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The King and I, I love him
What can I say about me. I have been many things through my life thus far I have worn many hats I have been A alcoholic A meth junkie A flesh peddler A liar A cheater A homeless lost soul A ego based maniac A unorganized raging bull A ungrateful bitter victim But none of those things come close to defining who I really am I am who I am I have done the things I have done And no amount of change positive or negative can undo my past Am I ashamed of my choices Hell no Do I wish my kids could of suffered less because of all my bad decisions Hell yes I do But more then anything else I have walked around for the last 35 years Unconscious, unaware and very injured I was living my life by default And it was always, always someone else’s fault but mine The system, my parents, my family or my 3 failed relationships, being abused, witnessing abuse, being raped at gunpoint twice you name it I more then likely went thru it loaded and confused And when I finally came to I blazed my self inflicted war scars with pride Screaming “Look what they did to me!!†No wonder I always ended up back in the same dirty garage with a bunch of victims consuming mass amounts of meth and feeding one another empty drugs talk I wanted to be heard and liked I wanted to see anything but who I really was because then that would mean I would have to see myself for who I really was and for all these years I have never been able to do that It has meant for me to except complete responsibility and this has been one moldy, stale cookie to swallow And in all my getting these days I have been gaining some understanding about myself It has all been one big illusion I no longer have to be ashamed of who I am I no longer have to hide I no longer need to prove myself to anyone And it is not as if people ever asked me to do so It has all been inside my ever thinking brain So on top of all the bad things I choose to share with you about who I am or the hats that I have worn I will also add I am a awesome person I love with fierce intensity I love people I am a good mother I am a sensitive person I have been a speaker I have been a Sunday school teacher My passion is to share myself Inspire Create Love Repair the things that I can I am a hard worker When I set my mind to something I go for it 111% I do my best not to judge others (and at times it is hard) Today I take full responsibility for the course my life has taken I realize that I have been living by default And I take back the power to create Most importantly I am me I am all that I am all that I ever will be and I need not do anything to Just Be My name is Marcella I am here to heal myself And live One Day at a time Pink Blessings
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