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beyondbent

In a mad world only the mad are sane

About Me

These are the words in the English language that capture that thing I like to call "me": passionate, curious,observant, intense, articulate, entertaining, , contained, explosive, eccentric, inexplicable, persistent, loquatious, a bright light at the far far end of a long dark and predominantly empty tunnel that inexplicably ends right at the very place that it began! as to words use by others to describe me? manic, obbsessed neurotic, narcissistic, best flipping friend they've ever had, intriguing, unexplainable, loyal, complex, strong... There are also a few words in Gibberish that have also been used to describe me surprisingly accurately. However, it is best that you discover these for yourself. "The secret of life is to appreciate the pleasure of being terribly, terribly deceived" -Oscar Wilde

My Interests

searching for things that i'm sure i've lost although i'm uncertain as to what those things are. Feeling a sense of conviction about nothing in particular. Strongly defending points of view of which I have absolutely no valid knowledge. Pondering the meaning of podering and the tendency to arrive at useless conclusions. changing my clothing as many times as possible each day. Examining the intentions and timing of communicated dialogue in order to extract th deeper meaning, oftentimes manipulative and obvious. And buttons.

I'd like to meet:

someone that could shock me...without trying to...

Music:

Emma Shappelin, Rouge Rouge, Djako, Koop, Emily Haines, Billie Holiday, George Michael, Prince, Ella Fitzgerald, Niyaz, David Bowie, Squirrel Nut Zippers, The Cramps, Eric Satie, Pantera, Bach, MOzart, Glen Gould,Rammstein, Lords of Acid, Victoria De Los Angelos, Sha shinder shinda, Edith Piaf, The Cure, Shirley Bassey, Concrete Blonde, Eurasure, New Order, The Irish Rovers, Orgy, Joy Division, George Michael, Dead Kennedys, David Bowie, J.S. Bach, The Eagles, Pink Floyd, Lucia Micarelli, Natasha Atlas, The Smiths, Violent Femmes, Indigo Girls, Vanessa Daou, napalm death, Prince, Eminem, Nina Simone, Bach, billy idol, Massive Attack, Tricky, Portishead, Baby Nandos, Leftfield, Maria Callas, Dead Milkmen, depechemode,zero 7, theivery corporation, moby, Bjork,Terra Deva, Tears For Fears, Nine Inch Nails, Iggy Pop, Sinatra, tracey chapman, Yaz, Sex Pistols, B-tribe,Yaz, Morrisey, The Smiths, REM, Sique Sique Sputnik, Cake, great Big Sea, Schubert, Delibes, Diana Krall, Belly, Toad the Wet Sproket, Dr Dre, the Clash, Dead Kennedys, Dead Milkmen, Dead Can Dance, Skinny Puppy, Leonard Cohen.......

Movies:

AMERICAN PSYCHO, secretary,Hostel, Pan's Labyrinth, Session 9, dog soldiers, donny darko, Crumb, amelie, RULES OF ATTRACTION, the fog, boxing helena, fear.com, texas chainsaw massacre(remake), house of 1000 corpses, the blob, children of the corn, Lolita, May, Run Lola Run. Pumpkinhead, Saw, The grudge, number one gangster, sexy beast, blue velvet, the cook the thief his wife and her lover, best in show, nightbreed, lolita, sirens, bound, a nightmare before christmas, resevoir dogs, Monsters Inc., The Ring, Carlitos Way, Requiem for a Dream, Finding Nemo, 24 hour Party People, Ghost Story, Nightbreed, Evil Dead, the hunger, orlando, Belle du Jour, Ray, Sea of Love, the shining, heavenly creatures, corpse bride, Big Fish, Labyrith, Shrek

Television:

a rectangular object probably created by some puppet of one of the seven families under the guise of entertainment whose actual purpose is mass brainwashing.

Books:

The Thesaurus,Glamorama, sexing the cherry, passion, oranges are not the only fruit, a fine balance, Oryx and Crake, The Monster at the End of this Book, one hundred years of solitude, A Fine Balance, Focault's Pendulum, how to build a catapult, Lunar Park, marcus aurelius meditations, the poisonwood bible, daughter of fortune, god of small things, the paperbag princess, oh the places you'll go

Heroes:

deniro/s, cheeros, rearos, not a good word for rhyming

My Blog

Remember, people will judge you by your actions, not your intentions. You may have a heart of g

that is all
Posted by beyondbent on Fri, 23 May 2008 10:55:00 PST

metamorphosis

now it's clear to me the difference between having a head hung up in the clouds and the parting of a foggy shroud. Deep within my cells a new vibration Natural highs seep into conversations   Th...
Posted by beyondbent on Fri, 25 Apr 2008 05:44:00 PST

whomever said

whomever said ignorance is bliss was obviously too knowledgeable to be able to attain such a state or nothing would have been said   too often we are given our sea legs when the sea has already d...
Posted by beyondbent on Sun, 06 Apr 2008 01:14:00 PST

love is

Love is a choice. love is a decision love is not a feeling, a knee jerk reaction. It does not lack control. Lack of control in the guise of "love" is selfish obsession. Love is a committment to do wha...
Posted by beyondbent on Fri, 04 Apr 2008 03:39:00 PST

emotions are not Destiny

pay attention to the thinks that cause ypu to feel angry. emotions sre not destiny. although we cannot control our inner reactions , we can choose how to respond. it is not always useful to reveal&nbs...
Posted by beyondbent on Sat, 22 Mar 2008 05:53:00 PST

jealousy

..TR>       "To cure jealousy is to see it for what it is, a dissatisfaction with self"  Joan Didion quotes (American Journalist and Novelist, b.1934)..TABLE>...
Posted by beyondbent on Thu, 20 Mar 2008 10:23:00 PST

meditatons continued

challenge your assumptions. we all size people up, make quick judgements. Instead of approaching someone or some situations as you habitually would, change your approach. Do not act on your assumption...
Posted by beyondbent on Fri, 14 Mar 2008 10:28:00 PST

meditations 2

do not be offended by the ignorance of others. It is unlikely that another's intention is ever to purposefully irritate or offend those s/he encounters. Listen patiently, ask questions. Show respect. ...
Posted by beyondbent on Wed, 12 Mar 2008 12:46:00 PST

meditations: thoughts by Beyondbent

For no particular reason and in  my usual "free range" nonpreorganized/planned or edited post-scribble style, I began writing my reflections regarding how  to be in this world. If one were s...
Posted by beyondbent on Tue, 11 Mar 2008 02:07:00 PST

Hunger

There's a mystery unravelling infront of me Electricity my pulse is racing chasing he creeps into each passing thought I have and though I've fought I cannot put a lid over the Energy Our S...
Posted by beyondbent on Sun, 24 Feb 2008 02:41:00 PST