big fat fatty (40 lbs off - 60 to go)

About Me

I am 32 (I'll be 33 this year). I need to change my life. I have great kids and husband I love. I weigh 258 lbs, I am 5'9". It's something I don't like about myself. I've been lying to myself for years about this growning problem about 10lbs a year fot the past 9 years. I'm done moving the wrong way. I just joined Curves. Step one I guess. But I need more accountablitity. I am going to blog often when I am happy or sad or manic - whatever. It's going to be all true - the good, bad, ugly! I'd like to losed 90-100lbs and it's mostly vanity! I want to shop in normal stores - I want to buy a bathing suit without a major depression. I have another profile on MySpace for my friends and family - but that is toally edited out photos to make myself look not as over weight as I am - there will be none of that here. I can not delet my weight by deleting photos of myself that show my weight. I have been deleting myself out of my family one photo at a time for years. I hate the way I look. That other MySpace is like a phoney second life. I hope that maybe I will inspire someone else but mostly this is for me. I need to be honest and this is one area of my life in which I am a totaly liar. I know why I'm fat. I eat all the worng things, I eat all the time, I'm tired all the time, I am depressed, I comfort myself with food. I have eaten and earned every pound of myself and now I have to work it off. I am working on my emotional problems but it's delusional to think as I work them out I will suddenly wake up thin.
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Who Should Paint You: Andy Warhol
You've got an interested edge that would be reflected in any portrait
You don't need any fancy paint techniques to stand out from the crowd! What Artist Should Paint Your Portrait? I'm aiming to hit 250 miles by 11/11/07 - We'll see! Though I'm not officially participating in the Fat March I give them all mad props for the inspiration!
Oh, IT'S ON!!!!My hubby's challenging me on the 500 miles He started 8/16/2007
Callies dance - not the best edit but still cool!

My Interests

Weight loss, breaking addictive behaviors with food, loving myself, doing what's right, getting my head straight. ABOVE:exercise for the month
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Above: This is my daily progress log....
Below: Below ticker is the weight lost in the BFF Biggest Loser Challenges (this does not include our everyday loss):
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I'd like to meet:

People who wanna read my blog and wanna lose weight or really anyone - women only please.
also Kathy Griffin because she is a woman after my own heart.....(see below)

Music:

I like music of most kinds... nOt country so much.The Playlist ... this is a lot of funny songs regarding being fat, food, eating, or that somewhat remotely containing food references and words, and some that are inspiring a bit...oh and, Songs about body parts and moving too and Tyra Banks song....no crap! It's pretty much not good! It makes me laugh!

Movies:

Muriels Wedding, Bridget Jones Diary (both, Pans Labrynth and The Host - both very good! Little Miss. Sunshine, Spanglish, Harry Potter and the whatever, whatever, whatever...(I like them all)

Television:

Almost Perfect, America's Next Top Model, LOST, Damages
A quick workout with Elijah Wood (yeah, the hobbit)

Books:

The Secret Life of Bee's, The Poisonwood Bible

Heroes:

Me (i hope), and you!

This is a log of official progress from Curves weigh ins! :)

above: I'm supposed to be chased by a cheese burger but the burger isn't showing...I don't know why! LOL! Maybe he only chaes after a certain amount of loss - bastard~! :) Update - I see the bastrad burger coming now and I think that jerk is gaining on me!!!!!!!!!!!!grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!
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THE WINNER!

with an 8lb loss is :my BOOBIES and age are not the same anymore:-(congratulations are in order!...
Posted by big fat fatty (40 lbs off - 60 to go) on Wed, 26 Sep 2007 10:24:00 PST

Just some random stuff....

John's internet fix seems to be a good thing! I sent out some comments today and it only took a little while! Yeeha! I am happy! Biggest Loser Challenge is not ready to post up a win...
Posted by big fat fatty (40 lbs off - 60 to go) on Tue, 25 Sep 2007 08:47:00 PST

2 WEEK CHALLENGE RESULTS!!!!!! BFF BIGGEST LOSER

Okay babes lets crown our winner! Post up you pictures and totals! I am so excited to see how everybody did!
Posted by big fat fatty (40 lbs off - 60 to go) on Mon, 24 Sep 2007 05:58:00 PST

Week 1 weigh in! BFF Biggest Loser!

Okay, ladies let's see were we stand at week 1? Best of luck!
Posted by big fat fatty (40 lbs off - 60 to go) on Mon, 17 Sep 2007 04:58:00 PST

Help...I lost this....

dog... or this cat... ummmm, or this fish.... Maybe it was all these oranges... Maybe it was this turkey... Please do not help me find what I have lost! All these things we...
Posted by big fat fatty (40 lbs off - 60 to go) on Mon, 17 Sep 2007 06:03:00 PST

Big Fat Fatty?

I had to look after all the buzz about Britney Spears on the 2007 VMA's and all I have to say is - Stellar mother? No. Brian Surgeon? Nope. Awesome singer? Not really. Great dancer?&...
Posted by big fat fatty (40 lbs off - 60 to go) on Mon, 17 Sep 2007 05:38:00 PST

Deep dark confession!

I have not been to the gym or on the treadmill in a few weeks! EEEEK! I know it sucks of me! I have been really stressed and not feeling like I have time to shower much less exercis...
Posted by big fat fatty (40 lbs off - 60 to go) on Thu, 13 Sep 2007 06:10:00 PST

BFF BIGGEST LOSER!

Post up your scale pictures! Again sorry it's a Monday! I have internet and a need to lose hope some of you all will join me!
Posted by big fat fatty (40 lbs off - 60 to go) on Mon, 10 Sep 2007 05:36:00 PST

I have to post but...

Once again life has gotten in the way of keeping up around here! Olivia is turning 10 today! My first double digit kid-o! I have lots of pic's to share from down the shore and Labor...
Posted by big fat fatty (40 lbs off - 60 to go) on Tue, 04 Sep 2007 05:08:00 PST

Okay! We got something...

Olivia is willing to work with me as we find another school we can afford! It's not a big deal to not start on day 1 and a lot of schools you contact in a fit the day before school start a...
Posted by big fat fatty (40 lbs off - 60 to go) on Tue, 28 Aug 2007 08:01:00 PST