~archeology and theology
~going to gigs mainly metal, although I love dib dub- ~reggea/drum and base
~music
~moshing and dancing
~painting
~wood carving
~philosophical debates
~Jonny Dept filmsREAD THIS POEM IT IS BY FAR THE BEST POEM I HAVE EVER READ
it is ancient so parts of the poem are damaged.This is a translation.It is an ancient poem about the GoddessTHE GNOSTIC SOCIETY LIBRARYThe Nag Hammadi LibraryThe Thunder, Perfect Mind--------------------------------------------------------
------------------------Translated by George W. MacRaeI was sent forth from the power,and I have come to those who reflect upon me,
and I have been found among those who seek after me.
Look upon me, you who reflect upon me,
and you hearers, hear me.
You who are waiting for me, take me to yourselves.
And do not banish me from your sight.
And do not make your voice hate me, nor your hearing.
Do not be ignorant of me anywhere or any time. Be on your guard!
Do not be ignorant of me.
For I am the first and the last.
I am the honored one and the scorned one.
I am the whore and the holy one.
I am the wife and the virgin.
I am and the daughter.
I am the members of my mother.
I am the barren one
and many are her sons.
I am she whose wedding is great,
and I have not taken a husband.
I am the midwife and she who does not bear.
I am the solace of my labor pains.
I am the bride and the bridegroom,
and it is my husband who begot me.
I am the mother of my father
and the sister of my husband
and he is my offspring.
I am the slave of him who prepared me.
I am the ruler of my offspring.
But he is the one who begot me before the time on a birthday.
And he is my offspring in (due) time,
and my power is from him.
I am the staff of his power in his youth,
and he is the rod of my old age.
And whatever he wills happens to me.
I am the silence that is incomprehensible
and the idea whose remembrance is frequent.
I am the voice whose sound is manifold
and the word whose appearance is multiple.
I am the utterance of my name.
Why, you who hate me, do you love me,
and hate those who love me?
You who deny me, confess me,
and you who confess me, deny me.
You who tell the truth about me, lie about me,
and you who have lied about me, tell the truth about me.
You who know me, be ignorant of me,
and those who have not known me, let them know me.
For I am knowledge and ignorance.
I am shame and boldness.
I am shameless; I am ashamed.
I am strength and I am fear.
I am war and peace.
Give heed to me.
I am the one who is disgraced and the great one.
Give heed to my poverty and my wealth.
Do not be arrogant to me when I am cast out upon the earth,
and you will find me in those that are to come.
And do not look upon me on the dung-heap
nor go and leave me cast out,
and you will find me in the kingdoms.
And do not look upon me when I am cast out among those who
are disgraced and in the least places,
nor laugh at me.
And do not cast me out among those who are slain in violence.
But I, I am compassionate and I am cruel.
Be on your guard!
Do not hate my obedience
and do not love my self-control.
In my weakness, do not forsake me,
and do not be afraid of my power.
For why do you despise my fear
and curse my pride?
But I am she who exists in all fears
and strength in trembling.
I am she who is weak,
and I am well in a pleasant place.
I am senseless and I am wise.
Why have you hated me in your counsels?
For I shall be silent among those who are silent,
and I shall appear and speak,
Why then have you hated me, you Greeks?
Because I am a barbarian among the barbarians?
For I am the wisdom of the Greeks
and the knowledge of the barbarians.
I am the judgement of the Greeks and of the barbarians.
I am the one whose image is great in Egypt
and the one who has no image among the barbarians.
I am the one who has been hated everywhere
and who has been loved everywhere.
I am the one whom they call Life,
and you have called Death.
I am the one whom they call Law,
and you have called Lawlessness.
I am the one whom you have pursued,
and I am the one whom you have seized.
I am the one whom you have scattered,
and you have gathered me together.
I am the one before whom you have been ashamed,
and you have been shameless to me.
I am she who does not keep festival,
and I am she whose festivals are many.
I, I am godless,
and I am the one whose God is great.
I am the one whom you have reflected upon,
and you have scorned me.
I am unlearned,
and they learn from me.
I am the one that you have despised,
and you reflect upon me.
I am the one whom you have hidden from,
and you appear to me.
But whenever you hide yourselves,
I myself will appear.
For whenever you appear,
I myself will hide from you.
Those who have [...] to it [...] senselessly [...].
Take me [... understanding] from grief.
and take me to yourselves from understanding and grief.
And take me to yourselves from places that are ugly and in ruin,
and rob from those which are good even though in ugliness.
Out of shame, take me to yourselves shamelessly;
and out of shamelessness and shame,
upbraid my members in yourselves.
And come forward to me, you who know me
and you who know my members,
and establish the great ones among the small first creatures.
Come forward to childhood,
and do not despise it because it is small and it is little.
And do not turn away greatnesses in some parts from the smallnesses,
for the smallnesses are known from the greatnesses.
Why do you curse me and honor me?
You have wounded and you have had mercy.
Do not separate me from the first ones whom you have known.
And do not cast anyone out nor turn anyone away
[...] turn you away and [... know] him not.
[...].
What is mine [...].
I know the first ones and those after them know me.
But I am the mind of [...] and the rest of [...].
I am the knowledge of my inquiry,
and the finding of those who seek after me,
and the command of those who ask of me,
and the power of the powers in my knowledge
of the angels, who have been sent at my word,
and of gods in their seasons by my counsel,
and of spirits of every man who exists with me,
and of women who dwell within me.
I am the one who is honored, and who is praised,
and who is despised scornfully.
I am peace,
and war has come because of me.
And I am an alien and a citizen.
I am the substance and the one who has no substance.
Those who are without association with me are ignorant of me,
and those who are in my substance are the ones who know me.
Those who are close to me have been ignorant of me,
and those who are far away from me are the ones who have known me.
On the day when I am close to you, you are far away from me,
and on the day when I am far away from you, I am close to you.
[I am ...] within.
[I am ...] of the natures.
I am [...] of the creation of the spirits.
[...] request of the souls.
I am control and the uncontrollable.
I am the union and the dissolution.
I am the abiding and I am the dissolution.
I am the one below,
and they come up to me.
I am the judgment and the acquittal.
I, I am sinless,
and the root of sin derives from me.
I am lust in (outward) appearance,
and interior self-control exists within me.
I am the hearing which is attainable to everyone
and the speech which cannot be grasped.
I am a mute who does not speak,
and great is my multitude of words.
Hear me in gentleness, and learn of me in roughness.
I am she who cries out,
and I am cast forth upon the face of the earth.
I prepare the bread and my mind within.
I am the knowledge of my name.
I am the one who cries out,
and I listen.
I appear and [...] walk in [...] seal of my [...].
I am [...] the defense [...].
I am the one who is called Truth
and iniquity [...].
You honor me [...] and you whisper against me.
You who are vanquished, judge them (who vanquish you)
before they give judgment against you,
because the judge and partiality exist in you.
If you are condemned by this one, who will acquit you?
Or, if you are acquitted by him, who will be able to detain you?
For what is inside of you is what is outside of you,
and the one who fashions you on the outside
is the one who shaped the inside of you.
And what you see outside of you, you see inside of you;
it is visible and it is your garment.
Hear me, you hearers
and learn of my words, you who know me.
I am the hearing that is attainable to everything;
I am the speech that cannot be grasped.
I am the name of the sound
and the sound of the name.
I am the sign of the letter
and the designation of the division.
And I [...].
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[...] light [...].
[...] hearers [...] to you
[...] the great power.
And [...] will not move the name.
[...] to the one who created me.
And I will speak his name.
Look then at his words
and all the writings which have been completed.
Give heed then, you hearers
and you also, the angels and those who have been sent,
and you spirits who have arisen from the dead.
For I am the one who alone exists,
and I have no one who will judge me.
For many are the pleasant forms which exist in numerous sins,
and incontinencies,
and disgraceful passions,
and fleeting pleasures,
which (men) embrace until they become sober
and go up to their resting place.
And they will find me there,
and they will live,
and they will not die again.Selection made from James M. Robinson, ed., The Nag Hammadi Library, revised edition. HarperCollins, San Francisco, 1990.| Nag Hammadi Library | Gnostic Society Library | Gnosis Archive |
I'd like to meet:
Any like minded people and would be very interested in
meeting people of the spiritual/pagan variety as I know few people like myself in that aspect, can be shaman, mediums, psycics, druids, wiccan, lightworkers etc.Anyone who has any interest in the crystal skulls.ANYONE FROM THE SHISHONE TRIBE!anyone searching for something you may find it here- www.hope-and-light.org
[email protected]
Anyone into metal especially tribal metal or tribal music,and calling all muse fans!Anyone into fantasy novels- yes it may seem sad but that world can sometimes be far more enjoyable than this capatalist christian ruled world-I especially love Maggie Furey, and Terry BrooksAnyone interested in archeology and theology.Anyone into folk art
Music:
Metal, rock, reggea, reggea/drum and base, blues,gospel (not the christian part I just think its so beatiful and uplifting-especially since I mostly listen to metal and rock which isnt generally very cheerfull)
muse,
korn,
seether,
soulfly(pls I need to know more trbal metal bands!!!) , rage against the machine!!,
skindread (regea metal what a briliant idea),
skunk and ansie,
system of a down,
rammstien,
mudveyne,
rapeseed,
slipknot,
maralyn manson,
blue october,
snow patrol,
the feeling.
Movies:
PANS LABARINTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!MUST BE SEEN ITS BRILLIANT (could almost be a Tim burton film)
house of flying daggers
butterfly affect
memoirs of geisha
benny and june(Jonny Dept)
battle royele 1 and 2
drop dead fred
beetlejuice
pirates of the carabian 1 and 2(Jonny Dept)
Television:
dont much like television.
I used to watch most haunted and sad to say I used to love- buffy, angel,charmed.
I do like-
never mind the buzzcocks
QI
friday nite with Jonotan Ross
any comedy stand up
Books:
~The aurian series by Maggie Furey is my favourite.
~Holy isle- fire in the mist by someone
~Terry books shannara series- im up to the druid of shannara
~Havnt read all of it but is brilliant-the secret school-sci fi suposed to be real
~Wicca by Vivian crowly- dont be put off by crowly coz shes not like allister crowly
Heroes:
Carl Jung
TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:
Birthday:
Birthplace:
Current Location:
Eye Color: blue
Hair Color: blond- or blue green or red whatever I feel like
Height:
Right Handed or Left Handed:
Your Heritage: Devonshire, Irish, Italian
The Shoes You Wore Today:
Your Weakness: sausages
Your Fears:
Your Perfect Pizza:
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: pass my courseso I acn do archeology
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:
Thoughts First Waking Up:
Your Best Physical Feature:
Your Bedtime: 3 am
Your Most Missed Memory:
Pepsi or Coke: evil corprate company
MacDonalds or Burger King: evil corprate company
Single or Group Dates:
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee:
Do you Smoke: yes
Do you Swear:
Do you Sing: yes
Do you Shower Daily:
Have you Been in Love: yes
Do you want to go to College: I do
Do you want to get Married: mabe one day
Do you belive in yourself: yes
Do you get Motion Sickness:
Do you think you are Attractive:
Are you a Health Freak:
Do you get along with your Parents: I love my mum
Do you like Thunderstorms: They inspire me
Do you play an Instrument: drums
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: yes
In the past month have you Smoked: yes
In the past month have you been on Drugs:
In the past month have you gone on a Date: yes
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: no why is that question neceserry
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: yes
In the past month have you been on Stage:
In the past month have you been Dumped:
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:
Ever been Drunk: yes
Ever been called a Tease:
Ever been Beaten up:
Ever Shoplifted:
How do you want to Die:
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: be an archeologist, a spiritualist medium, write books about spiritual experiences- I want to travel and spend time with some siberian shamans (past life discovery)
What country would you most like to Visit:
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: nearly Black
Favourite Hair Color: black
Short or Long Hair: long!
Height:
Weight:
Best Clothing Style: comfortable with own being so whatever but don't generally go for anyone in a suit or sporty types
Number of Drugs I have taken: 3
Number of CDs I own: lots
Number of Piercings: 6
Number of Tattoos:
Number of things in my Past I Regret: nothing- no one should live in regret life is for learning amoungst other things
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