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"Almond eyes
Black flamed hair
Kill me with your subtle stare
Ravenous wolves come out the den
She floats away
To come again."
Written for me from my dear friend PIST... He is one of two that suffers the same as I do....
"I'd rather kill the radio and listen to the rain hit... lil sista needs seclusion... got used to the feeling of falling, but you'll neva see her following, bouncing back and forth between the healing and the hollaring, riding the outering of your own private Saturn, thoughts scattered all across the gray matter... if you let'em know that you're vulnerable then there ain't no stoppin' how far they open you slow... she holds no history of how precious she be..." Some of you probably don't understand or care about those lyrics, but it's from the 15th song off of ATMOSPHERE's "God Loves Ugly" album. My friend, POLAR, said that I remind him of that song, and it's my favorite song by Atmosphere.
To start off with I am a very kind (WARNING: Please do not mistake my kindness as a weakness...), passionate, guarded, polite, goofy, weird, sarcastic, thoughtful, energectic, honest, blunt, spiritual, mysterious, curious, ambitious, independent, feisty, eccentric, demented, compassionate and sweet PRiSSY tOMbOY who will leave you WANDERING LIKE A GYPSY.
Passion consumes my ardent being...
Most people only see my happier side, but people who know me well know that I've always had a lot of anger and sorrow pent up within myself. I have many layers. You'll be peeling one off just to find another, and then more....
It's always dark behind my smile... "A person who finds happiness in suffering and pain disappears into grief with a thousand new disguises." -RUMI
My life seems to be a contradiction at times because of the oppositions I encounter.
I'M ALWAYS IN SEARCH FOR MY OWN PEACE OF MIND... I DO CHERISH WHAT I HAVE, BUT KNOW THAT IT IS NEVER ENOUGH.... I'M IN SEARCH OF A HIGHER LEARNING ... I look for meaning in everything.
I usually feel like an outsider...
I'm in my own time zone.
LOVE is what keeps me from pushing and dragging the blade down any deeper.
I'm in love with being in love, but I'm too afraid to let myself fall for anyone anymore.
I just want to do things that make me really happy. My desire for happiness is really the bottom line...
I love the snow... It reminds me of my childhood in Canada and Detroit....
I feel free when I dance...
I am often called TROUBLE, or am told I am TROUBLE... Whatever!
I crack myself up!
People generally make me a bit nervous, because I don't know what their intentions may be... I genuinely care about people, friend or foe, I could never hold a grudge. I love to make people laugh and smile, and inspire'em to do productive things with their lives. BUT, let's get one thing straight, if you mess with my friends or family, or pop your mouth off in the wrong way DON'T THINK I'LL HESITATE TO BLAST YOU IN THE FACE, PUNCH YOU IN THE THROAT, or KICK YOUR FUCKIN' TEETH IN!!!
For those of you who know of what I do, your fan mail is much appreciated. It flatters me to see that you know who I am though I went under an alias name. And please do not be bitter at me if I do not respond to your mail right away or at all. I sift through a lot of mail at times and I am not good at getting back to everyone