Corazon de Melon

I am the product of my environment and the people in my life. GROWING UP WITH PROUD STRONG GUANACA WOMYN MADE ME A PROUD GUANACA. The directness, blunt nature and self confidence is inpired by my grandmother. Esa mujer es fearless, no one messes with her and people fear her. She is a strong mujer who has been my inspiration to suck it up and deal with it. I think of her when I am having a hard time being away from my family. Her journey and self-determination is what I work towards. Considerate, loving, passionate and work-a-holic nature I get from my mom. I have one forth of these qualities, I only wish to get to have 1/2 as much love and compassion my mom gives. She is the glue and heart of our family. My family would not survive with out her hard work. I believe my mom to be my soul mate. I know it can sound weird for many of yall out there but we went through a lot together. She grew up with me, as a single mother we were all we had a lot of the time. She has sacrificied so much and I hope to be as selfless as she. My aunt, crazy selene, well basically I get my radical and crazy fun nature from her. She was my inspiration to ask questions be critical and start my path of questioning and inquiry. We grew up like sisters, so much so that it feel weird to ever call her aunt, she is selene to me. She was my role model for so long and my support, in my strict as family. i tend to not break rules because the womyn in my family are a force to reckon with, but selene is the one that supports and understands the rules I have broken. My lil' Bros keep me young, I connect and keeps me grounded on not being those adults that cannot communicate with the youth. they thought me responsibility and Adrian who is 12 has thought me responsibility and patient, he can be so patient and responsible it really inpires me to work harder. Sebastian he is 6, helps me just remember how to play and enjoy life, he makes me laugh and love and want kids. My crazy baby cousin Leyla makes me realize how powerful and independent womyn/girlz can be she is 5 but she is a power to be reckon with that does not take shit from no one. i am afraid to fight her.Que en paz este mi tita linda, me a ensenado a amar los ninos y mantener la juventud como adulta. I miss her I lost her a long time ago but my name and spirit and even my looks come from her. She is the one that keeps portecting me in this world. i appreciate her as my guardian.My great grandmother thaught me you do not need a man, which brings me to the:The Sperm donor made me mistrust the male species, for a long time but the men I have met now give me hope. I get my unresponsible nature from him which I always battle.Well living in L.A. made me not realize for the longest that white folks existed. My teachers were the only ones that were white but I did not realize they were white. white folks just were not acknowledged apart of my world. Because I grew up in LA I LOVE TO DRIVE, I have been driving since I was 6 and 15 by my self. It is a trip to me wen folks cant drive, but LA also made me a bit of an aggressive driver.The Bay has helped me learn to question all the parts of my identity. From now starting to embrace a Xicana, QWOC identity, basically I do not want to be put in a box I dont want to fit a norm and do not want to support boxes that tend to oppress people.My political phylosophy is easy, I just cannot understand how people can cause others suffering, and how much pain and blood has been shed for something as insignificant as money. I cannot comprehend the idea of money and why it is necessary, and more important than human life. I just cannot sit and do nothing when i am apart of the system that oppresses others. I love working with youth because they have the energy to acknowledge the importance of life more than adults. They are not complicated with excuses like adults. the more they become adults the more excuses they create.well this is a piece of me. I edited my profile with Thomas' Myspace Editor V4.4