I Wish the real world would just stop hassling me profile picture

I Wish the real world would just stop hassling me

Life is absurd & this is all there is

About Me

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Commander Lock:"Not everyone believes what you do Morpheus."
Morpheus:"My beliefs do not require them to." -The Matrix Reloaded
"i've walked sometimes confused, sometimes ready to crack open wide, sometimes indignant, sometimes raw" - Alanis

"...the brains I had went to my head" - Oasis


"I may know the word but not say it
I may know the truth but not face it
I may hear a sound, a whisper sacred and profound but turn my head indifferent
I may know the word but not say it
I may love the fruit but not taste it
I may know the way to comfort and to soothe a worried face but fold my hands indifferent
If I'm on my knees I'm begging now
if I'm on my knees groping in the dark
I'd be paying for deliverance from the night into day
but it's all grey here it's all grey to me
I may know the word but not say it
this may be the time but I might waste it
this may be the hour something move me someone prove me wrong before the night comes with indifference
if I'm on my knees, I'm begging now
If I'm on my knees groping in the dark
I'd be praying for deliverance from the night into the day
but it's all grey here
but it's all grey to me
I recognize the walls inside me
I recognize them all
I've paced between them chasing demons down until they fall in fitful sleep
enough to keep their strength
enough to crawl into my head with tangled threads
they riddle me to solve again and again and again"
-by Natalie Merchant

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"I am the biggest hypocrite
I've been undeniably jealous
I have been loud and pretentious
I have been utterly threatened
I've gotten candy for my self-interest, the sexy treadmill capitalist
heaven forbid i be criticized
heaven forbid i be ignored
i have abused my power forgive me, you mean we actually are all one?
i've been out of reach and separatist, heaven forbid average (whatever average means)
i have been compensated for my days of powerlessness
i have abused my so-called power forgive me, you mean we actually are all one?
did you just call her amazing? surely we both can't be amazing! and give up my hard earned status as fabulous freak of nature?
I have abused my power forgive me you mean we actually are all one?
always looked good on paper
sounded good in theory"
-"One" by Alanis Morissette

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"dear dar(lin') your mom (my friend) left a message on my machine
she was frantic saying you were talking crazy that you wanted to do away with yourself
I guess she thought i'd be a perfect resort because we've had this inexplicable connection since our youth
and yes they're in shock they are panicked you and your chronic them and their drama
you this embarrassment us in the middle of this delusion if we were our bodies if we were our futures if we were our defenses, i'd be joining you if we were our culture if we were our leaders if we were our denials, i'd be joining you
I remember vividly a day years ago we were camping, you knew more than you thought you should know, you said "I don't want ever to be brainwashed" and you were mindboggling, you were intense, you were uncomfortable in your own skin, you were thirsty but mostly you were beautiful if we were our nametags if we were our rejections if we were our outcomes i'd be joining you if we were our indignities if we were our successes if we were our emotions i'd be joining you
you and i we're like four year olds we want to know why and how come about everything, we want to reveal ourselves at will and speak our minds
and never talk small and be intuitive and question mightily and find god
my tortured beacon we need to find like-minded companions if we were their condemnations if we were their projections if we were our paranoias i'd be joining you if we were our incomes if we were our obsessions if we were our afflictions i'd be joining you
we need reflection, we need a really good memory, feel free to call me a little more often"
-"Joining You" by Alanis Morissette


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"i can be an asshole of the grandest kind
I can withhold like it's going out of style
I can be the moodiest baby and you've never met anyone Who is as negative as I am sometimes


I am the wisest woman you've ever met
I am the kindest soul with whom you've connected
i have the bravest heart that you've ever seen and you've never met anyone Who is as positive as I am sometimes


you see everything you see every part you see all my light and you love my dark you dig everything of which I'm ashamed There's not anything to which you can't relate And you're still here


i blame everyone else & not my own partaking
my passive aggressive-ness can be devastating
I'm terrified and mistrusting and you've never met anyone Who is as closed down as I am sometimes


you see everything you see every part you see all my light and you love my dark you dig everything of which I'm ashamed There's not anything to which you can't relate And you're still here


What I resist persists and speaks louder than i know
What i resist you love no matter how low or high I go
I am the funniest woman that you've ever known
I am the dullest woman that you've ever known
I'm the most gorgeous woman that you've ever known and you've never met anyone Who is as everything as I am sometimes


you see everything you see every part you see all my light and you love my dark you dig everything of which I'm ashamed There's not anything to which you can't relate And you're still here"


-"Everything" by Alanis Morissette

My Interests

Spirituality, Chemistry(most science & math topics actually), Music - I'm secretly hoping for a revival of the rave culture, I'm dying to go to a rave

I'd like to meet:

kindred spirits, people who simply by the example of how they live their life inspire me to be a better person, people who embrace spirituality or at least have an interest in it(I am not talking about religion here), people who desire radical change for our society, someone to rub my back, seriously! it's so sore & tight from work, just honest people i can trust,Alanis Morissette, one fairy godmother please, ex-mental patients(or current), ex-cons,

Music:

Hip Hop, Dance, Techno, House, Trance, 80s music

Movies:

Over the Hedge, Finding Nemo, Brother Bear,Shark Tale, K-Pax, The Hours, Girl Interrupted, The life of David Gale, The Final Cut, The Matrix Trilogy!!!

Television:

Law & Order, Family Guy, South Park

Books:

The Power of Now, A New Earth, The Invitation, The Call, The Catcher in the Rye, The Four Agreements, The DaVinci Code, The Tao of Pooh, Math & Science Textbooks

Heroes:

my grandmother, my mom

My Blog

Melange of Mess....

Miranda & I were laying in bed talking. After a pause, she looks up and says, "Take a look at your dresser and ask yourself, What self-respecting 30 year old needs any of those things?" Dresser Co...
Posted by DoG fRieNd on Fri, 23 Mar 2007 05:21:00 PST

About Me Archive .2 (barely worth reading, btw)

I am trying 2 live consciously, but having growing pains! I want desperately to walk a spiritual path, but feel like I am either on top of the world one moment or failing miserably and paralyzed by fe...
Posted by DoG fRieNd on Tue, 13 Feb 2007 03:41:00 PST

About Me Archive

It may seem a little self-important to start saving my old "about me's" as blogs, but that is not my intent & I wish I started doing it earlier. I think it's interesting & helpful for personal...
Posted by DoG fRieNd on Thu, 14 Dec 2006 02:39:00 PST

Beyond the thinking mind...

Do you need more knowledge? Is more information going to save the world, or faster computers, more scientific or intellectual analysis? Is it not wisdom that humanity needs most at this time? But what...
Posted by DoG fRieNd on Wed, 29 Nov 2006 05:47:00 PST

Bricks...

So, this is probably a pretty random thing to post a blog about, but I felt like it, so I'm going to do it. For those of you who don't know me well, I work construction doing housing renovations. Alot...
Posted by DoG fRieNd on Thu, 23 Nov 2006 04:14:00 PST

The Invitation by Oriah Mountain Dreamer

I feel compelled to post and share writing/poetry that I find inspiring, so here it is:(I used to have this on my old profile as well) The Invitation It doesn't interest me what you do for a living.I ...
Posted by DoG fRieNd on Fri, 20 Oct 2006 05:41:00 PST

Something I need to remember

Sorry to be such a loser & post a quote from a book.  Maybe one of these days, i'll blog some of my own writing, which isn't half bad when i'm inspired. For now I am just posting something fo...
Posted by DoG fRieNd on Tue, 17 Oct 2006 11:21:00 PST