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GrayAntiMatter

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About Me


If you want to know something, ask. Really. I’m pretty fucking open.
My name is Jason, and I don’t do much of anything anymore. If you’re feeling inspired, and aren’t going to annoy or bore me to death, feel free to try to talk to me on IM:
AIM - GrayAntiMatter
Yahoo IM - GrayAntiMatter
I'm basically here to kill time. Fuck it. Killing time is FUN! I post too many bulletins, but at least they’re not whore trains, just stupid surveys (but mine are actually funny as hell, just ask all my friends). If too many bulletins bother you, then go away.
I have two kids, with my ex-wife. They are the focus of my life. I’m still here, for them. They're awesome kids, cute, smart, and funny. I know all parents say that, but it’s actually true with my kids! Some people keep telling me that cute kids are a great way to get chicks, I still haven't figured out how to do that yet, but I'm working on it.
Basically, I'm a homebody. I don't go out too much anymore. I can piss people off, annoy the hell out of them actually. But I'm just a harmless smart ass, so why get your panties all bunched over it? Really, if you can't laugh at yourself, don't worry about it, the rest of us will still be laughing at you. Some people get the jokes, some people are the jokes.
I was born in Southern California, but moved around quite a bit when I was younger. A lot of people whine about that type of thing and I don’t understand why. I got to meet a lot of people, I survived it, and it’s really pretty much the norm anymore. I lived in Mississippi and Texas for awhile. I did a lot of growing up in Anchorage, AK. I made it back to California in time to graduate high school. While in back in California I met a great lady. We ended up getting married, moved to Las Vegas and had two children together. 15 years later, we went our separate ways. We’re still great friends, and I hope that part doesn’t change.
On November 22nd, 2005 I was riding my motorcycle in Las Vegas on Ft. Apache, near Charleston. Someone shot out of a parking lot and ran into me. It was a pretty viscous accident. I was out for a month, I spent 16 months in the hospital. I broke my back, included spinal cord damage at T3/T4. So, I won’t be riding a motorcycle again anytime soon, instead I get to ride around in a wheelchair the rest of my life. It’s cool though, chicks dig gimps!
I like to waste time doing things like watching silly shows on TV. I like to kill time on-line (message board, chat, IM, Myspace). I make sure I read Get Fuzzy every day, because it’s the greatest comic strip in the history of the world. Penny Arcade , Sinfest , Pearls Before Swine and Marmaduke Explained are good too, but they can’t touch Get Fuzzy. I love to get my “alone time” by hopping in the car and driving around for five hours with no place in particular to go, unfortunately I haven’t been able to do that for two years. But I’ll be doing it again soon! I miss not being able to eat cereal, but milk fucks with me since the accident. I love chewy granola bars w/yogurt! Fast food owns my soul! I like doing fun shit with my kids, and I love getting them hooked on new music, including some songs they probably shouldn’t be listening too. Getting a call from their pre-school because they were singing Manson – This Is The New Shit, good times! I also spoil the hell out of my kids. The last time I got to spend a Christmas with them, back before the accident, they had a 6k Christmas. I can annoy pretty much ANYONE, and I usually enjoy doing it. I like to make fun of people, its great entertainment. I wear t-shirts that say smart ass crap. I like watching racing on TV. I hate it when I can’t sleep at night (every night). I like filet mignon. I hate seafood, especially shellfish. I like Mexican food, especially Frank & Finas Cocina, and In-N-Out is proof that good loves us. I almost never drink, but when I do, I get drunk and am an asshole (which explains why I don't drink much...). I like to fly, I just hate airports. I have two half brothers, because my mom got around. I've never met my "dad", I actually don't even know (or care) what his name is. I think lawyers are pure evil and should all be killed. I think divorce lawyers are even worse than criminal defense attorneys, and they should all be burnt alive after months of bloody torture, and then their ashes shot into the sun.
I’m thinking of taking up self-medicating next week, if time allows.
When you're done reading all about me, go ahead and take GrayAntiMatter's Big Gay Quiz! So far over fifty people have tried their luck, but it looks like TinaLu and my ex-wife are the ones that love me the most. Even Stevie Rachelle took a shot at it!
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If you're really bored, feel free to check out my profiles at other "social networking" websites, which I pretty much never login to. They all say the same shit that I say here...Knock yourself out!
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Now that you’re all caught up on the magnificence that is me, now that you’re totally enamored with me, feel free to spend your hard earned cash on me! Buy me shit! I accept gifts year-round, whatever the season, whatever the reason. Start with my Amazon.com wish lists! Buy me a CD or a DVD! Face it, I deserve it.
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My Interests

My interests are my children. Everything else is secondary. I like to watch funny shit on TV like South Park, I like to blast music that annoys people, and I like to drive WAY too fucking fast.

I like to waste time on the internet, but I've realizing that in many ways, I'm getting bored with it. Myspace is still providing some entertainment though.

I dig the hell out of racing. And for those of you that don't, just know I don't give a fuck what you think. I dig the hell out of Motor sports of any kind. I love ChampCar , NASCAR Cup and CTS , NHRA , IHRA, WRC, F1, IndyCar, SCORE, whatever. If it has four wheels and races, I dig it. My favorite drivers are:
Robby Gordon
Paul Tracy
Juan Pablo Montoya
Justin Wilson
Tony Stewart
Carl Edwards
Kurt Busch
Kyle Busch
Casey Mears
Buddy Rice
AJ Allmendinger
Ken Schrader
Mark Martin
Jason Leffler
Ryan Hunter-Reay
Cruz Pedregon
Frank Pedregon
Tony Pedgregon
Gary Scelzi
Tony Schumacher
Scott Speed
PJ Jones
Memo Gidley
Ron Fellows
Boris Said
Dan Wheldon
Darren Manning
Clay Millican
Joey Saldana
Greg Biffle
Tomas Scheckter
Robert Doornbos
Will Power
Marcos Ambrose
Bruno Junqeira
Oriol Servia
Whit Bazemore
Dave Grubnic
Steve Kinser
Sebastien Bourdais
Sebastian Vettel
Heikki Kovalainen
Jan Magnussen
Timo Glock
Mike Bliss
Sebastian Loeb

I'd like to meet:

Myself.

God.

I don’t have a hard on for celebrity the way so many other people do. I think it’s pretty lame actually. That’s not the say that I don’t ever want to meet people that happen to be celebrities. I think there are some that seem like they would be pretty cool people. I’m just not all that impressed by celebrity itself.

There are some people in the on-line friends world I definitely need to hang out with sooner or later. They know who they are!

But as far as Myspace goes, I’m pretty open. Just have something to say damn it!

Music:



I grew up in the 80s and still listen to hair bands and new wave. I like some of the stuff from the early 90s, but a lot of it bores me to tears. I've always thought Metallica pretty much sucked and saw no point in bothering with them, when Megadeth or Anthrax were available. GnR was awesome, but does anyone really still expect Chinese Democracy anytime soon, or ever even? I like cliche punk bands, and I think the Ramones had one good song, that they played over and over and over and over giving it a different title each time. The Misfits are still The Misfits, even without the Keebler Elf Of Hate (For those of you slow on the up take, that’s Danzig), and One Million Years BC is probably my favorite song by The Misfits, screw anyone that tries to qualify it with this “Graves Era” garbage. I never really cared about Joy Division or New Order. I think The Smiths are in my CD player right now, but maybe it could be Pantera, I get those two confused all the time. I like all the nu-metal and rap/rock (wow, dumber labels than hair bands and grunge, who would have thought that was possible?) that so many of my friends loathe. I listen to classical music in the car when I'm on the way to important meetings, I think it helps keep me from snapping off at the fucktards the way I am prone to do. I've been driving people nuts for the last three years whistling Ravel's Bolero everywhere I go. I hate listening to people explain to me why their taste is music is so great, and everyone else's sucks. Worthless pretentious fucks. Your opinion is no more or less valid than anyone elses, I don't give a rats ass what you think. I like stuff I used to hate, like all these damn pop-punk bands. I always liked Green Day and The Offspring, but I guess Blink-182 is an acquired taste, that somehow, I acquired. Must have been Dammit, great song. I still like Steve Vai, Joe Satriani and Eric Johnson, but all the rest of the guys wanking off on guitar, its boring, please stop. Hell, at this point I prefer to listen to someone like Bobby Rock wank it on drums. Now, how did the most bad ass drummer the world has ever seen end up playing in all three of the biggest "joke" hairbands, Nelson, Nitro and Vinnie Vincents Invasion? Fuck it, I like all three of them. I like listening to new bands and things I've never heard before. I like Cold, because their music is simply sincere, it’s genuine. 13 Ways To Bleed Onstage hurts to listen to, but in a good way. I love The Cure and Robert Smith is the only true genius that pop culture has ever spawned. I don’t ever want to hear another debate over who is better, Halford or Dickinson because frankly Tate and Bach bury both of them. I think Dimebag (or Diamond) getting shot on stage is one of the must fucked up things I’ve ever heard of happening. I like Nine Inch Nails, but I hate Trent worshippers. I think Led Zeppelin is overrated. I love cover songs, except when they’re really just pathetic beyond words (Sheryl Crow and Madonna should never be allowed to do covers again. Ever!). I like listening to Jim Croce, Gordon Lightfoot and Harry Nilsson. I hate listening to great vocalists screech like a cat being run over by a car. I don’t ever need to hear Whitney or Mariah caterwauling again. I think Atreyu is bad ass and I’ve actually gotten hooked on Killswitch Engage. How did that happen? I swing back and forth in my level of tolerance for Country and Rap and at this moment they’re both at all time lows. I love sappy love songs and I like angry hateful songs too. I never understood the fascination with boy bands. Bowling For Soup cracks me up, they’re FAN FUCKING TASTIC! That 500lbs guitarist is comedy gold. The only thing on earth funnier, is watching Dee Snider flip his hair over shoulder as he testifies before congress. What a douche.. I was a wee little thing in Southern California in the 70s, so of course I was overloaded with The Eagles and Fleetwood Mac in my early youth. I thought it was good stuff, but these $300 a ticket, rip off the past, reunion tours make me sick to my stomach. I defended Kiss in the 80s and I can’t stand them now. I think Enuff Z’Nuff – Loser Of The World is my own personal theme song at this particular moment. It may change to before I’m done typing this though. Zakk, from RATM, is the most annoying fucktard the music industry has seen in 40 years, save for Billy Corgan. Marilyn Manson is no better than Fred Durst, so he should probably just shut the fuck up. I’ll take Live over Creed, but I have to admit that Arms Wide Open really did hit hard, being played so much just two months before my first son was born. I like Love Spit Love and Love and Rockets. I like listening to the oldies station every now and then, especially if they’re playing some Beach Boys. 90% of the speeding tickets I’ve received in my life (and there have been a lot of them) have come with the Beach Boys blasting. I like songs like Rammstein – Du Hast and Nonpoint – Rabia, even though I have no fucking clue what they are saying. I don’t like to go to concerts by myself, I did that once to see COLD, and frankly it kind of sucked being there without anyone I knew. And now, it sucks since I really don't have anyone to go to concerts with. John5 is a bad ass guitarist and I dig his stuff with Manson, Zombie and as a solo artist, but I'm damn sure no one actually made it all the way through this to read just how great John5 is. Finally, I think I have changed my mind on my theme song, I'm going go with Ra - Only.

What did you expect, a short, but incomplete list of bands that I like? Like this one?


Hypnogaja
The Cure
COLD


Nonpoint
Jane's Addiction
Stone Sour
Beach Boys
Further Seems Forever
Megadeth
Love Spit Love
No Use For A Name
Atreyu
Slow To Surface
Slipknot
Mudvayne
Dope
Pantera
Queensrÿche
Depeche Mode
Mars Electric
Killingbird
Korn
Stone Temple Pilots
Talking Heads
Poison
Live
Blink 182
Nine Inch Nails
Dropkick Murphys
From Autumn To Ashes
PiMP
Foo Fighters
Mötley Crüe
Staind
Puddle Of Mudd
Guns N Roses
Breaking Benjamin
Love and Rockets
Trust Compay
Green Day
The Offspring
The Vandals
System Of A Down
Matchbox Twenty
My Chemical Romance
Professional Murder Music
Dokken
Flogging Molly
Linkin Park
Hoobastank
New Found Glory
Whole Wheat Bread
Story Of The Year
Faster Pussycat
Simple Plan
Cheap Trick
Steve Vai
Anthrax
Ra
The Killers
Trapt
Smile Empty Soul
Disturbed
Godsmack
Psychedelic Furs
Van Halen
Bowling For Soup
Weezer
Thrice
AFI
Earshot
MxPx
Rancid
Sex Pistols
Garbage
Def Leppard
Misfits
Good Charlotte
Agent Orange
Dead Kennedys
Adema
Killswitch Engage
Billy Idol
Bobby Rock
John 5

And a bunch of other crap....

Now here are some widgets from Last.fm:

Feel free to hook me up there. GrayAntiMatter’s Last.fm profile

Movies:

Add me to your Netflix friends, so I can mock your movie choices!
Now, as movies go, the golden rule is; Make me laugh!! That's the rule!
I've decided that going to the movies is pretty much a waste of time and money, especially with my new found gimp status. Not all theatres have a gimp section, and it’s a real pain the ass to wheel around with a large soda, popcorn and gummy bears. The sad truth is that most movies aren't worth the time it takes to watch them. But every now and then, a gem shines through. Personally, I like comedies, fucking make me laugh mother fuckers! Period pieces are usually good, because if the actor actually can pull off the language, I'm impressed, and if they can't, I laugh my ass off. Anyone remember Keanu Reeves in Much Ado About Nothing? Come on, that's fucking comedy gold right there. And in the same movie, Denzel Washington and Keneth Branagh pull it off to perfection. I like drama's with good stories, far too many of them bore me though. On the whole, I don't care for the romantic comdey "chick flick" crap, 'cause so many of them are really just the same story over and over. If you want some good ones, try Love Actually or Gray Matters. Action movies? Tend to be boring, special effects and fight scenes don't make up for the lack of story, you know? Sci-Fi? While I grew up a Star Wars freak, I'm no huge fan of Sci-Fi. Stars Wars success was based on a quality story, but most sci-fi is pathetic crap. Anything that uses special effects to overcome the lack of story, ala the Matrix series, is drivel. Westerns? Thank god they don't make that crap anymore. Horrors? Of course, being named Jason I had to watch Friday the 13th, and the first was bad ass. Omen fucking rocked too. Otherwise, of all the crap people watch, this one makes the least sense to me. If you're 12 to 18 and trying to get laid, sure, take a chick to a horror movie. Otherwise? You've got to be kidding me, right?
But with that, there is some stuff that I actually do like.
Office Space, greatest movie EVER! It’s not a comedy, it’s a fucking documentary! And the best one ever.
Some other quality flicks:
South Park - Bigger Longer Uncut, Star Wars, Empire Strikes Back, Empire Records, SLC Punk, Boondock Saints, Love Actually, Secondhand Lions, Quills, Fools Rush In, The Breakfast Club, Amadeus, American Beauty, Donnie Darko, Whats Eating Gilbert Grape, Trading Places, The Lost Boys, Coming To America, Big Trouble in Little China, Dust To Glory, Big Trouble, Full Metal Jacket, MURDERBALL, Gray Matters, BASEketball, Beavis and Butthead Do America, Beverly Hills Cop, Blazing Saddles, Dead Again, Dead Poets Society, Dogma, Ferris Buellers Day Off, House Of Sand And Fog, The Iron Giant, The Last Emperor, The LOTR trilogy, Scrooged, The Simpsons Movie, Team America: World Police, Who Framed Roger Rabbit, Riding Alone For Thousands Of Miles (Qian li zou dan qi), The Italian (Italianetz), Hero (Ying Xiong.

Television:

Is this where I get to act all snobby, elitist and condescending and tell you how bad television is and how I don’t watch it? Fuck it. I like TV. Hell, I LOVE TV. And yet it does bore the shit out of me most of the time. I’m the idiot that the box is named for.
I happen to think the best series on TV the last decade or so, are all animated. South Park is the greatest thing to happen to Television since color. Cracks me up every time, I love their irreverence. At some point, during every episode, I sit back and say “Holy Shit, I can’t fucking believe they did that”. They’re pretty much the only reality based characters on television, and they provide social commentary, without being condescending pricks about it. GREAT STUFF!
The Simpsons are STILL FUNNY. Fuck people that sit around say shit like “Yeah, they USED to be good, but since the fourth season, they’ve sucked.” If we ever hang out, expect random Simpsons dialog and quotes to pop up throughout the day. Its just the way things work. Favorites will include “Sleep! That’s where I’m a Viking!”, and “GREASE ME UP WOMAN!”.
I like Aqua Teen Hunger Force and Family Guy. Futurama kicks ass. American Dad is ok, but BLAH. I miss The Critic.
I hate reality TV shows, and the only thing I care about from American Idol, is when is Kelly Clarkson going to pose nude
Game shows are evil, and MTV/VH1 both suck. But, I do like the OTHER MTV and VH1 channels. Who knew they still played music? God bless digital cable, now I have 500 channels of crap. The new MTV hooked my dumb ass on Killswitch Engage somehow, and I actually still get to see Enuff Z’Nuff videos, ‘cause man I just can’t make it through the week without Fly High Michelle
I hate the SpeedChannel, now they don’t show races and just a bunch of gay ass generic car shows.
I think Most Extreme Elimination Challenge may well be one of the funniest damn things that I’ve ever seen in my life
Most sit-coms on TV, have situations, but not comedy. Throwing in an obnoxious gay character, does not make it a good show. Most dramas, have more of the funny than the sit-coms, which is just more proof of how much most TV shows suck.

Books:

I think I've read my share of books in my life. Some good some bad. I liked most of them actually, they were worth the time and effort to read. But to be completley honest, I've all but given up on reading the last five years. I think the only real book I've read in that time is Elective Affinities - Goethe. Yeah, it is a great story, and I read it for a very specific reason, but that's it for me. Nothing else in five fucking years? I used to not go more than a month without at least one new book. AT LEAST. Ah well, fuck it. I have the internet to kill time with now, who the fuck needs to read!

With that, with all the crap I've read in my life, one piece of literature stands head and shoulders above all others. Don Quixote de la Mancha - Miguel de Cervantes

Thats me...chasing windmills...
And maybe the lady Dulcinea....
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Heroes:

My children are my only heros. They redefined my life for me in ways that I could never have imagined before. Every time I see them, whatever has been wrong in my day fades away; whomever has pissed me off, is forgotten for the time; whatever disappointment has been presented, is simply no longer an issue. Nothing is wrong in the world when they come runnnig up, arms raised, shouting "Daddy! Daddy! Daddy!"

Simply put, they inspire me, to be better than I actually am, in every way possible.

Their Photo Blog. Go. Comment! Admit to their overwhelming cuteness!

My Blog

Everything at Disneyland costs way too damn much

So earlier this month Sonja and Daniel were going to bring the boys down, tow their boat and we were going to hit up the lake down here for a couple of days. While I'm at Kohl's, checking out buying s...
Posted by GrayAntiMatter on Fri, 29 Aug 2008 02:20:00 PST

Sometimes you think you should feel a certain way, and you just dont.

Sometimes you think you should feel a certain way, and you just don't. Apparently, (one of) my step-dad(s) passed away a few days ago. Yeah, I'm shocked too! I thought he died, like four or five years...
Posted by GrayAntiMatter on Thu, 14 Aug 2008 03:16:00 PST

Strapped into the bed of the truck....

So, by request, here is the basic story of my adventures in gravel a few weeks ago. My brother asked if I wanted to go with him, to pick up my nephew from camp up at Idyllwild. 'Cause face it, every t...
Posted by GrayAntiMatter on Sat, 12 Jul 2008 11:58:00 PST

"A journey of a thousand miles must begin with a single step" - Lao Tzu

Ever want to write a blog but not have any idea what you wanted to say? Yeah, it happens. Today is the one year anniversary of my release from hell (the hospital). It's still awkward. In many ways, I'...
Posted by GrayAntiMatter on Tue, 22 Apr 2008 08:53:00 PST

Invalid Subject Line

So I had my follow up today to check on the leg. The entertainment began when I was called back by radiology. Since it was just me there and a radiology technician on her first day, it was a fun ...
Posted by GrayAntiMatter on Thu, 17 Apr 2008 11:07:00 PST

NOTHING FOR OLD TIMES SAKE!

NOTHING FOR OLD TIMES SAKE! So, I made the trek up north again, to see my kids for Easter! Yeah, I know I said I wasn’t going to go. I lie a lot. You should know this by now. I didn’t actu...
Posted by GrayAntiMatter on Sat, 05 Apr 2008 10:48:00 PST

BEEFCAKE!

BEEFCAKE! So what new adventures have come my way? Well, as usual those of you following know that exactly two weeks ago while out and about in the world I "injured" myself while transferring into my ...
Posted by GrayAntiMatter on Fri, 14 Mar 2008 01:44:00 PST

In Dog Years, You’re Still A Bitch!

A brief discussion of my adventures yesterday: Really, nothing too special planned, but my brother came down to help me run some errands. For some reason, he showed up about an hour before he was supp...
Posted by GrayAntiMatter on Sat, 01 Mar 2008 05:33:00 PST

Not My Birthday

Not my Birthday, but still a good time!   So I went up north for Keegan's birthday over the weekend. This was pretty awesome. The last time I was up there was back in December for Kieran's birth...
Posted by GrayAntiMatter on Thu, 21 Feb 2008 02:39:00 PST

Notes to go with the pictures from the last blog

So, information keeps trickling in now. I just got some witness statements and stuff from the accident along with the police diagram (if I had a scanner available, I'd totally share it for you informa...
Posted by GrayAntiMatter on Wed, 19 Dec 2007 03:26:00 PST