watch as the parasites eat their home. Eat it to the bone. I've given them this feast, built everything up just to have it torn down by the same hands. The inability to distinguish dirt from bruises...
Posted by dθll on Mon, 21 Apr 2008 05:49:00 PST

+0, -0. Back to the start./Friendly fire.

Story behind these: These were written last September. The 'inspiration' for these was a girl who decided to take her psychotic and immature jealousy out on me, because she was having problems with a ...
Posted by dθll on Wed, 09 Apr 2008 10:37:00 PST

Silence in numbers.

We are the one you will always forget. We are the one who speaks inaudibly. We are the one whose words fall on dead ears. We are the one who remembers. We are the one seen and not heard. We are the on...
Posted by dθll on Mon, 07 Apr 2008 03:04:00 PST

It comes in waves. [Kristallnacht Ithaca]

I’m the one you’ll never fear. At worst, I’m harmless. Can’t eat an animal but I’d kill your world in a heartbeat. It only takes one to make it all disappear. We know thi...
Posted by dθll on Mon, 24 Mar 2008 07:15:00 PST

It was a Tuesday.

It was a Tuesday and my cat died. My cat finally succumbed to her disease. So don’t ask me who Calypso is, don’t ask me why I miss her. You know. But you don’t understand. You couldn...
Posted by dθll on Fri, 21 Mar 2008 05:19:00 PST

st[r]ing.

A string without end. The butterflies in your stomach have been caught in your throat. A net of restraint, keeping you from saying what you want. Timid, weak little things they are. You wouldn’t...
Posted by dθll on Wed, 12 Mar 2008 09:00:00 PST

I guess its not really Tuesdays...

It's just the second day of the week. Because over the weekend the terrible ways of the week seem to become distant, and when Monday comes, you don't think it will be as bad as it is. Then it hits you...
Posted by dθll on Wed, 23 Jan 2008 12:06:00 PST

Another Tuesday.

Forced to kneel down and wash in my own spit. My mouth is a graveyard. You drove me to this, and now you want me to back away from the edge? I should jump, just out of spite.
Posted by dθll on Wed, 09 Jan 2008 11:30:00 PST

Something that happens between Monday night and Tuesday morning

A layer is worn away. Something changes, fades. A wall is torn down. A flood of tears to drown myself in. Simultaneously, feeling nothing. Telling myself how horrible I am.It's only the fragile ones t...
Posted by dθll on Wed, 05 Dec 2007 08:44:00 PST