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About Me

32 years old, female Rutgers student, majoring in sociology. Authenticity is most important to me. Also I have OCD and just plain anxiety as well as social anxiety. I am open about it, to hell with the stigma, I don't think mental illnesses are anything to be ashamed of. I am also more than my illnesses, they are just a part of me. I am quiet but have a lot to say about certain things, at certain times, with certain people. I want to meet new friends who have some things in common with me.
You are "Bring me to life" by
Evanescence. Hopeless, depressed and soulless
are your keywords. Yet you have a hope, someone
who can see you for who you are.
Which of the rock songs that I like are you? (pics)
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Which stereotype do you fall under?
Loner
You tend to keep to yourself and like to be alone. Others may not know exactly how to categorize you and you probably like it that way.

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Faerie Midnight!
Dusky
like night, but night with all her stars,
Or
cavern sparkling with its native spars;
Wth
eyes that were a language and a spell,
A
form like Aphrodite's in her shell,
With all
her loves around her on the deep,
Voluptuous
as the first approach of sleep.
Lord
Byron 1788-1824
'The Island' (1823)
canto 2, st. 7
Dark, beautiful, brooding and
mysterious! You walk the night with silent
footsteps! ALONE! Bringing restless dreams, as
you pass! You prefer to be in your own company,
only occaisonaly bringing mortal lovers to your
bed. The black night entices you and you revel
in it's darkness! You stand alone! Needing no
one beside you! You dance somberly amongst the
stars! Self sufficient, strong and a dreamer!
You bring mystery into the world! Thoughtful,
sensitive and sombre! Lost in midnights allure!
But beware! While mysteries are enchanting!
Dont lose sight of friends and family! You have
one or two close friends! Who, you delight,
with your wonderful imagination!
Which Faerie Sonnet are you?...With Art work by Amy Brown!
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My Interests

Psychology, philosophy, spirituality, what is Reality?, reading, music, mental health issues, the human condition, angst, life and death, seeking knowledge, the human mind, awareness, mental blocks, love and hate, our existence, sweet, cute, and silly things.
Your word is: Brooding. You are a true thinker and
often try to figure out the meaning of life,
why we are all here etc. You may not be so
social, and often think twice before acting but
those thoughts you have in your mind never stop
flowing in. Sometimes you can be so
concentrated you forget about other things that
you have to do. Don't change, this world needs
deep people.

What dark word represents you? (anime pics and 7 outcomes)
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I'd like to meet:

anyone who shares things in common with me, such as interests in psychology, philosophy, music of all kinds, mental health issues, anti-bullying issues, or who have disorders. I love to meet unique individualistic people with minds of their own, and those who are open and real. I am eccentric and moody.Add me as a friend if you relate to me and want to talk more

Music:

TORI AMOS, Fiona Apple, PJ Harvey, Anna Domino, Deep Forest,Jewel,Corinna Fugate, Beth Orton, Evanescence, Pink Floyd, Bjork.. -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- eMP3finder.com Search Box End --

Movies:

V For Vendetta, X Men, One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest
Music is your salvation. Listening to songs is your
way to escape reality. You have an amazing
character but you don't know how to show it,
actually you don't care if people know this or
not. You look for artists who can say how you
feel. You appreciate the beauty you see in the
little things in life. ~~Just me and my obsession~~

What's your way to escape reality? What's your salvation?
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Television:

Law and Order SVU, The Wire, Six Feet Under, Oz
Compassion: Compassion is your prime instinct. You
have a truly beautiful soul, it belongs to
Heaven. It makes you sad to see how life became
so cruel, but you always hope that the best
will happen. Don't stop being yourself, cuz
your friends need you.

Books:

Eckhardt Tolle, Ken Wilber,Ralph Ellison's The Invisible Man, Herman Hesse books, Nobody Nowhere by Donna Williams, The Spiral Staircase: My Climb Out of Darkness by Karen Armstrong, Richard Wright's work, Strangers To Themselves: Readings On Mental Illness Edited by Gene and Barbara Stanford, Cry of the Invisible by Michael A. Susko, V For Vendetta (the graphic novel)

Heroes:

Survivors of traumatic experiences and mental illnesses who write books about their ordeal. Producers of great art, such as the writers and directors and actors of my favorite show, Six Feet Under.

My Blog

Update

Update-I'm doing okay, although some ups and downs, but I'm okay. Been tired a lot, and having trouble concentrating on my school stuff.
Posted by Nikki on Wed, 03 Oct 2007 03:44:00 PST

Depression

Not doing well. That dark visitor seems to be making its appearance again. I don't have many words for this, but it doesn't feel good.
Posted by Nikki on Fri, 21 Sep 2007 09:18:00 PST

Walls

People, sometimes you can't live with them can't live without them. I saw The Wall again tonight and it makes me think about building walls and not building walls, and disconnection versus connection....
Posted by Nikki on Sun, 16 Sep 2007 10:59:00 PST

Check out this video: High Hopes - Pink Floyd

Check out this video: High Hopes - Pink Floyd Add to My Profile | More Videos...
Posted by Nikki on Thu, 06 Sep 2007 04:11:00 PST

Thoughts And Feelings And Being

Maybe our thoughts and feelings are waves in an ocean of Being
Posted by Nikki on Sat, 04 Aug 2007 07:05:00 PST

The Prison Of Negative Thought (From Ryan)

----------------- Bulletin Message -----------------From: The 7th Son of HeremonDate: Jul 26, 2007 9:52 AM "It can be difficult to accept others and to accept ourselves. "I should be better. I should ...
Posted by Nikki on Thu, 26 Jul 2007 03:34:00 PST

Blown Away Again

Blown away again How hard to stay grounded Why is peace of mind so elusive? I tremble But most of you don't view me I reach out Hold onto a tree branch As the waters rise I hope they don't cover me....
Posted by Nikki on Thu, 12 Jul 2007 04:25:00 PST

More About Spirituality

I believe that spirituality includes many levels of reality and also transcends, but not by denying or repressing but by including and expanding.
Posted by Nikki on Thu, 24 May 2007 10:14:00 PST

Spirituality

Spiritual awakening, a spirituality that is authentic and inclusive, and seeks to understand consciousness and reality, and truth and love are essential.
Posted by Nikki on Thu, 24 May 2007 09:14:00 PST

The Force Within Us (Copied By A Post From Running Bear)

The Force WIthin UsWithin each of us is a force that directs and controls the entire course of life. Each of us has the power to discover the presence of this force and put it to use in reconstructing...
Posted by Nikki on Sun, 20 May 2007 06:59:00 PST