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A.*.A.*.

Both and Yet Neither, All and Yet None

About Me

I'm a human, that's for sure one of the things I can say, well, at least in this incarnation. I can be rather difficult, at times. I can also be very understanding. I set a lot of worth in awareness. I think without it it becomes very difficult to interact on a TRUE level with those around you. I can get very frustrated with people on terms of awareness. I can be arrogant, inconsiderate, caring, patient. I am a good listener when I feel that there's something worth listening to, which doesn't happen all the time, I assure you. I would like to see people focus on more important things in life other than what star just got married or died. The most important thing in your life is your life. Why get wrapped up in someone else's? I am a coward and not afraid to admit it, which is slightly contradictory. I am full of love and life, I have an obsession with conspiracies and the occult, spirituality, religion and I try to assimilate as many paradigms as possible. I think most people are too busy running from their own lives and identities to truly ever interact with someone because if you don't show someone else what you are, as far as disclosure goes, how can you expect anything real from them? And fuck, I live in Hollywood. More or less, like all the other people in the world, I am a walking contradiction trying to figure IT out. Beyond that, whatever. Please enjoy these videos, one of my Sifu Manuel Rodriguez performing Chu Gar Tong Long form Sam Bo Gin And the second of my good friend and brother, in kung fu and life, Brian in his video debut for Otep's "Ghostflowers".... width="425" height="350" .... width="425" height="350" ..

My Interests

Music is my love and my life, my partner til eternity. Writing, and other forms of verbal expression. Chinese martial arts, of which I study with Sifu Manuel Rodriquez (www.reddragonkungfu.com) and Korean martial arts, not that any others aren't of value, I just haven't devoted the time. Yoga. Studying the art of Psychology. Reading, and spending time with the people for whom I care about. Navigating my way through this strange, surreal, and sometimes very euphoric world.

I'd like to meet:

My maker, new and free thinkers. My musical hereos, though some are no longer with us. Anyone who can teach me something, which leaves it pretty much open dont' you think? People who want to be broken, and I can help, hahaha. Lovers, liars, thieves, artists, heretics, devotees, magicians, architects of fates design, I think you get the idea.

Music:

Synapse, Mudvayne, Messugah, Dimmu Borgir, Opeth, Otep, Pantera, Starflyer 59, Air, Pedro the Lion, American Head Charge, Dry Kill Logic, BT, Ill Nino, Slipknot, Emperor, George Gershwin, The Crystal Method, Paul Van Dyke, Crucifix Doll, Hostile Groove, Getting Even, Ours, Twista, Flyleaf, Revis, Flaw,Pantera, Alice in Chains, Elliot Smith, Jeff Buckley, Smashing Pumpkins, Stabbing Westward, Mozart, Chopin, Andrew Lloyd Webber, Coldplay, God Lives Underwater, Shredzilla, PDP, NIN, Filter, Incubus, Tori Amos, Fear Factory, Tool, A Perfect Circle, Rage Against the Machine, Hendrix, God, I could go on forever

Movies:

Kung fu movies, anything with Jet Li, braintwisters like Requiem for a Dream and Pi, Arthurian tales, anything with magicians, good comedy, stuff with a religous bent like stigmata and others like it. The Big Lebowski, The Cell, The Fisher King, Boondock Saints, The Ninth Gate, Sleepy Hollow, From Hell, Reefer Madness, Napoleon Dynomite, The Terminal, The Phantom of the Opera (Play, and Screenplay) Waking Life (see this movie) All Kevin Smith movies, Dead Alive, Army of Darkness, 8mm, Fritz the Cat, The Game(see this movie) The Matrix (all three) The Lord of the Rings(all three) you get the point

Television:

Adult swim on cartoon network, the discovery channel, especially stuff on outer space, and the history channel. Most other tv is a bunch of crap.

Books:

T he Illuminatus' by Robert Shea and Robert Anton Wilson, other books by either author like Promethius Rising and Shike, Adventures of a Reluctant Messiah, Douglas Rushkoff and Ecstacy Club, The vurt seiries, Obscure religious texts like the Dead Sea Scrolls and Gnostic Christianity, Hermetic Dogma, The Last Enchantment and any other stuff about Merlinus Ambrossius.

Heroes:

Merlin, Robert Anton Wilson, Robert Shea, Timothy Leary, Dimebag Darrell, John Lennon, The Devil, Jesus, Siddhartha (the Buddha) Larry Flynt, Maynard James Keenan, Danny Carey, all of the friends that I have in my daily life, Terran Wanderer, Jared the Red, my bandmates, anyone who can overcome, either themselves, the world, or both,, Mama O, oh yeah, the trickster God. Cool I have more now, Heath's mom, my mom, my little brother, Raven Hawk, Yuppie Goth Guy, the eye in the pyramid, I am the I in the pyramid."They say it's dangerous to talk too much about the illuminati"

My Blog

Death

Ah, as always, the category is life.  Go figure.    Death.  I think about it often.  I see this thing, this transformation pass before my eyes very often, more than I would l...
Posted by A.*.A.*. on Wed, 27 Feb 2008 01:08:00 PST

Security

I just want to say this one little thing.  When there is a security block on a a profile that requires you to READ some bullshit and type it in, ........Us half blind people are really bad at tha...
Posted by A.*.A.*. on Thu, 20 Dec 2007 02:35:00 PST

Security

I just want to say this one little thing.  When there is a security block on a a profile that requires you to READ some bullshit and type it in, ........Us half blind people are really bad at tha...
Posted by A.*.A.*. on Thu, 20 Dec 2007 02:35:00 PST

Trial by Fire

Trial by Fire, my newest desire, to see my remains on a funeral pyre Escape of what remains before going insane to find a release for the hate and the disdaain The words of the Heriphant are something...
Posted by A.*.A.*. on Fri, 31 Aug 2007 11:35:00 PST

A new classified, It’s been awhile since my last.....

Solitary incarnate initaitate, seeking Death in all its regalia, fortitude and wonder.  Looking for lasting partner in constant learning bout one' self and each other's.  Nver asking for mor...
Posted by A.*.A.*. on Wed, 22 Aug 2007 03:11:00 PST

LOVE

Sometimes you fall for the most unlikely person.  It seems almost ironic at the time, but hope being what it is, you feel, nonetheless, what you feel.  Well, I only hope that the only thing ...
Posted by A.*.A.*. on Mon, 13 Aug 2007 01:09:00 PST

In light of mind....

Bizarre, that would be the first t word that comes to mind.  The inspiration to create, to breathe even, has been fueled by so many influences lately, yet, there are some sort of crossroads here ...
Posted by A.*.A.*. on Thu, 09 Aug 2007 04:26:00 PST

Living in a dream world

No, quite literally. I've been having dreams almost every night about the road, playing shows, fucking with my gear, hanging with my band, and then I get to wake up and actually do that. I remember ...
Posted by A.*.A.*. on Tue, 22 May 2007 09:56:00 PST

Oh this wonderous thing called existance

So here we are somewhere in PA. One month into it, this is the best time of my life. The people I live with are wonderous creatures full of life, inspiration, subtleties, and magick. They inspire m...
Posted by A.*.A.*. on Tue, 01 May 2007 10:12:00 PST

Thank you Dan

To everyone for all your birthday wishes. I appreciate it. And while I'm at it, all of you friendly awesome fellow taureans, a happy birthday to you too. Much love and light from South Carolina. ...
Posted by A.*.A.*. on Tue, 24 Apr 2007 09:44:00 PST